He’s blocked again and it’s the first thing I thought ab when I woke up. He started yelling at me getting pissy saying I was seeing all these other people and getting all mad bc I “don’t remember shit” but then not telling me the shit I was forgetting .. some real crazy mind games and I felt a familiar feeling of defeat, found myself back where I was arguing with an insecure manipulator.
Earlier that night he told me he liked me again, he accidently said I love you when we were fucking but I caught it and he lied saying he was just playing. I called him my toy, I called him puppy and his face fell when I said he couldn’t sleep over anymore.
He got pissy when I mentioned hanging out w Carter “ur already gonna see a friend why do u need to see me” he wants me to prove I like only him but he’s crazy. I told him to take me out somewhere if he really liked me yes I remember that... he was inside of me asking where he should take me, I said dinner or somewhere. I wonder if he was just humoring me.
don’t talk to me like that and don’t ignore my messages. U got a funny way of showing it. So do u have my shirt or no
It’s like I wanna be kind and caring and open w him but he is so adverse to all of that and could never reciprocate open or honest communication back to me. He’s too avoidant of his feelings and insecure could never open up.
It’s funny too. Bc I think he’s just bored and lonely and if he were braver he could be more honest but he’s not and it’s not my mf problem
