ordinary humble girl;;

ROSANNA STEELE ✌ Boulder, Colorado native, but living here in beautiful city of New York .. 25 years old, head chef and owner of Bella's Bistro- owner of Bella Casa's. Lover of I Love Lucy and anything salted caramel.

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( f2f; rosanna x aiden | 10/11/16 )

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It was true that Aiden and Rosanna didn’t back down when it came to each other. She didn’t back down because he had a mental issue and he didn’t back down like she was someone to be cared with with innocents. It wasn’t that he treated her badly or that she treated him badly, it was the opposite. They both treated each other like normal human beings with normal emotions and problems, despite how different they were from societies normal. Aiden wasn’t the type of person that got on his hands and knees for someone else just to make them happy. He gave them what he was capable of giving them and they either liked that or they didn’t. Rosanna was someone that accepted him for him and he was someone that accepted the real her for her. Sighing as if he was upset a smile appeared on his lips, “Even if I was to take him, I already know he’d want to come back to you. He likes you more.” Turning his head slightly, he rested his chin on the top of her head, continuing to trace his finger against her back. Aiden knew how hard it was to be in a situation similar to Rosanna’s. They might have struggled with different things but he could still understand the struggles that she was going through and what was to come – what was permanent. “I don’t think it ever gets forgotten, you know? Everything you went through will always be there with you but it gets easier to live your life and push past it. I get it though, it scares me and I still think about it but it slowly gets better because you just live through it. You aren’t alone though, you can come to me. I might not be the best person for battling a recovery but I’m still here for you.” Aiden’s voice was calming and soft as he spoke, he really did mean everything he was saying. “Just because you’re depressed doesn’t make you less than anyone else and I guess that’s just what you have to keep telling yourself everyday until you start believing it – then slowly you’ll see yourself in a better light. The most you can do is not let it control your life, keep living. It’ll take a while for everything to find a normalcy in your life, believe me.”

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Looking up at him, her brow furrowed as he frowned but only turned into a smile at the sight of his, rolling her eyes slightly. “I would hope you likes me better, I am his owner.” As if on cue, her cat came and nuzzled on Aiden’s stomach, Rosanna going to run two fingers down his back. Was this crossing a friendship line? No, no not when days before they were well, making out to put it simply-- a bit of cuddling wouldn’t hurt. Letting out a shuddering breath, Rosanna listened, letting the tears actually fall from he eyes. “They all were so.... unforgettable, the first few nights all I heard was screaming... before I stayed in a place that just had people suffering from eating disorders, but this was a psych ward, this had people from the age of 18 to 68 and it was so scary. I hope to learn to live by it will come, its been a month or so and it still haunts me, it... the Doctors, I didn’t like them at all.” What did help was his soothing voice, hands going down her back as she talked- liking that she didn’t have to see his face, that she could freely speak and not be judged for it. “I know, and I am so thankful I have that in you-- so, so thankful.”Rosanna made her point by lifting her head a bit to press her lips against his jaw, a sigh leaving her lips right after. “I just.. never thought that would be me, everyone knows me as being so happy.... and I like being that, I don’t want to be sad. But I know it’s a process, I know.”

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( f2f; rosanna x aiden | 10/11/16 )

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Her place did seem more like a home from the last time he saw it. It was like she was finding comfort in her home now instead of it just being a place she slept and the small change was something Aiden actually liked to see. “Good.” Was all he said to her before smiling back at her. Rosanna was in a lot of way different from Aiden, in even more ways she was his complete opposite. She was nice, he wasn’t always that nice. She wanted affection, he wanted the affection until it got to be too much and he was setting himself on fire to get away. Yet, they both found it in each other to be comfortable with each other. Maybe it was because even if they fought they never let it completely kill their friendship. They’d cool off for a few days before coming back to each other and realizing and understanding why the other was acting the way they were so it made it easier for Aiden to have less fear of losing something when it came to Rosanna. Tapping his fingers lightly on her back he laughed and shook his head. “Dammit, I really wanted a cat.” Once she settled back in he kept his fingers on her back , occasionally using his index finger to draw random shapes, keeping his eyes on the ceiling as he began to speak. “It was hard, it is hard for me to get used to it. It takes time and it also takes finding the right medication that works for you. There will always be that feeling in your head, you can’t run away from it but you have to learn to work with it and it takes a lot of time, I’m honestly still trying to get the whole thing down but I know you Rosanna. You’re stronger than people give you credit for, just don’t give up on wanting better for yourself. Keep fighting for it and working with your doctors because in the end they want the same thing for you.” Aiden knew he should take his own advice but it was easier to say the words and agree with them than actually accomplish them when it came to Aiden Foster. 

