Ryan Rockstar

Just my place and my space. It is as simple as that. I have BPD Bipolar and ASD and I want a little shrine to express myself!

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Where Are AOL RP Partners?

Long shot but I'd like to reconnect with some muns and see if I can get a story going. Looking for any one of these muns, I loved our RPs together and there was lots of potential. 

I went by the screen name his bIue heaven from 2010-2012 or Envys Innocence from 2008 if either of those are recognized. 

I ran the Red Lake Inn and Club Circus Illusion back in 2008-2009 and was part of the 7 deadly sins storyline at that time. 

So someone hit me up!

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Ink and Theory

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Angel E Delano

Marcus Amancio

Avery Dumont

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Seventeen II Hansol Vernon II - Off To The Races [FMV]

Clips: Hansol Vernon Chwe Choi Song: Off To The Races - Chorus Only Artist: Lana Del Rey Copyright Disclaimer under section 107 of the Copyright Act of 1976,...

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I refuse to believe it. Erica Reyes is not dead.

So, Zain and I were talking and I’ve realized a few things.

In this shot from the first episode, everyone thought it was Erica, and then, when we saw episode 2, we though it was Cora.

And indeed, Cora is wearing a red sweatshirt so it’s not Erica, who was wearing a read leather jacket when she was abducted.

So no, it’s not Erica like we thought at some point. However, what we can see here and throughout ep 2 is the fact that BOYD hasn’t changed clothes since he was abducted (understandable).

And then, we see this:

Which we think is Erica but there are several things which bug me about this. 

One, she is wearing a suit. ERICA. 

That is NOT what Erica was wearing when she was abducted.

She is wearing a leather jacket. The picture on the left looks like a business suit, which you would wear in a bank (and where are they right now?!) which means that the Alpha pack would have changed her clothes This does not make sense. At. All. 

Which is why I’m convinced it’s not her. It’s a bank employee who looks like her (you know Jeff would have tremendously enjoyed doing something like that.)

There is also the fact that this woman does not look like Erica.

Zain pointed out that the jawline was wrong and I agree. The nose is very different from Erica’s. And Erica’s forehead is wider. 

Again, we could be totally wrong and as Zain rightfully said: 

“They may have put so much of that death-makeup on her that we just can’t tell. Makeup can make things look bigger and smaller.”

BUT, and please be free to criticise the bad photoshop:

It was necessary. Again, doesn’t look like Erica. At all.

The hair. It’s too long, it looks fake AND NO ONE’S HAIR STAYS CURLED LIKE THAT FOR THAT LONG, DEAD OR NOT. Unless Kali was sharing her tools with Erica, this is very much so intriguing. Zain said it looked like a wig. I agree.

This is not mistake. That shot was there for a reason. Allison’s reaction is strange. She looks like someone who sees a dead body. Period. Considering the history between the two, we’d have expected a different reaction. Keep also in mind the fact that when they got out of the vault, Allison said nothing to Scott nor Derek about Erica being there. The only indication about from this quick 2s shot is when Stiles tells that Isaac said she was dead. Isaac could have seen the same thing Allison did or not. He could have found Boyd and Cora (again, no mention of her from Isaac) and no Erica and have deduced that she was dead. He could also have seen the body in the cupboard and mistaken it. It does look like her, that much is sure but I’m not convinced it IS her. Isaac was being careful of the Alphas, he didn’t have time to check.

My main point though? IT’S TOO DAMN OBVIOUS for it to be her.

Now this looks like Erica although the hair doesn’t look the same as the previous pictures.

Sigh, all this to say, I don’t fucking know but she’s not dead cause I said so. I REFUSE.

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A lot of good points made here, I feel the same. Actually there is an actress that looks more like “the body” than Gage does and the actresses name is Alexis Thorpe, again the dead body, not saying it is this particular actress but they have a lot of similarities.

Also Erica’s hair was not even really styled, they had been running and it looked sweaty, almost wet even and then inside the vault her hair is half curled and relatively neat again, not to mention there is also her make up to think about. She was wearing light gloss and went strong on the eyeliner and mascara, it was a very light and dark contrast which complimented each other

(In comparison to her first appearance in the lunch room. Yes it was shocking and enjoyable but a little bit retro to me.) and while I am on the fashion subject, just where did she even get her clothes? Does Derek sound like the type of guy that’s going to take her to the mall?

