A Broken Mess

I’m an old loser in my 30s, I’m fat, sad, medium ugly, and practically a shut-in. I’ll try not to be too horny or too sad but no promises. If you’d like me to unfollow you or delete something, don’t hesitate to let me know! I’ll do it no questions asked! MDNI. Seriously, if you’re a minor please go.

[sad-old-subby]

I’d be truly grateful if you could be so mean to me that I cry. If you wouldn’t mind, of course. I just haven’t had a good cry in a while and I find myself in dire need of one.

If you’re curious about me:

My name is Bub (no not really but you can call me that unless you prefer my actual name). I’m cis, I go by he/him/his. I’ve got brown eyes, black hair (it’s started going gray which is cool), and I’m pretty average height (you can ask if you’re that curious about the number). I’m bi but I think women are significantly smarter, prettier, and funnier than men (no offense to men, I still think you look pretty when you’re naked).

My family are my favorite people in the world (my siblings are my actual best friends). I love drugs (I mostly smoke weed and do ketamine, sometimes acid or shrooms, Molly a few times) but I’ll try not to romanticize my drug use (floating in the ocean on acid is one of my top ten experiences)

I consider my interests to be pretty stereotypical for a casual nerd/dork boy; I love movies especially Pan’s Labyrinth, the OT Star Wars, LotR, Jim Carrey’s Grinch, Face Off, Christopher Reeves Superman, and Godzilla. I’ve also been getting more into horror (I adore the Saw movies). I’m a moderate reader, I’ve been trying to catch up on The Stormlight Archive (Brandon Sanderson is such a phenomenal writer), and I have a special place in my heart for the Redwall books. I enjoy gaming but I’m usually playing (or replaying) RPGs like Mass Effect and Fable. I’ve dabbled in games like Smash Bros and Apex Legends but I’m terrible and I get so mad about losing all the time. I occasionally smoke a non-tobacco pipe because it makes me feel wise and wizardly.

I’ve been plagued by insecurity, anxiety, and depression since forever. Diagnosed ADHD ever since my first grade teacher announced my inability to see the board as my being willfully disrespectful and subsequently forcing my parents to get me tested (nobody figured out I needed glasses for another 5 years, probably because I’m admittedly pretty willful and disrespectful).

I’m an old and very boring loser who dropped out of college and is still trying to work up the courage to try again. I’d love to be a writer but I don’t have the brains or the courage for it. I live in the US on the East Coast with my mom and my sister. I spend most of my time reading escapist fiction or playing games (I just started reading Hyperion and I’m currently re-playing Mass Effect)

Spicier info below (I’m white, so it ain’t that spicy)

I’m bi, and I’d say I’m submissive but I’d also like to believe I could rise to the occasion if called upon to dom (don’t trust me on that)

Things I’m into:

Femdom (typically the more gentle side of things but it’s not something I’ve really explored much tbh), D/s, oral (giving preferred but I won’t be upset to receive), pegging, tease/denial, edging, overstimulation, spanking (giving or receiving), praise kink, body writing/being marked, humiliation, Sph, breeding, joi, cei, cum eating/cleanup, feet (I know, I’m sorry)

Things I’d like to try:

Pet play, collars, Harder Femdom stuff, chastity cage, deepthroat training, strap on, nipple play, bdsm, intox, somno

Things I’ve tried and didn’t hate:

Cuckolding (I enjoyed elements of it but it ended very badly), being a Dom (I just wasn’t very good at it honestly), shibari, cnc, watersports, feminization (grew my hair out, wore panties, shaved, I liked that it made them happy but it was so much work), hypno (I enjoyed the ritual of it and getting tasks but I found it hard to pretend it was real), leather/latex fetish (no shade, it just didn’t do anything for me)

Things I won’t do or tried and didn’t like:

Vomit, poo, blood, cbt, mummification, findom, blackmail

Whats wrong with me? :

Lots of stuff! As I mentioned above I’m adhd, depressed, anxious, insecure, and old. Some additional mental and physical defects include struggling with erectile dysfunction, tiny dick, self hatred, porn addiction/gooning, I’ve been told I drool/salivate too much when I kiss, I get overwhelmed and deal with it by shutting down/disappearing. I probably drink too much (I’ve been cutting back), I smoke way too much weed (I’ve cut waaaaaay back, I was fully a stoner), I don’t shower (sometimes I go a week between showers), my first instinct is always to lie, I’m emotionally unavailable. I’m sure there’s even more that I’m just not remembering right now

Any posts I wrote will be tagged #hey bub

I’m always happy to chat so feel free to reach out! If you want to talk about anything sexual you’ve got to say so because otherwise I won’t go there with you. Dick pics are welcomed and even encouraged (nudes are always a happy surprise)

[sodomymcscurvylegs]

…feEL THE RAIN ON YOUR SKIN NO ONE ELSE CAN FEEL FOR YOU ONLY YOU CAN LET IT IN

[succubi-naptime]

I miss seeing cocks and clits and cum on this website :(

[psfistpsf]

[scaberiko-deactivated20221231]

[matchamoe]

Reblog if you want obscenely sexual and kinky messages in your askbox for shits and giggles.

[crowleyy]

[kingofhyrule-deactivated2014100]

[idk4noww]

Saw this on pinterest and OML. This is my futureeeeee

[konohaneko]

[baddiestoday]

[coffee-discussions]

Be different. Get his attention by pulling his hair

[coffee-discussions]

Why be nice when you can get him hard on purpose and then ignore it

[orpheuslament]

(no beers in) does anyone wanna keep me as their house pet forever

[stricatul]

My favorite sex position is when you communicate your feelings in a direct way. So i don’t have to do the emotional labor of trying to decode exactly what the fuck you’re saying

[alliefoxxies]

Good boy

#Precious

[eosadneuseum]

my therapist says you need to make me cum until im crying. not my words