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It was a bit odd, the comfort they found in eachother-- two people you wouldn’t expect to have the type of friendship they did, they had it. Did they always get along? Or agree on things? Of course not, Rosanna didn’t always understand the younger man, why he did things-- what was going on in his head, but she never thought differently about him. She remembered she was one of the first friends he made in the city, how they clicked nearly automatically and yet they’ve butted heads like no one she’d ever known. Maybe it was because he didn’t treat her as some little innocent doll like most did, he treated her like a person. Her head moved to laid against his chest, taking comfort in the rise and fall of it, in the way his fingers traced patterns against her back. “You can’t have my kitty, even if he likes you.” She laughed before closing her eyes, letting herself melt back into her bed, trying to relax her racing mind. “When I close my eyes at night, all I can see are those people-- hear their screams, think of their stories and it’s scary. And now... it feels like I’ve been battling my recovery alone, and maybe that’s how it should be, but it’s still terrifying. I never thought a doctor would tell me I’m depressed.” The last word fell out of her mouth brokenly, feeling stupid, stupid tears brim her eyes. “I’m trying to get a feeling of normal back, working-- cooking, trying, but it’s proving to be more hard than I thought.”

[liveincolorlia]

I shall! Your sister knows how to plan the best events so I’ll have so many people there. And it’s at her new club so.

[rosannasteele-blog]

I didn’t know she had a new club here, but it will be nothing but amazing-- knowing her. Would it be okay if I stopped by on my dinner break to drop off a present?

[liveincolorlia]

So, I’m giving people 2 weeks and a day to get ready for my epic 25th birthday because you only turn half way to 50 once. Despite the fact that no one will ever know my true age unless they keep track because black don’t crack. But yeah, 2 weeks time to pick out an costume and all that jazz. Better look amazing or don’t show up because as a fashion designer of a very high caliber, that’s just not allowed, sorry not sorry. Also RSVP or your ass doesn’t get in the door because this will be held at Delilah’s new club before it opened. 

PSA: So I suggest if you were or are trying to be a jerk to  anyone I consider close to me, don’t show up. I don’t like fake ass people. I’ve been hurt by one too many. 

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That was a lot of words missy, I hope you have a lovely birthday. <3

[jessest-broadway]

I witnessed the most ludicrous fight in a cafe today. The whole place was dead silent as we watched this couple and their relationship self-destruct. At one point, she screamed at him, “You’re not Lil Wayne! You’ll never be Lil Wayne!” The look on his face was actually sort of heartbreaking. 

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Oh my.

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( f2f; rosanna x aiden | 10/11/16 )

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Following her to her bedroom, Aiden sat next to her on the bed before lifting his legs up and leaning his back against the pillows. Reaching his hand out to pet Rosanna’s cat. “You did promise me there would be some cuddling involved but don’t think I forgot you wanted someone to talk to.” He leaned closer to her, taking his hand off the cat and wrapping his arm around Rosanna. At the end of the day, Aiden was a good friend and if you knew him, if you knew how he worked you were able to see the really sweet side of him but you were also more vulnerable to see the not so sweet side of him. Aiden had a weird way of ticking and not many people could handle him for as long as Rosanna been able to. He might have not been perfect but at the end of the day if he was needed, if he had a friend in need he would be there for them. “Fine, since you’re asking me I’ll take him off your hands. I don’t have flannel sheets so.” He looked at her with a smile, joking around with her.

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One thing Rosanna had worked on was making her house feel more like a home, no more bare walls-- decorations everywhere, but yet it was simple, very much her. “I did, I do remember.” She said softly as she looked up at him before a small smile tugged at her lips-- her arm wrapping around his his waist before letting her head fall back against his shoulder. Rosanna was an affectionate person, there was no doubt about that- and everyone knew that, she was always one to offer a hug, a kiss to the cheek, she truly believed it was the best way to show your thereness for another, as long as they were comfortable with it. At his words, she gasped harshly, pinching his side lightly as laughter rang through her small frame. “You will not take my kitty mister, he is mine.” She said, looking back at him with a grin on her face before she relaxed once more- what she wanted to talk about heavy on her mind. “How did you get used to it? Taking medications? I don’t like how they make my head feel.”

