I was caught up in such an unbelievable situation, that now I kinda expect some very unpleasant thing to happen very soon:D But you know what? I don't care at this point.
No one will see this, no one will read this so I can just write it out of myself here: I've been romantically lonely and overall distrustful to most ppl for years. Even my own brother was genuinely sure I will never have someone ever again (damn brother who tf hurt you btw?)
And now? After being so sure I'll never be able to trust a man ever again, here I am with someone by my side who plans to propose ask my hand in NEXT YEAR? Like obviously not in the beginning of the year. He only hinted he will come to ask my parents' blessings/approval this spring. I am so happy, and I feel so secure and loved by his side like never before. So go on fate, STRIKE ME if you wish so. I will not care, because rn I just want to believe this miracle, this dream is actually true:) If fate holds such a cursed af christmas to me like last year, go on. Right now I feel invulnerable actually.


















