Aug 4, 2020
#amongst all the things I wish I could tell you.#maybe you'll see these but maybe you never will and that's okay.#i wrote these days ago now but they feel so... so painfully accurate with how I'm thinking and feeling.#why does my heart still long to be in your hands#why do I still want to be yours#i know why.#because i love you. and i have for a long time and there is no way you can possibly feel this too.#this is my last post here I swear it.#hhh ;;#I'm about to ruin everything but I'm ready.#if it was to ever work i need to tell you what I need too.#and I'm scared of doing that.#because i know I'm a lot to handle.#i didnt just leave bc we weren't going in the same directions so to speak#i left because im fucking scared to talk about what i need.#and because i just. hhh. I'm. so bad at communicating all of this and my heart aches and I don't know what to dooo#maybe you've moved on.#personal
