Is everything ruined? / What ruined everything? / What can we excavate from the remains?
look, i / still have nightmares still think of you am still / reminded of you everywhere / because you sank your teeth in / like a bad dog who never learned to let go. / look, i / never want to see you again but i don't think i've erased your pictures yet / i'm too afraid to go through the camera roll. / look, i don't know how to say any of this to your face / i will never say this to your face / but / you ruined me. / laid salt and barren on these fields and / ignored my weeping. / taken my home and everyone within it. how dare you / when i placed my heart to hand / trusting delicate, already twice-shy, / you did this to me.
but i have left behind homes before / let them crumble to houses behind me. / you will not / (can not) / define me. one day, / i'll stop screaming at you in my dreams.












