Summary: Rowan is tired of Dylan avoiding her. She shows up on his doorstep to see what’s changed. The answer ends up showing how far apart they’ve grown.
Rowan was tired of Dylan’s evasive bullshit. They were supposed to be friends. She was friendly with other people, but he was her friend. There was no work in the community building between them, it just was. Until he’d decided to just disappear. She wanted answers. She’d always wanted to be the neighbor in the window, but Dylan’s room was on the second floor. So she had to knock on the door instead.
Dylan didn’t want to get up. He was tired from his workout. But he’d yelled for Shannon six times already. She wasn’t going to the door. He carried his tired legs down the stairs and opened the door. “Hey,” he leaned against the frame, “What’s up?”
“You’re shirtless.” Rowan swallowed. “Sorry. That was a weird thing to say.”
Dylan grinned. “If it works on you, it’s bound to work on other people.”
“I didn’t say that.” Rowan rolled her eyes. “I just have never seen your torso before. It’s weird.”
“Yeah, yeah. Some part of you like it. And I’m okay with that.” Dylan crossed his arms. “I’m just not interested in anything physical.”
“How magnanimous.” Rowan sat in silence until she could see him shifting. Served the dumbass right. “You’ve been a ghost all summer. What gives?”
Dylan gestured to his torso. “I’ve been busy.”
“Exercising isn’t a personality.” Rowan retorted.
“No, but it takes a lot of work to get started. And then you’ve gotta maintain it. I can’t sit on my ass all day with my guild and get laid by hot weird girls.” Dylan sighed. “So, I made a choice.”
Rowan didn’t want to even contemplate what that meant. She knew most of the weird girls in town. She was one. But she wasn’t interested in knowing which ones of them had decided to fuck her friend. Or maybe ex-friend. “Really? That’s the choice you made.”
Dylan expected this. He’d gone through it with Sloane once. He could do it again. People just didn’t have his vision. It was nice to think that shit like appearance didn’t matter, but it did. He’d been the one holding himself back. Now, he was reclaiming his position. He could be on the popular pyramid. He wasn’t going to let the loss of one friend stop him. He had others. Well….he had Tee. That counted. He shrugged at Rowan.
“Look, I get that you were tired of being a virgin, but there’s more to life than that. What happened to being you unapologetically?” At one point it had been the only thing that bonded Rowan’s friendship with Dylan.
“I am. Same personality, new skin.” Dylan laughed at his own joke.
Rowan was more hesitant. Whether he meant it that way or not, she knew the skin walking myth. It wasn’t exactly a compliment. He was shifting his perception of who he wanted to be. This would be the first drastic change in a domino chain of many. Would it be worth it to stick around for the others. She wasn’t so sure.
“Hey,” Dylan shoved her shoulder playfully, “That was your cue to laugh. I’m still me. I just got an upgrade. I thought you’d be happy.”
“Why did you think I’d care,” Rowan gestured to her wig, the clip in earrings that went around her entire ear. The whole thing was pretend. It wasn’t to fit in. It was to stand out. She loved being able to change the way she looked based on how she felt. She understood that. What she didn’t understand was changing the way you looked to hold more power.
The mirth died on Dylan’s face. Okay, so maybe this was a bit more serious than he’d thought. Yeah he’d been a dick, but he was always a dick. She knew that. She put up with it. This shouldn’t have been any different. “Thought you’d care about my happiness.”
“Are you happy?” Rowan’s words sounded more like a challenge than a question.
Because she was his friend, Dylan was willing to give her a real answer. He actually thought about it. Was he happy? Well, he wasn’t as depressed. His guild wasn’t made of people that thrived socially. Picking up dates was more entertaining. But happiness was an elusive thing. You couldn’t be happy all the time. “Dunno, but I like getting laid?”
Rowan scoffed. “Yeah, a lot of people do. It doesn’t answer my question.” She softened her tone. “Is this really who you want to be?”
“Yeah.” Dylan didn’t even have to think about it. This was what he wanted. More than anything. He was getting the life he’d deserved. His body had just been a hindrance. Now, he was the man.
“What does that mean for us?” Rowan’s eyes dropped to the ground.
“Damn, it’s not a break up.” Dylan expected a laugh or two at that. But the more he thought about it, the more real it felt. They didn’t have a romantic connection whatsoever but they had been a team. Tony Stark wanted more. So, Sam Wilson needed to fuck off.
“It is a break up. Just not a romantic one.” Rowan took a deep breath. She hated losing community. He was her first friend in Mohican territory. She couldn’t believe this whole thing was based around popularities and sex. It was disgustingly juvenile. But she knew what would happen from here. She’d heard about it. From him. She just never expected it would happen to them. He’d seemed happy with his guild and his clarinet and his wry, but douchey humor. “Thank you for the time we spent together.” It was the nicest she could be in the moment.
“No prob.” Dylan placed his hand on her shoulder, “Doesn’t have to be the end.”
As Rowan walked away, she knew that something was shifting. She didn’t like to delude herself about peer relationships. She knew what this was, even if he wasn’t ready to face it yet. They were ending. And sure enough, when the school year came around, his eyes drifted past her as though she’d never even existed.