[ MAIA MITCHELL, SHE/HER, CIS FEMALE ] | [ RYANN OLIVIA HASTINGS ] just threw their bags into the car. With [ EXILE BY TAYLOR SWIFT AND BON IVER ] and the AC blasting, they depart [ BOSTON, MASSACHUSETTS ] with a [ CHAI TEA LATTE ] in their hand. Off to see their high school friends who know them as [ RYE ] when they’re really [ THE BOOKWORM ] now. The past five years, they’ve been [ TUTORING AND JUST TRYING TO STAY AFLOAT ] and it’s been pretty [ EXHAUSTING ]. A few of the other pact members might be surprised by [ HER MESSY TOP BUN, A FUZZY SOCK OBSESSION, GETTING LOST IN ART MUSEUMS, & THE SMELL OF A NEW BOOK ].
hello ! i’m lauren and let me introduce you to my bb ryann.
Ryann Olivia Hastings was born to an average American, loving family. Her parents owned a small bookstore. She was an only child. Overall, they were your very typical family. They weren’t rich or poor, just comfortable.
Ryann was a painfully shy child, preferring her books to keep her company rather than actual friends. She could always be found in her family’s bookshop, even as a small child. Her parents were her best friends as she found it hard to difficult to connect to the kids in school or in her neighborhood.
One day, Kennedy stepped into the bookstore and changed Ryann’s life. She was never sure why Kennedy chose to befriend her. Kennedy filled Ryann’s world with color and all new friendships. She helped Ryann come out of her shell.
Kennedy introduced Ryann to her already established group of friends. Ryann fit in as well as she could, but she always felt a little bit like an outsider. She always believed that everyone else just put up her because Kennedy told them to. She was grateful to have friends, but she still wasn’t sure how it happened.
In high school, Ryann was head of the literary club. She wrote for the school paper. She did extremely well. She was fully prepared to go to community college and live at home. Her parents, along with Kennedy, pushed her to apply to universities outside of her hometown. She was worried with money, but her parents insisted on loans. She applied to Harvard and to her surprise, got in with a scholarship.
When Kennedy disappeared, Ryann found herself back in her shell. She lost contact with a lot of the group and became more of a homebody again. Ryann was absolutely heartbroken. She lost the one person who truly seemed to get her and helped her grow.
The fall after graduation, Ryann moved to Boston to attend Harvard. She was doing well for the first semester, focusing mostly on her studies instead of making friends.
Around Christmas her first year, tragedy struck again. Her father was killed in a car accident. Ryann was heartbroken yet again and was tempted to move back home. Her mom insisted she stay in school.
Ryann stayed in school, but found it progressively harder to focus on her studies. Her mind was constantly clouded with thoughts of her father and Kennedy.
When she returned for her sophomore year, Harvard took away her scholarship. Her grades had slipped too much. Ryann was ashamed and decided not to tell her mother. She didn’t want to burden her with it. Instead, Ryann took out several loans. She got a job as a tutor to younger students.
Ryann graduated with hefty debts and a degree in English. She wants nothing more than to be a writer. She still lives in Boston but she’s finding it hard to accomplish her dreams of writing. She continues to tutor to pay the bills.
Finding tutoring not covering enough of the bills, Ryann has turned down a different path. She has created an OnlyFans account. She’s found that has provided significantly more money than any other route she’s taken. She’s embarrassed, though, and has yet to share this information with anyone, especially her former friends and mom.
Ryann’s former connections from Kennedy aren’t as strong as they used to be. She’s still unsure how she could have fit in with all of them.
One connection will always pull her back in. Kennedy was the reason Ryann was in the pact. She knows she has to honor her friend and follow through with their pact.
there’s more coming and i’m still working on wanted connections but please reach out if you have anything in mind!
every time
i planted my roots
i had to rip them out.
i do not settle any more.
i do not believe in homes.
i do not stay -
i go;
i leave;
i disappear.
i do not come back;
i arrive
never the same,
forever unsettled.
marina v., too much of me is scattered on this earth.
(via bolshoitsarina)
