ROTTED *

ind. sel. priv. original character. loved by alex.

[rotstain]

LEE  HAS  MOVED  BLOGS  !  

hi  i  know  i  went  silent  on  this  blog  but  i  wanted  a  clean  start.  figured  out  what  i  wanna  do  with  lee,  who  i  wanna  use  for  him,  yada  yada.  so  all  threads  will  be  dropped  unless  otherwise  asked  and  i’m  just  starting  fresh.  not  too  many  changes  but  an  updated  bio,  the  good  stuff.  so  yeah  !  hope  to  see  y’all  there.

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LEE  HAS  MOVED  BLOGS  !  

hi  i  know  i  went  silent  on  this  blog  but  i  wanted  a  clean  start.  figured  out  what  i  wanna  do  with  lee,  who  i  wanna  use  for  him,  yada  yada.  so  all  threads  will  be  dropped  unless  otherwise  asked  and  i’m  just  starting  fresh.  not  too  many  changes  but  an  updated  bio,  the  good  stuff.  so  yeah  !  hope  to  see  y’all  there.

[rotstain]

anywho  i’m  still  deciding  but  i  might  just  make  a  new  blog  for  lee  and just  totally  revamp  everything  

[rotstain]

i’ll  come  back  to  lee  soon,  i  just  gotta  sort  shit  out  for  him  lmao  

[venturespetrock]

anyway been a while since i posted selfies here 

[panteon-doll]

Some gross slasher with no empathy: I’m here to brutally murder you.

Me:

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wolfadored‌.

   something’s  not  right  with  him.  he  smells  different,  and  it’s  not  just  the  unease  that’s  rolling  off  him  in  waves.  asking  to  keep  the  kids  away  is  entirely  out  of  character,  and  she  thought  they  were  past  the  awkward  stage  of  learning  to  co-parent.  a  frown  slides  over  her  face,  arms  folding  across  her  chest.  “what  the  fuck?  you  can’t  just  decide  that  you  don’t  want  to  see  them,  they’re  not  going  to  understand  it.  i  don’t  understand  it.”  it  just  doesn’t  make  sense  –  lee  has  never  been  anything  but  proud  to  take  on  the  role  of  their  father,  even  in  the  wake  of  their  romantic  separation.  “why  are  you  doing  this?”

        ❛  tell  ‘em  i  got  a  movie  or  something,  i  don’t  know.  ❜  an  obvious  lie,  but  they’re  kids.  it’s  not  like  they’re  going  to  see  he  dropped  out  of  any  movies.  ❛  i’m  not  doin’  this  to  be  a  piece  of  shit  or  something.  ❜  if  there  were  a  better  way,  he’d  take  it.  being  separated  from  the  kids  is  a  special  kind  of  hell.  ❛  i  just  wanna  make  sure  they’re  safe  and  i  can’t  say  with  certainty  that  they’re  that  with  me  right  now.  ❜  he  opens  his  mouth,  pointing  to  his  teeth,  just  in  case  she  hadn’t  already  noticed  the  difference.   ❛  ‘cause  pretty  sure  teeth  aren’t  supposed  to  look  like  a  fuckin’  shark  and  my  powers  are  getting  so  out  of  control  and  ---  ❜  he  trails  off,  shrugging  his  shoulders,  ❛  point  is,  i  don’t  want  them  getting  hurt  or  pulled  into  something  or  ---  whatever.  so  i  need  you  to  promise  that  even  if  i  beg,  you  gotta  keep  them  from  me  til  whatever’s  happening  i  get  sorted  out.  ‘cause  i  want  them  safe,  even  if  it’s  from  me.  ❜

[rotstain]

@tendersores  asked  ‘   i can’t believe that you lied to me. / haley  ‘  //  angst

          he  feels  like  shit,  looks  like  it  too,  but  he  wasn’t  ready  to  have  this  conversation.  he  doesn’t  want  to  have  to  explain  himself  to  them,  mostly  because  he  doesn’t  even  know  how  to.  he’s  felt  bad.  lying  to  them  is  one  thing  he  told  himself  he  would  never  do,  and  yet  that  seems  to  be  all  he’s  doing  now.  lying  to  them  about  where  he  is,  what  he’s  doing,  how  he’s  feeling,  even  about  working  when  he’s  already  dropped  out  of  any  jobs  he  had.  he  should  have  known  they  would  find  out,  especially  after  his  latest  bar  stunt  ----  he’s  famous,  he  can’t  just  be  fighting  in  public  and  expecting  it  to  fly  under  the  radar.  

