yo yo yo yo,, this is rya (pronounced rai-yah) ! i also go by ritsu veskai on other accounts
this is a "whatever" blog,, i don't follow a theme or anything of the sorts. this was supposed to be a vent/rambling blog but uh im also a workaholic so yay..?
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profile
tags i usually use:
rya's resources - images i use in my edits
pjsk translations - jp event stories translated to english
pjsk event guide - "before you summon"
plan ahead! - upcoming cards for the month
define: who? - vent,, anything that mentions the void
"are you happy being in this family?" there is a RIGHT and WRONG answer. saying that there isn't is a LIE
if you say yes, congrats! you got the good ending! you're on good terms with your parents but you just lied!! you get to go to hell because you lied and are forced to suffer both existentially and eternally!!
say no, though? oh buddy,, you will be gaslighted and manipulated and tortured to think that you're ungrateful and immature and a spoiled brat that doesn't deserve anything you get.
and you'll still think it's true.
because accepting negatives are easier than accepting positives.
because accepting positives just feel like i'm being a narcissist.
and if i cry, i get told that it's neccessary to learn that what i did was wrong,
so that just means my tears are weaponized again.
when i leave, i'm called a sore loser
that im just a stubborn kid who's falling behind compared to their peers
i've got no life skill while everyone's on max
but can't they realize having chores doesn't automatically mean their life is miserable?
i dont feel particularly excited for my birthday anymore
literally half of my friend group is missing
a classmate who's more popular than me has their birthday right after mine
almost nobody in the school knows it's my birthday
it just hurts when you get a message from your class gc and it's a happy birthday greeting to someone who has their birthday after you yk?
like damn they're dedicated because wdym you stayed up at 12 AM just to greet her a happy birthday
well i cant even blame them because how would they even know it's my birthday
im not just gonna announce and @/everyone "its my birthday guys you better greet me"
nobody in my class even questioned when my birthday was… oh well
i mean,, my friends greet me! they stay up until midnight, yeah but… it doesn't feel special. it just feels like a given.
they're only three people as well,, so i don't think they'd be able to fill in this big hole of getting lots of happy birthday greetings
online greetings also don't hit the same, yk? like yeah, thanks for the greeting, but… i don't know how to describe it but it doesn't feel as happy as getting a greeting with someone you've met IRL
plus, all my other friends know a lot of people, hence, more birthday greetings. i think im jealous of them? yeah… yeah i think so. i'm pretty sure alto and gynt got like 15+ happy birthday greetings seperate while i only get like… at most 7 - but i think i'd get only 3 this year since one left the group and the other is dead
i've also thought that i was already 15 in the past few months,, so i guess that's what contributes to why it doesn't feel special
my birthday is just another regular saturday for everyone.
ah, don't get me started on those instagram stories… everyone has these heartfelt birthday messages on their stories for their friends but i got zero…
i think i have this underlying issue that i'm not good enough for anyone. so seeing no one outside of my friend group greet me a happy birthday just registers as "you aren't special enough to be remembered" and that thought just breaks me
i'm just constantly waiting for someone to greet me a happy birthday but all i get are just pjsk and twst notifications
at the end of the day, no one knows my birthday just passed
and i guess i am picky with gifts. "suprise me" is just an excuse to not be specific haha… i'm too embarrassed to write a wishlist and most of the time i have no idea what i want as a gift when i'm put on the spot.
i guess the first gift that comes to mind would be a hatsune miku figurine..? or pjsk/twst merch in general but that's expensive so i just settle with "surprise me"
i think that's why i'm never satisfied with anything i get
can't blame them though! it's because of me anyways,, how are they supposed to know i actually want something?
i just don't want to be seen as someone who's easily discarded and replacable yk?
i'm trying to expand my connections,, but it's hard because i just wanna stay within my inner circle
i dont feel particularly excited for my birthday anymore
literally half of my friend group is missing
a classmate who's more popular than me has their birthday right after mine
almost nobody in the school knows it's my birthday
it just hurts when you get a message from your class gc and it's a happy birthday greeting to someone who has their birthday after you yk?
