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To think wanting to be unblocked got us here.

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I’m upset about so much, but I’m in no place to be upset about it. I can only accept what’s given

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Fully grieving someone who is just a phone call away

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Am I a coward for checking on you every night but still not reaching out?

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I want to run and never come back

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I can’t but you can

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I let anger and fear destroy the things I love. I don’t think we can make it back from this one

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You knew you loved me and I knew I loved you, but we waited to say it during our goodbye

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We both know how this ends, how long do we continue before we admit it won’t ever be the same

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You don’t look at me the same, of course the fear is kicking in

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Fucking weirdos

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You said it. Sure it was a dream but you said it

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I had such a beautiful week, I dreamt of being my most vulnerable self with you

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This feels right. I’m able to be gentle and soft without fear holding me back

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And just like that I felt like I’ve said too much

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I would have done anything for us to try again and try to work things out, anything. Remember that

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I wish I could still come home to you, end the night with you.