We never hear about her mother (who the body could be) and we never hear of a sister (which the body could be, look at Britney and Jamie Lynn Spears!) either one could of worked at that bank, assuming Erica had a sister, what we know is that her dad does insurance.

What I would love to know about the whole thing is what were the argents thinking? They were hunting down Erica and Boyd like monsters when they were clearly well known teens with families. Did Boyd have to get shot with so many arrows before argent realized his daughter was going to murder someone that would in turn open up an investigation?

And speaking of that, if this was Erica murdered...why was it not investigated? Stiles dad should of been all over it, there should of been a crime scene. What happened? Did Derek just carry her home to her poor family? I think that would of landed him in jail big time.

And really...how did Erica die at all? Yeah she had her powers but that was until the eclipse (and since Kali felt the need to keep two prisoners so much so that she hunted Cora down to replace her?) Why do that? Kali had no reason to kill Erica, she wanted her alive just as much as Boyd or they would of killed her on the spot and took Boyd.

If any of them were to be killed, it should of been Isaac. They had captured Boyd and Erica and had them contained, it was Isaac that went through the bank, some how managed to go around and then find the body manage not to get caught by Kali or her boss, the big D, but then gets rescued from the twins who apparently caught him. With all these alpha’s they had everyone where they wanted them, Isaac would have been more of a realistic kill.

And then he requires an ice bath to remember because it caused him some PTSD well if it scared him that bad, I would think Erica would of been smart enough to just let it be and wait it out and keep the faith, Boyd did, as far as we know, during that flash of Erica basically doing a suicide mission in an attempt to escape.

If Erica were to be brought back, and that would take Gage wanting to return (and why not? Jeff made a deal to keep Isaac alive for Daniel Sharman) a story would have to be made about where she really was and this girl would have to be explained and it’s unlikely a good enough story could be made since Derek and Allison reacted as if it was her, and Derek carried her so how could he mistake it?

The whole thing is just horrible and should of never happened. As far as I know Isaac just vanished after 3B and was not mentioned again, so why did Boyd and Erica have to die? When everyone else that leaves, their character just leaves. Isaac vanished, as did Cora, Ethan simply took off too and Jackson had left for Paris.

This whole thing is messed up, it would of worked out if Jeff didn’t jump the gun.

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Teen Wolf - Erica Reyes

One thing really irritates me. I don't understand why so many people hated Erica. She was a bad girl, what is wrong with that? They can be fun characters, not like she was a villain like Jennifer, hate on her.

Honestly Erica had a really hard and painful life and then she was cured. If you can't imagine what that must of felt like for her, you aren't human. So she wanted to play with her power and cause a little trouble, and as I said, play, she never really hurt anyone.

So she stuck her claws in Allison's leg. Is that really a reason to hate her or dislike her? All Allison needed was a band-aid from the nurses office.

She messed with Scott, if I remember right, only twice, and the first time, Scott approached her and actually I think he went to her science table, could of sent Stiles over there and he could of gone to Isaac's table.

Scott put himself in the positions to interact with her and it was harmless what she did. It's no different than winning the lottery, it changes you and you do things you wouldn't normally do.

Erica went from low self esteem to a pure narcissist but there were things that clearly shows it was just a phase.

The apple was just a taste, something impulsive she did but it was to make herself feel better and in a way establish that her life had truly changed, it was the test.

Everyone wanted to be her lab partner, of course she enjoyed that, it was probably euphoric but she didn't react much. In fact she was alone most of the time, the show didn't hire extra's for her to go after or to hound her.

As much attention as she got from lab and the cafeteria, she had instant popularity  and she really didn't act on any of it. Most of the things she did were per Derek's orders. Like to keep the third planned beta a secret, if she even knew.

Hitting Stiles was likely an order and yeah, maybe she took some pleasure from it, she had crushed on him and he never noticed her, if she had even used her extra strength, or at least full force, he would of gone to the hospital. (Show mistake; Stiles never presented a bruise.)