like damn they're dedicated because wdym you stayed up at 12 AM just to greet her a happy birthday
well i cant even blame them because how would they even know it's my birthday
im not just gonna announce and @/everyone "its my birthday guys you better greet me"
nobody in my class even questioned when my birthday was… oh well
i mean,, my friends greet me! they stay up until midnight, yeah but… it doesn't feel special. it just feels like a given.
they're only three people as well,, so i don't think they'd be able to fill in this big hole of getting lots of happy birthday greetings
online greetings also don't hit the same, yk? like yeah, thanks for the greeting, but… i don't know how to describe it but it doesn't feel as happy as getting a greeting with someone you've met IRL
plus, all my other friends know a lot of people, hence, more birthday greetings. i think im jealous of them? yeah… yeah i think so. i'm pretty sure alto and gynt got like 15+ happy birthday greetings seperate while i only get like… at most 7 - but i think i'd get only 3 this year since one left the group and the other is dead
i've also thought that i was already 15 in the past few months,, so i guess that's what contributes to why it doesn't feel special
my birthday is just another regular saturday for everyone.
ah, don't get me started on those instagram stories… everyone has these heartfelt birthday messages on their stories for their friends but i got zero…
i think i have this underlying issue that i'm not good enough for anyone. so seeing no one outside of my friend group greet me a happy birthday just registers as "you aren't special enough to be remembered" and that thought just breaks me
i'm just constantly waiting for someone to greet me a happy birthday but all i get are just pjsk and twst notifications
at the end of the day, no one knows my birthday just passed
and i guess i am picky with gifts. "suprise me" is just an excuse to not be specific haha… i'm too embarrassed to write a wishlist and most of the time i have no idea what i want as a gift when i'm put on the spot.
i guess the first gift that comes to mind would be a hatsune miku figurine..? or pjsk/twst merch in general but that's expensive so i just settle with "surprise me"
i think that's why i'm never satisfied with anything i get
can't blame them though! it's because of me anyways,, how are they supposed to know i actually want something?
i just don't want to be seen as someone who's easily discarded and replacable yk?
i'm trying to expand my connections,, but it's hard because i just wanna stay within my inner circle
i dont feel particularly excited for my birthday anymore
literally half of my friend group is missing
a classmate who's more popular than me has their birthday right after mine
almost nobody in the school knows it's my birthday
it just hurts when you get a message from your class gc and it's a happy birthday greeting to someone who has their birthday after you yk?
like damn they're dedicated because wdym you stayed up at 12 AM just to greet her a happy birthday
well i cant even blame them because how would they even know it's my birthday
im not just gonna announce and @/everyone "its my birthday guys you better greet me"
nobody in my class even questioned when my birthday was… oh well
i mean,, my friends greet me! they stay up until midnight, yeah but… it doesn't feel special. it just feels like a given.
they're only three people as well,, so i don't think they'd be able to fill in this big hole of getting lots of happy birthday greetings
online greetings also don't hit the same, yk? like yeah, thanks for the greeting, but… i don't know how to describe it but it doesn't feel as happy as getting a greeting with someone you've met IRL
plus, all my other friends know a lot of people, hence, more birthday greetings. i think im jealous of them? yeah… yeah i think so. i'm pretty sure alto and gynt got like 15+ happy birthday greetings seperate while i only get like… at most 7 - but i think i'd get only 3 this year since one left the group and the other is dead
i've also thought that i was already 15 in the past few months,, so i guess that's what contributes to why it doesn't feel special
my birthday is just another regular saturday for everyone.
