Idiot Coma

This account just for fun, I need to show my life to anyone, and I need to read something here,,

[s4zuky]

Aku hanya memastikan kalau apa yg akan kulakukan adalah benar, bukan memastikan bahwa apa yg kulakukan salah. Tidak ada masalah kalau aku melakukan perlahan dan memastikan bahwa yg ku koreksi adalh benar.

[s4zuky]

One by one goes by, leaving me behind.

I could go to them, but I chose being here and look at them goes by.

Wish they gonna look back and turn the feet. But It just a wish, Wish never come true because it just GOD privilage.

So I cry in my heart and say good bye to them and try to stepping my feet in another direction.

[s4zuky]

I can’t win any battle, but I never lose my self,

Not loss though, but never win.

I never wanna whining because I never have one, but I have a heart who hurt so much,

So is okay if i wanna protect me to never make a contact with them anymore,

[s4zuky]

I love you to the moon and back. I’m okay being alone all the time.

The one who never leave me is my self, and you, somepeople from my mind. Thanks to never leave me alone, thanks for being with me all the time.

I’m okay being the one who got hurt,

[s4zuky]

Instant noodle, why are you so tempting,

[s4zuky]

I wanna be someone who fit with those clothes,

[s4zuky]

I really understand that I was like this from the first time. I never wanna be the first, I just wanna be the never forgotten from everyone. But maybe I was more than unforgettable because I will be someone who stole someone else’s. I never wanna be the one, but I felt to deep to the cliff and be the one got hurt in the end.

I hope he was alright. From head to toe, from deep inside him and outside his body. I just wanna him to be the best person in this world, not in my world. My world just around corner. My world just and inch apart from my head, never be wide open like this world. But his world, he have everything to build to be his world.

I wanna give up. Please GOD give me permission to give up. Give me permission to just being me and my world. To just being inside of my head. Really I wanna be the one who was had coma and being the one in my head and never come back to this world.

Because my world just be me, Touya, Ita, yukiko, Pedro, and Clide. Just they I need the most. Just they is my world. I never could replace them. I love them, that I will make my self lock in my world with them.

[s4zuky]

I don’t know what I need to seeing to them, am I need to looked sad? Or I beed to looked happy,

I hate it, when I could not being like I wanna be, but I really know , that’s never happened.

I will beeing like this forever, because my feeling still lingering around them, and my feet still running around them when I hear they voices,

[s4zuky]

I miss you, but I couldn’t say it out loud because I didn’t have the right to say that,

I wanna know where are you, but I couldn’t say it because I don’t have the right thing to say that,

[s4zuky]

Every hour I look at my phone, wish you gonna call me. But more my hope up’s the reality going down and down.

I miss you, really miss you so much. I’m gonna said that when you call me, but what’s i got? Nothing,

I need to pressing my feeling toward you,

[s4zuky]

MARCH

I don’t know what occasions, but those song repeat in my ears over and over again.

Though just a second It give me joy,

[s4zuky]

It’s hard, really hard for me, my heart hurts,

But 1 thing that I know, he have a bad day to openly view the chat, and then I’m cut it out,

I said “just chat me whenever you have a problem with me”

But I thought he doesn’t understand it, I’m not openly say that he could been nag to me, because I know that he had it.

[s4zuky]

This is what I want, but I’m struggle in the process, I really wanna die,

[s4zuky]

So, you are okay,

[s4zuky]

The lifeless of me, make apocalypse.

Burn down the feeling, shake the body with mind quakes, drenched with blood of regretful.

[s4zuky]

I miss the rain, the rain drops in every inch of my body.

I love the rain, who hide my tears from everyone,

I love the rain, who hide my scream from the environment,

I miss him, a lot,

I miss it, alot,

I could focus on my mind, because of the rain,

[s4zuky]

I’m here Alone,

Finally, I let them go,

Thanks to me, Finally I let them go,

Just go everywhere my feet, just go fly my feeling, let it go my heart, let it out my eyes, let it shout my mouth, let hear everything my ears,