tea

21 | British/ Australian | I love writing, tattoos, elephants and travel. Student nurse 💕On good days I drink tea, lift weights and run til I can't feel my legs○

[prettypachyderms]

So beautiful.

Photo from @Forever Trunks on FB

[whosthemoss]

[manicbones]

honestly though, in my opinion the worst part of bipolar disorder is knowing that you’ll get bad again and you can only put it off or do damage control. increase your antidepressants, phone your friends, hide your credit cards, warn your job. you could be stable for a week or for a year but It. Will. Be. Back.

and every episode feels worse and every depressive 3am thought turns into “but what’s the point if I’m just going to keep ending up here”

I know people who have awful breakdowns or traumas or unipolar depression but once it’s over their stability is real and they have hope of moving on with their lives. it feels like I’ve tried everything, it feels like I’ve put so much effort into building a life I’m proud of with a good job and good people and I still spend so much of my time just trying to keep my head above water and knowing it’s never-ending makes it even harder.

[the-suicide-effect]

[mentallyillmemes]

[mentallyillmemes]

[xbloody-thighs-hollow-eyesx]

Me in general life.

[sunsetquotes]

“I can’t exactly describe how I feel but it’s not quite right. And it leaves me cold.”

— F. Scott Fitzgerald

[quotemadness]

“You are so brave and quiet I forget you are suffering.”

— Ernest Hemingway

[mentallyillmemes]

[stressvul-deactivated20200822]

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* reblog or like if you ever felt like this*:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

follow for relatbale original sad shit! i feel like im already dead, i hate everything about myself!

[thegoodvybe]

[theyfoundusrunning]

It’s hard to tell people you’re really proud of yourself for making it through another year.

Things I’m realising at 21.

[secret-mind]

If you need someone to talk to, just message me or send an ask :-)

[mywastedtears]

Even breathing gets difficult.

Depression (via wasted-suicide)

[mystruggle18]

But I swear, I think I am going to kill myself really soon.

(via mystruggle18)

[mystruggle18]

I hate the sound of my voice. And the way I look when I laugh. I hate the sound of my laugh too. I hate the way I walk and my body posture. I hate my body itself and how I look in the mirror. I hate the way I talk and the words I choose, how I talk too much and nonsense or not at all. I hate the way I eat or the fact that I eat. I hate what I think and what runs through my mind. I hate what runs through my veins too and how I feel. I hate how I hate myself: too deeply, too truly, too much to even normally function.

(via mystruggle18)