ah, don't get me started on those instagram stories… everyone has these heartfelt birthday messages on their stories for their friends but i got zero…
i think i have this underlying issue that i'm not good enough for anyone. so seeing no one outside of my friend group greet me a happy birthday just registers as "you aren't special enough to be remembered" and that thought just breaks me
i'm just constantly waiting for someone to greet me a happy birthday but all i get are just pjsk and twst notifications
at the end of the day, no one knows my birthday just passed
and i guess i am picky with gifts. "suprise me" is just an excuse to not be specific haha… i'm too embarrassed to write a wishlist and most of the time i have no idea what i want as a gift when i'm put on the spot.
i guess the first gift that comes to mind would be a hatsune miku figurine..? or pjsk/twst merch in general but that's expensive so i just settle with "surprise me"
i think that's why i'm never satisfied with anything i get
can't blame them though! it's because of me anyways,, how are they supposed to know i actually want something?
i just don't want to be seen as someone who's easily discarded and replacable yk?
i'm trying to expand my connections,, but it's hard because i just wanna stay within my inner circle
"As their media coverage and progress steadily grows, Leo/need has earned their first solo live performance as pros. Just as they were about to start preparations, they received a certain message…"
Unsteady, Still Steady Step is a permanent Leo/need event that will run from July 15-21. The characters are Honami (focus), Ichika, Rin, Shiho, and MEIKO. The commissioned song for this event is Toumei na Palette by aqu3ra.
Exchange Shop Cards
MEIKO | Hot Concept
MEIKO is of the happy attribute and sees use in one event:
- Connecting With Your Heart Beat, aka Ichi6 (October 11-19) / higher gameplay value
Shiho Hinomori | The Moment I Rise
Shiho is of the happy attribute and sees use in one event:
- Connecting With Your Heart Beat, aka Ichi6 (October 11-19) / higher gameplay value
Gacha
Seeking My Way gacha (standard) will be available on July 15-23, and features Honami, Ichika, and Rin (cute attribute). These cards will give a 70% event bonus for this event.
Honami Mochizuki | Noise Gives Way To Silence
Honami is a healer card with the skill name being "Everyone's Support", with her costume being called "Dilemma of seeker".
Future Usability:
- Gazing Upon the Night Sky’s Fading Stars, aka Saki7 (November 30 - December 8) / lower gameplay value
Future Limited Cards !
Upcoming:
- Gazing Upon the Night Sky's Fading Stars, aka Saki7 (November 30 - December 8)
- Tracing Warm Memories, aka Hona6 (April 30 - May 6, 2027)
- Into the New Light, aka WL3 (June 8-18, 2027)
Rerunning Gacha:
- FIRST RERUN | Ghoulishly Ghastly Get Together! (September)
- FIRST RERUN | Musical Street Corner (November)
- LAST RERUN | Play with Dogs (December)
- FIRST RERUN | Musical Street Corner (June 2027)
Ichika Hoshino | We're With You
Ichika is a perfect scorer card with the skill name being "Enjoying the Afterglow", with her costume being called "Worry of walker".
Future Usability:
- Gazing Upon the Night Sky’s Fading Stars, aka Saki7 (November 30 - December 8) / lower gameplay value
Future Limited Cards !
Upcoming:
- Gazing Upon the Night Sky's Fading Stars, aka Saki7 (November 30 - December 8)
- Promise’s Passerelle, aka WL3 (April 18-28, 2027)
Rerunning Gacha:
- LAST RERUN | Grow up With Me! (May)
- LAST RERUN | What Awaits After the Battle (October)
- FIRST RERUN | Musical Street Corner (November)
- FIRST RERUN | Living With Music (April 2027)
- LAST RERUN | Musical Street Corner (June 2027)
Kagamine Rin | Bringing the Fun and Games♪
Rin is a perfect scorer card with the skill name being "Party Planning!", with her costume being called "Cheer of neighbor".
Future Usability:
- Gazing Upon the Night Sky's Fading Stars, aka Saki7 (November 30 - December 8) / higher gameplay value
Future Limited Cards !