        ❛  i  don’t  know,  i  don’t  like  who  i’m  becoming.  ❜  not  that  he’s  helping  himself  out  in  any  way.  the  things  he  can  control  he’s  still  deciding  to  go  down  the  worst  path  for  himself.  he’s  thrown  away  the  effort  to  better  himself.  ❛  didn’t  want  you  to  worry.  ❜  though,  he’s  sure  that  now  it’s  probably  worse  than  what  it  would  have  been  before.  ❛  i’m  just  tired  and  filled  with  like  ----  all  this  anger  and  hate  and  fear  and  i  didn’t  want  you  having  to  deal  with  that.  i  didn’t  want  you  seeing  me  become  something  that  i  quite  honestly  hate.  ❜  a  beat  as  he  runs  his  tongue  over  sharpened  teeth,  ❛  i  may  like  monsters,  but  i  don’t  wanna  become  one  ---  and  that’s  what  it  feels  like.  i  didn’t  know  how  to  talk  about  it  with  you,  or  anyone,  i  just  thought  lying  would  make  things  easier  for  everyone.  ❜

[rotstain]

me  hearing  about  a  h//awkeye  tv  show:  :) ! me  realizing  it’s  still  mcu  h//awkeye:  :( 

[rotstain]

@wolfadored  asked   ‘   alcohol isn’t going to solve your problems.  ‘  //  angst 

       ❛  yeah,  you  sure  you  can  talk?  isn’t  that  what  you  did?  ❜  he  regrets  it  almost  as  soon  as  the  words  escape  his  mouth.  not  something  he’d  usually  say,  but  then  again  he’s  not  feeling  himself  lately.  ❛  nope.  no,  sorry,  that’s  not  ----  ❜  he  runs  his  hands  down  his  face,  giving  his  head  a  light  shake,  ❛  i  didn’t  mean  it.  i  lashed  out,  i  --  i  really  didn’t  mean  it,  alright?  ❜  he  shifts  awkwardly,  feeling  the  guilt.  he’s  never  been  great  when  it  comes  to  controlling  his  impulses  or  thinking  before  speaking,  but  it’s  only  gotten  worse  lately.  as  if  there  were  a  cue  to  his  thoughts,  the  lights  above  them  start  to  flicker.  ❛  not  that  it’s  excusable,  but  ---  ❜  he  chews  his  lip  lightly,  being  sure  not  to  accidentally  break  any  skin.

        ❛  i’m  ----  i  feel  like  i’m  losing  my  shit,  kenz.  i’m  not  feeling  like  myself,  i’m  saying  shit  i  wouldn’t,  things  about  me  are  changing,  ❜  it  was  one  thing  when  it  was  just  his  teeth  becoming  sharper,  but  his  nails  are  starting  to  feel  more  like  claws  and  his  powers  have  gotten  more  out  of  control  than  they  previously  were.  ❛  i  just  don’t  wanna  feel  scared,  i  wanna  feel  anything  else  but  terrified  of  what’s  happening,  ya  know?  cause  i  don’t  even  know  what’s  happening  but  all  this  it’s  ----  it’s  distracting  me.  ❜  he  knows  it’s  stupid,  it’s  a  dangerous  path  to  go  down  considering  his  family  history,  and  while  it  may  not  be  a  problem  yet,  it  definitely  isn’t  healthy.  ❛  i  don’t  know  how  else  to  stop  being  so  fuckin’  terrified.  ❜

[rothelp]

miscellaneous angst starters.

when were you going to tell me?

you can’t keep doing this to yourself.

that’s…a lot of blood.

can you walk?

please don’t lie to me.

you were supposed to leave.

i’m not going anywhere without you.

shh, it’s okay. it was just a dream.

there was nothing more you could have done.

it wasn’t your fault.

this is all my fault.

you aren’t acting like yourself.

i’m never going to let [her/him/them] hurt you again.

you’re hurting me.

don’t ever do that again.

go to hell.

please don’t cry.

you have to stay awake.

i wish i could take the pain away.

you could have died.

hey – stay with me.

it’ll be over soon.

did you ever love me?

i’m sorry. i can’t do this anymore.

things won’t always hurt this bad.

you passed out.

how much have you had?

i’m okay. it’s all fine.

it’s not okay! you’re not fine!

let me get you something for the pain.

it’s nothing. it’s just a bruise.

it’s clearly not nothing.

have you been to the doctor?

i didn’t mean the things i said.

i thought we meant something.

people who are okay don’t act like this.

you don’t have to go through this by yourself.

i don’t want you to be alone.

please don’t regret me.

i heard you crying.

you need to get some rest.

when was the last time you ate something?

i’m worried about you.

did you have another nightmare?

[name], there’s nobody there.

i want to be happy but i don’t think i deserve it.

please talk to me.

why are you mad at me?

alcohol isn’t going to solve your problems.

don’t leave me.

did you do this to yourself?

it’s breaking my heart to see you like this.

tell me what’s wrong.

tell me how to make it better.

why don’t you care?

get the hell away from me.

please don’t do this.

i can’t believe that you lied to me.

just…stay for the night.

you obviously can’t be trusted to take care of yourself, so let me do it for you.

you can’t die. i won’t let you.

just hang on, okay?

hold my hand if you need to.

i’m sorry.

why do you have a gun?

don’t panic.

just breathe.

you’re bleeding.

i’m trying to stop the bleeding.

you’ve been crying, i can tell.

you should have told me sooner.

i wanted to tell you in person.

a phone call would’ve been nice.

i hate you.

i love you.

