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I feel so pathetic, really.

I am starting to wait for your messages. Early in the morning I will stare at my phone to see if you sent a message ><

I know it's not your fault to why I am feeling like this. It's just that I feel sorry for my self to feel this kind of thing. I didn't even know you, and we only chatted for like just less than a week, and yet... Ugh!

The more I see our conversation, the more I feel sorry for myself. You always left me hanging after starting a convo. You will suddenly disappear without saying anything.

I know, I know it is me who's at fault. Maybe you don't want to talk to me anymore. Maybe you find me boring now. Maybe... you're not really interested >< and I am just the only one who finds you interesting.

Should I start to stay low and not respond to your messages longer than before? I should really divert my attention now for I am feeling like it will just hurt me. It's true that I don't get easily attached to someone especially if I only met the person online. Who knows I'll be intrigued with the way you think. You also stirred up my emotions by displaying mixed signals ><

Hayss I really am pathetic and i hate myself for it 🤧

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April 1, 2022, I realized,

I have someone to lean on.

I put my self in jeopardy,

I create a world where I'm alone.

Thinking no one will understand me,

Resorting to conceal the truth to me.

I am wrong to think this way,

I have friends who lift up my day.

They sympathize and give an advice

When things gets hard in my life.

I just don't want to be a burden, but

Thank you and sorry for keeping my pain.

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Growing older doesn't mean growing up.

We grow up not because of our age but because of experience.

I'm 20 years old right now and will turn 21 this year but I am not yet a grown up.

There's still a long journey ahead of me, waiting.

When that journey to be a grown up starts,

I wish to be strong and healthy until I arrived to the finish line.

To everyone who's now at their journey, stay strong.

You can do it. Just breath when things gets hard.

You can pause but you can't stop.

Don't forget to have fun while you're at the process. Yes, it's hard but having fun when things get hard makes the problems alleviate.

You might not know me or I might not know you but remember that you're not alone.

I'm rooting for you! And when it's my turn, please root for me too!

Fighting!!! ♡♡♡

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For someone like me,

It is so easy to be happy than to be grateful.

And for others,

It is so easy to be grateful but too hard to be happy :<