Upcoming:
- Link the Beats, aka WL2 (September 6-18)
- New Year's Blessings, Dance of Prayer (December 31 - January 9, 2026)
- Great Yell for Dreamers!, aka WL3 (May 17-29, 2027)
Rerunning Gacha:
- FIRST RERUN | Eternal Combat Guardians (March 2027)
Team Building
Misc.
The after live will be showing on July 21-22. Joining the after live will give you 300 crystals and a Honami stamp called "Just now, I…".
sometimes i take comfort in knowing the future doesn't exist, sometimes i'm terrified by that fact.
sometimes i'm even too scared to look back at the past, because seeing things change overtime feel sickening.
i feel like time's moving too fast, yet too slow. the good parts are slipping, but the bad times seem to drag on and on and on. but soon enough, i'll forget about everything eventually. decades, years, months, weeks, days - maybe even seconds.
i feel like life is scary because i'm good in everything. i'm afraid to mess up and suddenly remember my mistakes in the dead of night, haunting me.
i don't get "over" things, i suppress them. until i forget about it.
so i'm scared.
i'm so scared of not being prepared enough.
sometimes i'm so confident i'm basically the reincarnation of pride, sometimes i'm so insecure that i think isolating myself is the best way to make everyone happy.
and i'm so scared that i'm right.
what if i'm the problem here? what if i'm just saying all of this just to make me feel better even though i don't deserve to play the victim?
why am i scared of presenting? is it because i'm not the best?
no matter how much reassurance i get, i'll always be scared. i don't know if i'd rather be the one presenting or answering all the follow-up questions because they're both equally bad in my eyes.
failing, messing up... that's called being human. if i'm scared of that, does that mean i'm scared of being human?
being human is to recognize that you aren't special, but unique. you aren't the "chosen one", but you're different from everybody else.
i guess i'm not ready to accept that yet. i don't want to be unique; i just want to blend in my surroundings, yet at the same time i want to be special; the one who gets praised.
this is my "new normal" now.
constantly being in a state of panic and calmness... contradicting worlds co-existing with each other.
i don't know what to do after i finish writing this. do i just act like everything's normal? do i keep being in this depressive state? do i finally aspire change? do i just never end this then?
but i know this has to end someday. everything does.
i gain nothing but lose everything if i continue typing, so why do i still want to say much more? there's nothing else i could talk about.
happiness, anger, frustration, sadness, hope, death, peace, serenity. despite having an infinite amount of words to describe the essence of feelings, i can't even grab a definition of this one.
the best description is "scared".
but i know it's more than that. it's "scared" but with "nostalgia", "bitterness", and "optimistic".
this feeling has fragments of feelings inside of it. and i do not know what to do with it.
i'm already changing by writing it down instead of suppressing it to do my assignments. but what do i do from there?
i'm stuck.
i feel like i'm always in limbo.
i feel like i'm always so close to reaching happiness, but my problems keep me from achieving it.
Deeper and Deeper is a limited event for WonderlandsxShowtime that will run on July 7-13. The characters with new cards tied to this event are Rui (focus), Tsukasa, Nene, Luka, and Emu.
Synopsis: "WonderlandsxShowtime had decided to participate in a workshop hosted by ArcLand. While they were there, Rui, who had taken the director course, would be facing challenges he hadn’t realized until now…"
Exchange Shop Cards
Emu Otori | The Theater Troupe I’m Interested In
Emu is of the pure attribute and sees use in one event:
- Our Golden Days (September 30 - October 9) / higher gameplay value
- Phantom Maze Monster, aka Kasa7 (June 20-28) / lower gameplay value
Megurine Luka | Gentle Wake-up Call
Luka is of the cool attribute and sees use in two events:
- Deep Dark for Light, aka Kasa6 (August 30 - September 4) / higher gameplay value
- Inside Direction of the Afterglow, aka Rui6 (March 30 - April 7, 2027) / higher gameplay value
Gacha
Strange Workshop gacha (limited) will be available on July 7-15, and features Rui, Tsukasa, and Nene (happy attribute). These cards will give a 70% event bonus for this event. This gacha is also tied to a Bloom Festival that will be on July 7-11 which features Ena and KAITO.
