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I created this blog so that I could speak freely and anonymously about my mental health issues and my struggle towards a better life. I will try to label posts with trigger warnings when appropriate, but I will also be speaking openly so please don't follow this blog if you think that might upset you.

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Update

I think the Risperidone is doing something positive. My suicidal ideation is down slightly, as is my baseline depression. My self harm urges were down for awhile, but now they're back up. Luckily, I've given all of my harming "tools" to someone else for safe keeping, so it's unlikely that I'll act on these urges anytime soon. I think my concentration might be up slightly as well -- I don't have as many racing and repetitive thoughts.

But it's too soon to tell -- these things tend to come in waves with me, even when I'm not on medication. I'm trying to stay hopeful though.

#depression #self harm #dbt #bpd

Risperidone

Doc started me on .5 mg risperidone once a day @ night.

This is in addition to my wellbutrin and ativan.

Has anyone had experience with risperidone? Did you take this dose? What for? How did it affect you?

#Risperidone #meds #borderline #bpd #depression

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Is frozen a feeling?

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Took my partner

over a half hour to get me to respond to him.

I was awake. I just didn't want to move. I just kept thinking of all the things I had to do, and all the other things.

But I got up.

I think it may have been partially due to the fact that I slept for 14 hours and didn't take my wellbutrin on time.

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Today's feel.

hey I'm on Wellbutrin and Ativan too :) sending love <3

We have a club!

Worst club ever.

But at least we are not alone!

Wish we had a treehouse though.

#wellbutrin #ativan #depression #anxiety #meds

The Susanna (Girl, Interrupted) pic is me all in one photo.

Me too some days.

Then other days, I'm all, "I've turned a corner! Everything is great!"

And then boom.

Borderline rollarcoaster - worst ride in the park.

#girl interrupted

Been up since 4am

in the hospital all day with friend who's having weight loss surgery.

And because that triggers me, I haven't eaten all day.

Fail.

#disordered eating #triggering

I may be put on anti psychotics soon

Have any of you taken any of these? First or second generation? What was your experience? Did you gain weight (a lot of them say you will).

I meet with my psychiatrist on Friday and we'll be making a decision. I told him I wanted to do some research first, but I'm having a really hard time telling the difference between the drugs.

Can anyone share some experience?

#anti psychotics #borderline personality disorder #depression #meds #antipsychotics

How are you doing these days?

That's such a hard question to answer. Better, I think. I hope.

De todas las obras de Dalí, a veces me creo que son las paisajes abiertos que me gustan mas. Dicen algo que las obras maestras, que las paredes enormes y alucinógenas no pueden. Hay algo honesto, algo verdad en el horizonte de Andalucía que siempre está presente.

Es una constante en un mundo de caos.

#Dalí