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[ryannpaiger]

[ryannpaiger]

Silent screams

I can scream so loud nobody can hear me.

My lungs fill prepared for the outburst.

Only to shutter crinkling inward.

Clawed hands of emotions drag myself in.

Into my chest cavity I cross my arms.

Folding like a paper doll.

Light in the head.

Heavy in the heart.

My soul screams to be hidden.

Jumping to be snuffed out.

A game I'm always trying to lose.

When I lose I win.

I'm the loudest hider.

The pain hurts so good.

So fitting to be out of place.

Perfectly imperfect.

Hating myself for loving.

Repeating it all the time.

Wishing it would stop.

Addicted to heartbreak.

I scream.

Hoping nobody will hear me.

Silent.

Waiting to be seen.

[ryannpaiger]

There are things we like because they make us happy. And there are things we can like because they show us we are capable of being sad. We can turn tears of regret into a pain that can help is grow.

[kawacy]

Choose your fighter.

[tired--eyess]

[booksandrainyyfilms]

Lost in Translation (2003) director Sofia Coppola

[puggert-deactivated20250101]

[ryannpaiger]

Disappear

If you try to disappear. But you cant. Do you feel more alive?

[ryannpaiger]

I was waiting forever and then my heart was broken (at Midtown, Memphis, Tennessee)

[ryannpaiger]

Someones excited I'm coming to visit. #bffl

[ryannpaiger]

Wake up. stretch tunes. (at Midtown, Memphis, Tennessee)

[ryannpaiger]

🍰👻 (at Midtown, Memphis, Tennessee)

[ryannpaiger]

If you dont already know I love socks tights and leg warmer combos. Feeling pretty good about the threads I gots on today. Happy caturday. #caturday #thighhighsocks #socks #legwarmers #positive I wonder how long this boost will last. (at Midtown, Memphis, Tennessee)

[ryannpaiger]

They wake me up at night. (at Midtown, Memphis, Tennessee)

[ryannpaiger]

#beautifulsuicide (at Midtown, Memphis, Tennessee)

[ryannpaiger]

I feel sick

Nausea, it effects my stomach

It pulls down and wants me to spit everything back up

Headache, it effects my head

Makes me cry so much the pain behind my eyes and inside my ears gets worse

Lungs, it effects my breathing

I feel palpitations and cant catch my breath

Side effects of getting your heart ripped out are most likely in fine print on every relationship.

[ryannpaiger]

Mom I still want to become a comic book artist and cant promise I won't continue to dump every boyfriend that has a good income. (at Midtown, Memphis, Tennessee)