Dreamer's Disease

Where I come to vent.

[riplikeren]

[roses-andtheirthorns]

SCREAMS

[roses-andtheirthorns]

Ugh the secondhand embarrassment is unreal. I have a lot to think about. Trying to trust the process, but I’m lowkey over it. I’d need to see some drastic improvements soon, because this relationship would not have been the beautiful thing it was, if it wasn’t for me. We would not be speaking today if it wasn’t for me. Now I’m taking the backseat. It’s YOUR turn to carry the weight of this relationship. If one person cannot value and cherish me, someone else definitely will, and people make it known. I’ve just been too loyal to ever let someone come between my relationship, despite our struggles.

[roses-andtheirthorns]

Part of me is also sad, angry and embarrassed that my family and loved ones believed I had a good man, but then he went and did this. It makes me sad thinking about having to explain to them why we didn’t work out. I hope I don’t have to, but Hope doesn’t mean reality.

[roses-andtheirthorns]

Feeling better today thankfully. Still sucks, but I can’t make someone see the value in me if they don’t want to. If everyone around us saw how special I was, you know that someone like me does not come around again. I was beating myself up, but for what? I know how this is going to play out if he decides to walk away from us, and it’s not good. This is something I feel deep in my gut. I just hope for his sake he chooses right, but if not, oh well. Even his mom knows that walking away would be a mistake. He would be creating his own hell, not him being placed in it.

[roses-andtheirthorns]

I can’t fucking believe that the man that made me feel so loved and so safe, did this to me. We were supposed to grow old together, but a young and pretty girl came along and I suddenly didn’t matter anymore. Just like that, all these years were no longer worth it to you. All the sacrifices I made and the love and support I showered you with were not enough to choose me. I loved you so much. You knew i would do anything and everything for you. I just can’t wrap my head around this.

[roses-andtheirthorns]

I am seriously so fucking sad. I miss you terribly. I just wish we could erase these past few months and go back to loving each other. I have not eaten anything today and I know I need to, but my sadness is overwhelming. All I want to do is sleep and escape this pain. I just can’t believe it’s happening again.

[roses-andtheirthorns]

Que tristeza.

[sunflorally]

so you dated the wrong person and learned a hard lesson. you chose the wrong major and had to start over again. you cherished a friend who backstabbed you. it sucks, but it’s also going to work out. that’s life; you learn, hurt, love, cry, laugh, and keep going. you experience setbacks and you grow and it’s all okay.

[riplikeren]

[roses-andtheirthorns]

Hello darkness my old friend.

[lowpolyanimals]

Capybara by u/DJersey98

[roses-andtheirthorns]

I’m so sad. I thought the reason I was so depressed the past few weeks was because I was PMS’ing, but my period is almost over and I still feel the same. I know there’s more to it, but I guess I haven’t really taken the time to figure out why I’m feeling this way. I know part of it, but I don’t really understand the other part. Like, I’m not sure if I’m being logical or being sad over nothing? Well, I’m sure it’s not nothing, but it’s just less painful to think about it like that I guess.

[roses-andtheirthorns]

Last Tuesday we had to say goodbye to you, and I miss you so much it hurts. Thank you for 14 years of loyalty, happiness and unconditional love. I will miss you shoving my door whenever you wanted something from me. I will miss the grumpy faces you’d make when you didn’t get your way. I will miss seeing you happily soak up the sun, or stare at the moon. You were the biggest sweetheart. No matter how much of a bully my cat was, you were always gentle and patient with her. I’m happy Elaina got to meet you. You were so loved by everyone that met you, and you are missed dearly. I’m thankful I got to be there with you until the very end, and to be there for you like you were there for us. Thank you Lucky, for being the best dog ever. ❤️🐾 https://www.instagram.com/p/CY7tdAcD8Uj/?utm_medium=tumblr

[roses-andtheirthorns]

Sad and lonely. I miss Lucky.

[roses-andtheirthorns]

SoOoOoOo Saaaaaaaad. :(

[roses-andtheirthorns]

I feel horribly alone again.