Rui Kamishiro | How Far I Have To Go
Rui is a perfect scorer card with the skill name being "Grateful for My Friends", with his costume being called "Inventive Worker".
Future Usability:
- n/a
Future Limited Cards !
Upcoming:
- Deep Dark for Light, aka Kasa6 (August 30 - September 4)
- Inside Direction of the Afterglow, aka Rui6 (March 30 - April 7, 2027)
Rerunning Gacha:
- n/a
Tsukasa Tenma | Taking the Stage
Tsukasa is a perfect locker card with the skill name being "Enjoying the Challenge", with his costume being called "Upbeat Worker".
Future Usability:
- n/a
Future Limited Cards !
Upcoming:
- Deep Dark for Light, aka Kasa6 (August 30 - September 4)
- Smash Them! Un-Valentine’s Revenge (January 31 - February 8, 2026)
- Great Yell for Dreamers! (worldlink; January 31 - February 8, 2026)
Rerunning Gacha:
- n/a
Nene Kusanagi | Getting You Snacks
Nene is a scorer card with the skill name being "Serious About English", with her costume being called "Thoughtful Worker".
Future Usability:
- n/a
Future Limited Cards !
Upcoming:
- Inside Direction of the Afterglow, aka Rui6 (March 30 - April 7, 2027) / lower gameplay value
Rerunning Gacha:
- FIRST RERUN | In my Fairytale (June)
- LAST RERUN | Your Ticket to the City of Splendor (August)
- FIRST RERUN | Talent Blooms (October)
- LAST RERUN | In my Fairytale (March 2027)
Ena Shinonome | That Drawing, Together
Ena is a mysterious scorer card with the skill name being "“Our” Art → What I Want to Depict", with her costume being called "Casual Painter".
Future Usability:
- n/a
Future Limited Cards !
Upcoming:
- Colors of Pure Sense, aka Ena6 (October 31 - November 8)
Rerunning Gacha:
- LAST RERUN | Photogenic Valentine (September)
- FIRST RERUN | That Flower, Once More (December)
KAITO | The Ones Closest to Me
KAITO is a happy scorer card with the skill name being "Each Different Relationship → Forever Myself", with his costume being called "Noble Eternity".
Future Usability:
- Deeper and Deeper, aka Rui5 (this event) / higher gameplay value
- Competitive Fire!, aka An6 (July 31 - August 6) / higher gameplay value
- Reaching Out to a Tomorrow That Won’t Come Unraveled, aka Mizu6 (August 22-28) / higher gameplay value
- Connecting With Your Heart Beat, aka Ichi6 (October 11-19) / higher gameplay value
- Together, Aim for the True Route (December 10-19) / higher gameplay value
- Knocking on the Door of a Never-Ending Fantasy, aka Kana6 (January 11-19) / higher gameplay value
- To You, Flying to the Farthest Reaches (May 31 - June 6) / lower gameplay value
Future Limited Cards !
Upcoming:
- Link the Beats! (worldlink; September 6-18)
- Colors of Pure Sense, aka Ena6 (October 31 - November 8)
- To You, Flying to the Farthest Reaches (May 31 - June 6)
Rerunning Gacha:
- LAST RERUN | Play With Dogs (December)
- FIRST RERUN | Refulgent Reminiscence (January 2027)
Team Building
Misc.
The after live will be showing on July 13-14. Joining the after live will give you 300 crystals and a Rui stamp called "Let's push the limits".
Ordinary, yet Special Us is a wordlink event for Leo/need that will run on June 23 - July 5. The characters with new cards tied to this event are Ichika, Saki, Honami, and Shiho.
Chapter 1 will focus on Shiho on June 23-26.
Chapter 2 will focus on Saki on June 26-29.
Chapter 3 will focus on Honami on June 29 - July 2.