[rotstain]

lee’s  healing  factor  only  kicks  in  if  he  dies  again,  otherwise  he  heals  at  the  same  pace  he  did  when  he  was  human,  so  him  going  out  of  his  way  to  get  his  ass  kicked  is  definitely  something  that’s  noticeable.  tho  he  thinks  it  makes  him  look  badass  so  he  doesn’t  mind.

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destinedgreat‌.

          “ no, it doesn’t work like that. ” a small, tentative smile, hiding the boy’s nervousness. here he was, spilling secrets on his own physiology to a demon, of all the creatures in all the world… and yet, maybe it was just nice. to have someone… curious. not concerned, not scared. intrigued. interested. excited. he wished he got that reaction more often. “ my wings are… bigger. i think? maybe not as big as an archangel’s… i’m not sure. ” pretty hard to tell, when such parts couldn’t really be measured. unless of course, you want to risk someone walking in and having their eyes burned out of their sockets now, of course…

          @rotstain | starter call

          he  nods,  genuinely  interested  in  every  detail.  angels,  demons,  half  breeds,  it’s  all  new  to  him  ----  despite  the  fact  a  demon  is  what  is  he  (  well,  becoming  is  a  better  word,  it’s  not  an  overnight  process  ),  he  doesn’t  know  much  about  anything.  clearly  by  the  fact  he  doesn’t  grasp  just  how  powerful  the  kid  in  front  of  him  is.  ❛  dude,  that’s  awesome!  ❜  a  grin  spreads  over  his  features,  ❛  do  you  have  cool  powers  that  go  with  those  cool  ass  wings  too?  ❜

[rotstain]

part  of  me  wants  to  make  a  final  boy  oc  but  like  any  horror  franchise  the  killer  isn’t  dead  and  gone  

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me:  barely  keeping  up  with  francis  and  lee,  hasn’t  even  done  shit  on  my  s/piderman  blog  also  me:  i  wanna  make  a  new  oc

[rotstain]

BELOW THE SURFACE EVERYONE IS PRETTY COMPLICATED. BASED ON YOUR ANSWERS, WE THINK THE FOLLOWING THREE TRAITS ARE IMPORTANT STRANDS IN YOUR PERSONALITY

–   RATIONALITY.

you  like  clarity  and  intelligent  simplicity  and  you  get  frustrated  at  messy  thinking.  this  can  make  you  seem  unreasonably  pushy  to  some,  but  it  is  actually  a  virtue:  you  are  motivated  by  a  horror  at  pointless  effort  and  a  longing  for  precision  and  insight  into  how  things  and  people  work . your  ability  to  synthesise  and  bring  order  is  essential  in  producing  thinking  which  is  truly  helpful.

themes:

What is Philosophy For?

Philosophy ‘ Ludwig Wittgenstein

Who Are You to Say That?

–   AGGRESSION.

one  part  of  your  character  is  anger  in  all  its  forms:  frustration,  outrage  –  and  when  anger  is  suppressed  –  bitterness,  grumpiness,  and  bodily  aches.  fundamentally,  frustration  comes  from  hope:  you  get  upset  because  you  expect  your  life  will  be  more  than  a  valley  of  tears.  one  way  to  deny  aggression  is  to  direct  it  inwards,  as  self-criticism.  but  you’re  at  your  best  when  you  acknowledge  anger,  and  act  it  out  clearly  and  in  a  focused  way,  with  honour.

themes:

How to Forgive

How to Deal with Conflict

On How to Disagree

–   EXHIBITIONISM.

there’s  a  strand  in  your  nature  which  loves  making  an  impression  –  perhaps  with  your  clothes,  or  conversation,  or  in  a  self-revealing  blog  or  a  novel.  you  like  to  dramatise  yourself,  to  pose  as  a  unique,  perhaps  mysterious  person,  to  joke  or  exaggerate  your  part  in  adventures.  though  you  might  more  than  once  have  been  called  a  show  off,  it  is  actually  a  generous  tendency:  you  want  to  please  and  entertain  others.  it  could  be  the  start  of  good  teaching  and  leadership.

themes:

Why Comedy Matters

On Charm

Using Sex to Sell

tagged  by:  @destinedgreat tagging:  @wolfadored,  @biirdbone,  @krypretty,  @sheoccult,  @starbreathed

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@fanghit  asked   “You look like shit.”   //  not  doing   too  good 

      he  knows  but  hey!  nose  scrunches  up  in  disgust,  maybe  more  so  directed  at  himself  than  anything.  sporting  a  black  eye  and  a  hangover  from  hell,  it  was  just  a  bad  night.  bad  few  weeks,  but  that’s  not  the  point.  ❛  yeah?  ❜  he  can’t  deny  the  fact,  he  said  it  to  himself  earlier.  a  light  touch  at  the  bruising  surrounding  his  eye,  but  a  smug  grin  spreads  over  him.  ❛  you  think  i  should  reschedule  my  photoshoot?  or  ya  think  i  can  pass  off  as  like  bad  boy  sort  of  hot?  like  ‘oh  wow  he  gets  in  fights,  want  me  a  bad  boy  like  that’  sort  of  hot?  i  trust  you’ll  be  honest  with  me  since,  ya  know,  you’re  sort  of  an  asshole  for  pointing  it  out  in  the  first  place.  ❜