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jun/demian | 23 | they queer | anarcho-communist | vegan | artist | disabled pfp: yuki to matsu

[biocrafthero]

perceived skill

[sheet--metal--girl]

if youre transgender you have to live. i love you.

[ratsquinks]

ohhh my god oh my g oh gomm ohhh ghhh

[silicon65]

Gef the Talking Mongoose

[momopatchi]

PKMN tags for my Patreon members

[faun-grove]

fine. ogle if you must 🙄

[ahmnorhein-zkn]

Repost, now do your honors.

[bobbole]

Near Ramallah - Palestine, 1992

[nelcielocoidiamanti-blog-deacti]

[rotting-charm]

i usually have stupid nightmares so i ignore them. being on meds made them longer in dreams but not worse as everybody told me. now ive been off them for a while, and are the usual again.

a recurrent one is where i have to defend myself. i dont get the strenght i know i could pull off, im weaker, my body doesnt answer right, im slower in punching and thinking. it doesnt end in me losing or winning (i think? in that case, i never remember), im just stuck in the eternal fight, in my body, in the slow motion of me throwing fists badly or not punching hard enough.

the fear is feeling unable to fight back, related to child abuse and bullying [plus rise of fascism again] incidents, but recently i had a dream where i could throw a fist hard. i dont remember much, but idk, that was a first. i dont feel exactly like im at my strongest, but i know i could be — and my mind allowing me to think it could change what i think of myself, i gotta admit its interesting in the least. i think about people that have asked me to be rough with them (bd/sm) and restraining myself all the same because i dont want to hurt them badly. always being too careful because im afraid i would exceed myself or they wouldnt be able to really dictate how hard they want it. ah. eh. i guess. i have to sleep.

[rotting-charm]

ill make you beg for the torture

[guerrillatech]

[rotting-charm]

Tag game: tag ten people you'd like to to know better. Tagged by @widthofmytongue (thanks comrade:-3c)

Last song you listened to: i was listening to the challengers original score bc i was searching for music to dance to for a playlist, for funsies and studying.

Favourite colour: usually crimson, lavender, moss or black, either clothes or objects. for hair dye since you mentioned, half blonde or white, i like purple too.

Currently watching: videos mostly, now watching last evasive's "I Made Trans Women Watch "Juwanna Mann"" / i havent been watching movies or series a lot. last one was an almodóvar movie bc film uni club, series, well ive been rewatching jojos with friends.

Currently reading: "china in ten words" by yu hua, and "karl marx, between science and revolution" by francisco josé león, buuuut i should be reading my uni material lol.

Current obsession: bdsm and kink once again.

Currently working on: learning chinese! making more art, journaling, making new friends, switching to linux, university organization.

Last google search: that pic meme of the ghost of communism.

Tagging: @nxposure @saintdenisofparis @bbael @la-mismisima-m @idunno45 @gandoilfo @bone-collector-cryptid

[rotting-charm]

something needs to be said about how uncomfortable is searching for bdsm and kinky content that includes diverse bodies (racialized, disabled, fat, trans, old, etc because humans bodies are diverse) and doesnt fall into fetichizing hegemonic content :-/// (its capitalism once again)

[nojoki]

get up, johnny boy!

[enbaluka-tokyo-drift]

[tabby-anarchy]

I'm waiting, old sport.