LÉNA

Heaven doesn’t want me yet so I am staying here for a little while.

[saccharose]

[saccharose]

Being years on Tumblr, I've finally realized the importance of organizing content through hashtags. Here are some main hashtags I use to navigate this page:

Images

#aes : for images I found eye-pleasing

#picturam : for photos I took myself

#moodboard : the moodboards I made

Texts

#favourite : excerpts of writers I admire

#ad meliora : on the how-to

#celestia : the wonder and vastness of the universe

#she/her/me : posts I personally found resonated with

#womanhood : highlights on the (challenges of) womanhood

#by the God of Adam : contemplations on the existence of God

#fortis fortuna adiuvat : inspiring and encouraging reminders

#gentleness of the heart : since we are all just a mere human

Other

#Spotify

[saccharose]

Me, in the real life:

- is given a deadline by my situationship if I want to take it seriously to the next step or not (probably not)

- preparing for a mountain hiking the first time (why not!)

- trying to manage my own emotions because one of my best friends is pregnant (why would she do that?)

Me, on Instagram:

« So here are my favourite dark chocolates so far! »

[saccharose]

Do I want to live in Manchester? Do I want to wake up to a man with strong opinions and black wavy hair?

I don’t know, I don’t know.

[saccharose]

Witnessing a little bird takes a bath under the shade of Burma creeper.

[arinewman7]

Early Winter

Anna Weyant

oil on canvas, 2023

[thunderstruck9]

Anna Weyant (Canadian, 1995), Early Winter, 2023. Oil on canvas, 24 x 18 in.

[saccharose]

I don’t like the feeling of being needed.

[saccharose]

Today, I let go of the last mandarin tree that I planted years ago // In another universe, I am away from home and father calls to tell me that they are now bearing fruits and they are sweet.

[saccharose]

Wondering if I’d be still alive once my Night Blooming Jasmine finally bears flowers?

[saccharose]

Where can I find a perfume that has the scent of orange groves in Kintamani? I have been missing it for years.

[spiderbasil]

settings

> my oyster

> configure my oyster

> release my pearl

[saccharose]

I prefer the feeling of freedom than the feeling of being loved. Being loved weighs me with the expectation to return it.

[saccharose]

I really LOVE to be alone to the point that I just cried after imagining sharing my time and space with a man because society keeps telling me to get married.

[saccharose]

December 13th 2025, 2:57 PM

It’s probably the moment where I feel the most serene this year. In my room, peacefully alone, soft sunlight peeking through the window, eating fruits while reading a book about consciousness, piano playing in the background and knowing that next year great things will happen somehow.

[saccharose]

Lelah. Tiba-tiba lupa Bahasa Indonesia-nya “avoid” tapi langsung ucap « éviter »

[saccharose]

Today I learned that to be the one who shares the visage of my mother means I can’t even be ugly in peace.

You could have a day where you intentionally let yourself to look ugly and someone would still say that you look like her.

I gladly let her to have all the praise when I look beautiful, I don’t care, but what do you mean even this ugliness still belongs to her? What do you mean this ugliness cannot be mine and mine only?

[metamorphesque]

Shifting the Sun, Diana Der-Hovanessian

[saccharose]

Why there are suddenly so many rabbits on my Instagram's explore page? (I am happy with it.)