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( f2f; rosanna x aiden | 10/11/16 )

Knocking on the door, Aiden slipped his hands into his pockets before stepping back slightly as he waited for @rosannasteele to open the door. A lot had been going on with Aiden and a lot had been going on with Rosanna so it was a good thing in Aiden’s opinion that they were seeing each other, willing to be there for each other. That’s what friends were for, right? Aiden didn’t know exactly how much he would open up about his trip and what went wrong while seeing his mother for her birthday but he knew he wanted to hear what Rosanna had to say about what was going on with her program and with anything else on her mind. He wanted to be there for her. Once the door opened Aiden stepped closer again, pulling his hands out of his pockets and giving her a smile. “Told you I’d be here.” Getting permission to come in he walked inside before turning towards her and stopping in front of her, ‘causing him to look down at the shorter brunette. “So Rosanna Steele, tell me, what’s on your mind?”

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Between her stupid stomach ache and talk with Delilah, Rosanna wasn’t feeling too hot-- clad in a pair of leggings and an old baggy shirt, she doned no make=up and pig-tailed messy braids, she only wrapped her blanket around herself as she went to answer the door. Seeing the younger man did in fact send a smile to her face, letting him in before closing the door behind him, feet padding back across the wood floors. “And you are here, and I did believe I promised you cuddles so c’mon mister.” She said with a dimpled grin, turning the last corner before sliding back into her bed- laughing as her cat came right back up. “Since it’s been getting cold out, I put my flannel sheets on the bed, and he is not happy with me at all.”

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@rosannasteele: oh.

@rosannasteele: i'm going to hide in my blanket burrito forever now.

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Venice had those gondola rides and I’m beyond sure that I spent most of my souvenir money on it. Why waste money on an I heart Italy t-shirt when I can ride a gondola up and down for the better part of my day? That’s true but some people give you the stink eye if you don’t speak the language. You know, just like Trump supporters and people of Latin descent. 

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Oh my, but what a lovely way to spend the money? The only other thing I can think of that’s better is maybe the bakeries. That is true, I’d like to think people are like my family, where when someone shows even the effort of trying to learn the langue, it’s lovely.... but not everyone is like that. To me, if someone visits my home, and they take the time to try to speak in the native tongue, it shows so much respect that it’s okay if it’s not perfect, if it’s not fluent. 

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text message ;; sorella maggiore

delilah: if you say so

delilah: i'm trying and i'll try not to but no guarantee

delilah:

rosanna: i know so, one night we can do that- and you can tell me whatever you can and i will listen all i can.

rosanna: it's hard, and it makes a lot of time

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text message ;; sorella maggiore

delilah: maybe...it might take some time to do get it out there but i guess that could work.

delilah: i'm trying to do things that make me happy now

delilah: of course you're still my rosebud

rosanna: i have all the time, and all of the patience.

rosanna: focus on that, focus on the happy; but don't hide and swallow the sad at the same time.

rosanna: good

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text message ;; sorella maggiore

delilah: can't and don't want to. because i'll just end up at the ED again because i worked myself up too much.

delilah: which is more than i can really say for me

delilah: it's just been in a bad spot and i don't know what to do to fix it

delilah: i love you too

rosanna: maybe we can do a little at a time? i dont want to make you sick, but it'll just be me. it can be like when we were in high school and would push together beds and talk.

rosanna: :(((

rosanna: you let yourself feel bad, because if you ignore it then it'll just get bad again. you do things that make you happy.

rosanna: am i still your rosebud?

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text message ;; sorella maggiore

delilah: he's been making me smile, doing little things. he notices, you know?

delilah: i just don't know if i can

delilah: there's been a lot going on and i don't really have aiden to tell. can't say he's my best friend when he hasn't been around, i'm sure you've seen him more than me.

delilah: a lot has been changing but no one's noticed till now and somehow it still feels like my fault

delilah: get some rest, love. you need it.

delilah: we can do dinner though.

rosanna: i understand that.

rosanna: is it you can't? or you don't want to because you are stubborn like momma? i think you can, i don't want there to be secrets, i want to help my big sister.

rosanna: haven't seen much of anyone, but i have seen him once in the past few weeks, yes. you can talk to me.

rosanna: i've noticed, i've just been.... i dont want to say selfish because you don't like that, but i've been, you know. it's not your fault, im not blaming you for anything.

rosanna: okay, okay- i wont turn my phone off but i'll put it on that do not disturb thingy.

rosanna: i love you.

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Night off means Rocky Horror

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I’ve never seen that, is it any good?

[taylorxalexandra]

So, according to the interwebs today is National Kick Butt day. Now, I for one spent a lot of time just imagining people lightly butt kicking other people. But, actually thinking of cool kick butt people is much more fun. So, I hope everyone has had an amazing kick butt day!

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Did you have a good day?

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