She was clearly hurt when she admitted she had a crush on Stiles, she protected Scott from Jackson and even helped them with what information she had about Jackson's parents.

Going the extra mile to check her computer. The mention of her dad kind of leaves more of her backstory to be desired.

She also attempted to help Scott when Jackson went crazy in detention, clearly an unskilled fighter at the time, no reason to hate her for that. And really, lets be honest, Allison started to become a little ruthless.

The thing about the three betas is that they were known people in the community, Allison was willing to murder Boyd without a care because she clearly wouldn't stop, the Argents also kidnapped them without thinking of the consequences.

Hell kidnapped Stiles too!

And Allison shooting Erica down? She was in tears, none of it was supposed to be serious or truly harmful to her. She could of went in Allison's room and charged attacked her and not given her the chance to shoot that arrow. She didn't, it was all the high of instant confidence.

In fact she risked herself by even provoking Allison. Why? Because in her mind none of it was serious or real, she never thought Allison would really do something to hurt her, just as she never truly hurt Allison.

So, she cares more about Boyd, tells him to run and he rescues her from a ruthless Allison who shoots arrow after arrow as Erica cries and screams and begs her to stop.

I know some of this got a little out of order, but to finish this, in her final scene, she took it upon herself to go after Kali to try to save them. When it got serious, I saw nothing but selflessness and care for others from her.

By that point, she really woke up and sadly we will never get to see what that would have turned into and in small moments, even the change didn't take away the pain of her memories of torment.

So why does everyone hate her?

She was written like that for fun and to me it was fun, she was a unique character and the actress did amazingly in how she portrayed her, every word, every gesture, body language, it was all perfection.

Though by the end, Jeff had planned to make her much more, Cora was a stand in. That fight with Aiden would of been Erica’s fight and one awesome scene it would of been.

Not to mention she and Aiden would of made a good couple, would of been really interesting if it started out with that fight, if after that point various things drew them together, to go from hostile to understanding. Bad boy, bad girl, both getting redemption in their perspective times. Put Erica where she should of been, telling Lydia to stay away, likely for this reason.

Derek caring enough to save her life, would have made more sense than a five minute made up sister that runs in out of no where after well not being there and caring for him.

Unfortunately we will never see that because the actress left the best role shes honestly ever had.

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Sensual and sexy.

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Aj Abualrub

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What a dream this would be.

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Life Is A Battle

Life is a battle and I hate it. I feel like I'm drowning in the middle of a battleground. Yet how is that possible? That would be pretty warped if the ground took me and buried me alive, while all the people around, especially the people close, they go out of their way to make things as hard as possible for you. As if they have a plan, an attack, metaphorically speaking. Sometimes things happen that aren't bad and yet it's tough to deal with.

I just want to be away, far away. Either fly away or drown away, I just need to be away, distance is the answer, but the first question is whether that distance is literal or metaphorical, and how to figure that out? Once I do that, the next  question is, how do I reach that distance to find that ultimate peace that I search for?

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And this is my diagnosis paper. Well, the part that holds my diagnosis, it's a lot more detailed.

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Niiice

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Kick ass video of Teen Wolf's Erica and Malia

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You, solitary one, you are going the way to yourself. And your way leads past yourself and your seven devils. You will be a heretic to yourself, and a sorcerer and a soothsayer, and a fool, and a doubter, and a reprobate, and a villain. You must be ready to burn yourself in your own flame; how could you rise anew if you had not first become ashes. You go the way of the creator; you will create a god for yourself out of your seven devils. Lonely one, you go the way of the lover: yourself you love, and on that account despise, as only the lover can despise. The lover would create because he despises. What does he know of love who did not have to despise precisely what he loved? With your love and with your creating, go into your solitude, my brother. Only much later will justice limp after you.With my tears, go into your solitude, my brother. I love him who seeks to create beyond himself, and thus perishes.

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I've learned that things change, people change, and it doesn't mean you forget the past or try to cover it up. It simply means that you move on and treasure the memories. Letting go doesn't mean giving up... it means accepting that some things weren't meant to be.