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im leaf | 26 | they/them
this is the sideblog where I pour my soul out into text posts
i will always tag content warnings, but this blog is going to have a lot of heavy topics. know this before following.
last updated: 11/06/25
hey no worries lol that just hurt my feelings forever
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too much happening lately
dyslexia is so fucking frustrating for everyone else and embarrassing to have. ohhhhh my god. I know I need to be patient with myself but that's kind of impossible when the rest of the world uses fucking goddamn piece of shit stupid dumbass fucking ugly acronyms. i should get better or die.
feeling like doing the ol Skype Special and changing my icon to tv static or a black png but that would alert people something is wrong and I dont know how comfortable I am with explaining something I don't even have an explanation for.
keep looking at my main blog, my discord account, the messages I've sent people, my text conversations and am overcome with a feeling of disconnect from it all. I'm leaf. I'm leaf. im leaf. i keep telling myself I'm leaf, but I'm forgetting who that is. who that was. i feel like I'm in the limbo between being replaced and being the replacement.
I'm not myself lately
feeling like if the ship of theseus was a person
mentally taking a drag of my mental cigarette because I don’t smoke but life has been very smokable lately
thinking about getting surgery to remove everything
maybe if i keep ignoring this feeling of impending doom it'll go away
i wonder if the ghost asks on my main are from people from 2019 and prior era. it makes me sick that Milo and Ren know my current discord account. i wonder if any of them from that friend group are gonna get really mad at me again for the way I handled the entire situation and will start trying to get in contact. they absolutely could.
i hope I'm as good as dead to them all. i hope they don't regret any of the nasty things they said to me. i hope the way I poorly handled that didn't have a lasting impact on anyone. but most of all: i hope they don't think about me anymore. and I hope they have no reason to contact me ever again.
my brain: instead of getting high and getting really scared we're gonna try a new thing today called becoming sober from a high and getting really scared
i don't even feel the 10mg oxycodone I currently have in me. im beyond fucked. it's not helping atall.