Chapter 4 will focus on Ichika on July 2-5.
Synopsis: "Leo/need is doing well as a professional band, living fulfilling lives. One day, something strange occurs with the small tree in the SEKAI, causing the four of them to be transported into a dream where ‘they never got seperated’…"
Gacha
Another Sparkle Stars gacha (semi-limited) will be available on June 23 - July 5, and features Ichika (pure), Saki (cute), Honami (mysterious), and Shiho (happy). These cards will give a 55% event bonus for this event.
Ichika Hoshino | Unformed Feelings
Ichika is a scorer card with the skill name being "The Feelings in That Song", with her costume being called "Starry Identity", coming with an Another Cut for The Wall 3DMV.
Future Usability:
- n/a
Future Limited Cards !
Upcoming:
- Gazing Upon the Night Sky's Fading Stars, aka Saki7 (November 30 - December 8)
- Promise’s Passerelle (worldlink; April 18-28, 2027)
Rerunning Gacha:
- LAST RERUN | Grow up With Me! (May)
- LAST RERUN | What Awaits After the Battle (October)
- FIRST RERUN | Musical Street Corner (November)
- FIRST RERUN | Living With Music (April 2027)
- LAST RERUN | Musical Street Corner (June 2027)
Saki Tenma | The Ace!
Saki is a scorer card with the skill name being "Treasuring Our Time More", with her costume being called "Starry Vigor", coming with an Another Cut for the Stella 3DMV.
Future Usability:
- Unsteady, Still Steady Step, aka Hona5 (July 15-21) / higher gameplay value
- Gazing Upon the Night Sky's Fading Stars, aka Saki7 (November 30 - December 8) / lower gameplay value
Future Limited Cards !
Upcoming:
- Our Golden Days (September 30 - October 9)
- Gazing Upon the Night Sky's Fading Stars, aka Saki7 (November 30 - December 8)
- Tracing Warm Memories, aka Hona6 (April 30 - May 6, 2027)
Rerunning Gacha:
- FIRST RERUN | Musical Street Corner (November)
- FIRST RERUN | Eternal Combat Guardians (March 2027)
- FIRST RERUN | Musical Street Corner (June 2027)
Honami Mochizuki | Daydreams for the Future
Honami is a scorer card with the skill name being "Glad We Feel the Same", with her costume being called "Starry Core", coming with an Another Cut for the Regulus 3DMV.
Future Usability:
- Tracing Warm Memories, aka Hona6 (April 30 - May 6, 2027) / lower gameplay value
Future Limited Cards !
Upcoming:
- Gazing Upon the Night Sky's Fading Stars, aka Saki7 (November 30 - December 8)
- Tracing Warm Memories, aka Hona6 (April 30 - May 6, 2027)
Rerunning Gacha:
- FIRST RERUN | Ghoulishly Ghastly Get Together! (September)
- FIRST RERUN | Musical Street Corner (November)
- LAST RERUN | Play with Dogs (December)
- FIRST RERUN | Musical Street Corner (June 2027)
Shiho Hinomori | Chatting With the Band
Shiho is a scorer card with the skill name being "What I Got From That Dream", with her costume being called "Starry Ability", coming with an Another Cut for the Purpose 3DMV.
Future Usability:
- Connecting With Your Heart Beat, aka Ichi6 (October 11-19) / lower gameplay value
Future Limited Cards !
Upcoming:
- New Year's Blessings, Dance of Prayer (BloomFes; December 31 - January 9, 2026)
- Great Yell for Dreamers! (worldlink; May 17-19, 2027)
Rerunning Gacha:
- LAST RERUN | New Year's Enchanting Flowers Bloom Bright (July)
- FIRST RERUN | Talent Blooms (October)
- FIRST RERUN | Living With Music (April 2027)
- LAST RERUN | Talent Blooms (May 2027)
Misc.
The after live will be showing on April 20-21. Joining the after live will give you 300 crystals.
