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" in order to survive , you gotta learn to live with regrets . " - Jayz

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the grass always looks greener on social media.

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find yourself. then come find me.

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you still luhhv me or whaaa?

look, I’m not with the lack of attention. not feelin’ your pride issues, you pick up to call me just to hang up. not feeling your trust issues, hold the past over my head then cry wolf….you cry wolf too much.

yeah I smoke weed and wear red lipstick. yeah I fucked that dude back in college, I might’ve bought some addies from your homeboy, mmhmm. I called your brother a bitch when he wouldn’t say where you were… I wake up on a rampage when I’m cramping, forget to wash my make up at night, blame you when my face break out. steal your socks and your hoodie when I’m rushing out the house, burn your toast in the morning when I’m too high..

but hey babe, I never wanna catch an attitude with no one else, nobody but you. never wanna lay up under the covers with no one else, nobody but you, you.. not holding no one else’s sweaty hands, only want you inside me always, all ways.. don’t wanna wash nobody else’s hoop shorts, I only want you and yours. I know I’m a mess 8 days a week I know I come with some baggage, but I know that you know that I’m yours.. so, you still luhhv me or whaaa? you still luhhv me or whaaa?

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"If they love you that much without knowing you, they can also hate you the same way.”-Marilyn Monroe

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‪"Just because I know the rules doesn't mean I'm playing the game."‬

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had,

he was a burning house i wanted to live in.

hand on bible I really tried so hard to leave. I've never been held hostage like this before; no physical or emotional hold...he could sell me my own organs. he had me.

he was the venom and the cure. only one that was allowed to poison me and, heal me. no one else was allowed to have that effect on me...he made sure of that. he had me.

It was morning at night if he wanted it to be. only direction, was where he said. only thing that mattered was what he allowed. his world I just lived in with no trace of my existence. he had me....he had, me.

-velvet

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"Emotionally flawed. Still learning to give my heart without hiding the scars on my hand. Be patient with me love, I disappear sometimes." -Malanda

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you don’t want me, you just want someone. someone that want the same things as you. someone who fits the mold in your heart thats empty…you don’t want me, you want someone. 

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Dad, I always knew.

Dad, my love for you is eternal. I'm forever beyond grateful for you, I'll never know how I was blessed with the greatest man...but, there are things I do know and I wrote you some of those things. Love, Chizuru Velvet ------------------------------------ Dad, I always knew. I didn't understand then, but I always knew. You went to work before I could open my eyes, you couldn't make every single field trips or swim meets. you came home before I closed my eyes & made sure we knew you loved us. I didn't understand then, but I always knew. You took my toys away to give me MORE. More discipline, more structure, more lessons and more love. I didn't understand then, but I always knew. You took us out of our element away from everything we've ever known, school, friends, the island, the parks, the language, the culture. You replaced our background with more dreams, better opportunities and more family. I didn't understand then, but I always knew. We didn't play outside until we could write in cursive. you made me study all summer, made me read books that I could barely understand, not once but countless times. Now, my best friends are Dr. Seuss, Shel Silverstein and Plato. you didn't just give me a fish, you taught me how to fish. I didn't understand then, but I always knew. you skipped sleep to make our lunch, you gave up your dreams and hobbies for us. Yet, you took us to ice cream and book store EVERY Sunday afternoon. That one time, you bought me Aaliyah and Boys ll Men album when it was "books only" day....I want you to know that meant the world to me back then. I didn't understand then, but I always knew. You took away the phones late nights, grounded me when I snuck out to be wit my boyfriend. Called you from Ohio with a broken heart at 2am, you picked up, you listened to me cry, never told me "I told you so"....you just listened. You showed up to my front door in a movers truck, and you still, never told me I told you so...you just loved me. you see, I didn't understand then, but I do now. you gave me consequences, accountabilities. you showed us work ethic, you gave us tastes of the rewards. you instilled equality and kindness in our heart, taught us to always stand for humanity and what's right. you made us cry but man, no one makes me laugh like you do. you taught us Ralph was right before Kanye told us. you told us to always have a good tailor, mechanic and a lawyer on speed dial. when we need you, you break down walls, you come swinging and running. you ate last just to let us fill our tummies. you showed us love without condition, you gave us your youth, your dreams, your sweat & tears. you made sure I knew how a REAL man should love, me. all of the things I didn't understand, I do now. you did it all, you gave us your all and continue to do so. it was love, unconditionally...and that, I always, always, knew. Happy Father's Day, everyday.

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