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— ❝ i can see you struggling boy, dont hurt your BRAIN. thinking what you're gonna say cause everythings a g a m e. always trying to calculate, trying to look SMART, but not too smart to threaten [anything] they say. ❞

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[rynelson]

COCKTAILS AND COCK TALES || Ry + Mindy

Mindy: smiled noticing that Ryan backed down. "Aren't you a good little cupcake." She said, a smirk forming on her lips. "That's true. Not a boy. But I am a girl who is often very attracted to other girls." Mindy nodded, "That's good to know." She laughed, "If he doesn't hate you already. I mean, you did call me during movie night, babe."

Ryan: huffed, crossing her arms over her chest, "I'm still upset." She laughed, shrugging her shoulders, "There's still the whole boyfriend thing though." Ryan frowned, taking another drink. She didn't want Mindy's boyfriend to hate her, "Do you think he really hates me? I mean I don't want him to say you can't hangout with me or something."

[rynelson]

COCKTAILS AND COCK TALES || Ry + Mindy

Mindy: laughed, shaking her head, "Don't worry your little head, cupcake. I'll be fine, really." Listening to Ryan, Mindy felt a mix of irritated and heart broken in a sense. Ryan was beautiful in her own right. She smirked, leaning in, closer to Ryan, her hand upon the other female's thigh, "If I was a guy, I'd be all over you." She removed her hand, and moved back, adjusting her jacket and clearing her throat, "Il your friend aren't I? Unless you're using me to gain popularity. If that's the case..." She said standing up, and pulled her hair over her shoulder. "I really must be going."

Ryan: sighed, frustrated that Mindy didn't think it was a big deal, but she knew it was an argument she wasn't going to win. When Mindy placed her hand on Ryans thigh, a strange feeling came over her, almost like butterflies in her stomach, but she shook it off. She shrugged her shoulders, "but you're not a boy and you have a boyfriend." She joked. She nodded her head, "Of course your my friend. Your best friend. I'm not using you to gain popularity. That would be really fucked up." She sighed, nodding her head again. "Kevin's gonna hate me if I keep you too long."

[rynelson]

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[rynelson]

COCKTAILS AND COCK TALES || Ry + Mindy

Mindy: "No, Ryan. You're frustrating me." She said, taking another sip. "Just sit and chill out, k?" She said, with a small smile. "Just be yourself, okay? Don't try so hard because if people like you for you, then those are the people you want in your life."

Ryan: "I'm worried about you? What am I supposed to do if you die or get in an accident and get paralyzed or something?" She said, her voice sounding more and more worried. "Thats easier said then done. I mean-- myself is a short, nerdy perfectionist who gets too dramatic and is ocd. People don't like people like that."

[kailockhart-blog]

“What can I getcha?” She asked softly as she scrunched her nose. There were times when she was more upbeat and surprisingly, today was one of those days. She took a deep breath in when she looked up from the pad of paper to see who she was talking to.

[rynelson]

Ryan grinned at the upbeat tone of her. “Oh its so hard to decided! I think I want the ceasar salad, but what do you suggest?”

[rynelson]

COCKTAILS AND COCK TALES || Ry + Mindy

Mindy: rolled her eyes, "Calm the fuck down, Ryan and stop being annoying." She sighed, shaking her head. "We just click. I don't cling, I don't try to be someone I'm not, we have chemistry, he was my friend first." She said, shrugging her shoulders.

Ryan: sighed, looking down at the ground. "Fine. Then I'll stop drinking and drive you and then I can just walk back. Then you have your car." She listened, nodding her head. Mindy was hot, blonde, and had killer legs, pretty much all the guys liked her, and she'd found a guy who she liked too. Ryan was jealous of that. She felt like she had to try five times as hard to get people to like her. "Yeah, you're really lucky."

[rynelson]

COCKTAILS AND COCK TALES || Ry + Mindy

Mindy: "And leave my car here? No." She said with a smirk, shaking her head. "Calm down. I've driven drunk before so I'll be fine." She said taking another drink. "Calm down babycakes." She patted the brunette's cheek. "Don't rush into it, Ryan. I mean I've been with Kevin for 5 years."

Ryan: "Mindy please. I don't care if you've done it before can you please just not do it tonight? I'll bring your car to you in the morning or something." She hated the idea of something bad happening to her best friend. She knew she was probably being annoying as hell by nagging Mindy not to drive, but she couldn't just let it go. "How have you made it work for 5 years? I mean thats /so/ long for people in high school. I've barely been able to make any relationship last longer than 5 months." She said with a laugh.

[rynelson]

COCKTAILS AND COCK TALES || Ry + Mindy

Mindy: Mindy furrowed her eyebrows at Ryan and snatched back the bottle after Ryan made herself another drink and took a long sip, "You are not my parent. I've driven drink plenty of times and nothing happened. I'll be fine." The blonde snorted, "There's nothing wrong with being a virgin. I mean I lost mine to Kevin when we were 14..might have been 13, but I was really digging him. Like hardcore."

Ryan: frowned at Mindy, "Mindy. Please. You're my best friend and it's not safe to drive drunk. You could hurt yourself or someone else. At least let me get you an Uber or something." Ryan pleaded, a concerned look widespread upon her face. "Thirteen?" She asked a little bit shocked, "wow and here I am 18 and I still haven't done it. I need to get this over with. Plus I really like Zack. So at least it's not a rando." She said with a shrug.

[rynelson]

COCKTAILS AND COCK TALES || Ry + Mindy

Mindy: "That's what fuckboys do when they see a girl they really wanna deflower." She sighed, taking another drink from the bottle, "Yeah I do but drunk sex is so much fun." She said with a giggle. "Like if you wanna do it, do it. Even if you're not 100 percent. I'm not your mother so I'm not gonna tell you what to do, just be safe because I'm really not down for little people pleasers running around." She nodded, "Yeah, that's all you gotta do, little muffin. Trust me. Zack will definitely take the lead."

Ryan: "Maybe he's different though." She sighed. She gave mindy a pointed look, "But driving drunk isn't okay. So you can take the bottle with you and get drunk when you don't have to drive." She said with a shrug, taking the bottle to pour herself a third cocktail. "Well, thanks for the advice anyway. And obviously I'm gonna be safe. I got the implant a while ago, so I've got nothing to worry about on that front really. But yeah. I guess I will. Because I really do like him, and I don't want to be the only virgin in our senior class."

[rynelson]

COCKTAILS AND COCK TALES || Ry + Mindy

Mindy: "I'm sorry. That's rude. He...He's a fuckboy, Ryan and I don't want you getting hurt." She sighed grabbing the bottle and taking a sip from it. "You gotta be 100 percent bro. There's no going back." The blonde snorted, "Okay. There's several ways to go about it and 9 times out of 10, the guy likes to lead especially if they're more experienced. Tell him you're ready and he'll take it from there."

Ryan: "You really think he's a fuckboy? I mean he's really nice to me, but maybe you're right." She sighed. She laughed as Mindy took a drink from the bottle, "Don't you gotta go back to Kevin?" She asked, a concerned look crossing her face for a second. "Well I'm like 95% sure, so I guess I just gotta figure out the other 5 percent." She said with a laugh. She was thankful that Mindy didn't seem to think she was a weirdo by asking questions. "Thats all I gotta do? Just tell him I'm ready and let him take the lead? I can definitely do that."

[rynelson]

COCKTAILS AND COCK TALES || Ry + Mindy

Mindy: took her drink and sipped on it. Hearing Ryan's question, she spit out her drink. "What?" She laughed, "You guys have been together for a month Ryan and he's a huge ass fuckboy. "I mean I lost my virginity when I was 14 so I don't really have room to talk here but I mean, if you want to, go for it. But be safe. Be smart. Don't do it just because you're the only virgin in our circle. Like its a big step so you gotta be ready for it."

Ryan: raised her brows as Mindy spit out her drink. "So you think it's weird that he's still with me even though I haven't had sex with him?" She asked, finishing off her drink. "But like I do think I'm ready. I'm 18 and I'm don't want to graduate and look back and regret all the things I haven't done, you know." She stood up from the bed, pouring herself another glass. She knew Mindy had to drive back to Kevin, so she didn't pour her another drink. "And like, okay this is kind of awkward and weird to ask I know, but like, how do I initiate it? Like I've never even seen a penis in real life, but I mean I know porn is highly unrealistic so I doubt you just start doing it after kissing a couple times. "

[rynelson]

COCKTAILS AND COCK TALES || Ry + Mindy

Mindy: "Never, ever." She said with a laugh. She raised an eyebrow, "About movie night? I mean it's kind of a me and Kevin thing." She teased. "I'm kidding. What's up?" She asked. She always dreaded when people asked for her advice as she was never the best at it...unless it had to do with sex, them her answer was always 'Yes.'

Ryan: smiled, handing her the drink and taking her own, taking a long drink from the cup. "Well no. I don't think I'd want to join in there. I mean--" she took another drink, nervous and awkward feeling to even be asking about this. "Ok so I mean Zack and I have been dating like a month now and Like. . . Okay well like, he wants more from the relationship. I've never had sex before though so like, what do I do?" She said with a sigh, brushing her hair back away from her face. "Like should I loose my virginity to him? Should I start small and like work my way up to the big thing?"

[rynelson]

COCKTAILS AND COCK TALES || Ry + Mindy

Mindy: smiled when Ryan opened the door. "Hi." Once in Ryan's room, Mindy smirked, "Have I ever turned down alcohol?" She asked. "Orange juice correct?" She leaned against the wall, "You're lucky we're friends because it's movie night." Everyone in their circle of friends that actually knew Kevin and Mindy knew that their movie night wasn't really a movie night. It was more along the lines of finding a movie, and having sex during it.

Ryan: laughed, running up to the kitchen to grab some juice and cups, quickly coming back downstairs. "Hmm let me think. Oh thats right. Never." She said as she began pouring the drinks. Ryan nodded her head, she knew what movie night meant, and she didn't want to keep Mindy too long. She wasn't a shitty friend or anything, but she was nervous about asking Mindy for advice on the matter, and figured it would be easiest in person. "So uhm, thats kind of what I wanted to talk to you about honestly." She said, sitting down criss cross on her bed.

[rynelson]

COCKTAILS AND COCK TALES || Ry + Mindy

Mindy: Hearing her phone ring, Mindy let out a groan and slipped out of her boyfriend's grip. Hanging up, she rolled her eyes, looking at Kevin. "It's Ryan." She said, grabbing her leather jacket. She leaned over and kissed him, "Om yours tonight, promise." She told him, leaving his house. She had been with Kevin for three years and he was quite literally her entire world. Driving to Ryan's, she was curious as to what their conversation would entail. Pulling into the parking lot, she parked and walked inside and up to Ryan's and knocked on the door.

Ryan: let out a squeal hearing the knock at the door. Her mom got up to go answer it, but Ryan stopped her. "¡Cálmate Mami! It's just Mindy, I got it." She said with a flash of a smile as she went to open the door. "Hi. I'm so glad you're here. Come on." She said, grabbing the blondes hand and leading her downstairs to her basement-turned-bedroom. As soon as they were in the room, Ryan walked into her closet and grabbed the bottle of Vodka. "Do you want a drink? I swiped this and thought we could mix it with some juice?"