A-Nougat-Life

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Life will test you till your last breath.

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I get dark thoughts. Like killing myself or running away for every or idk. But everything makes me so upset and everyone makes me so mad and idk.

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I feel like nothing good can ever happen to me. Even i see my future self in distress and in pain. Idk why but i always see myself dead or divorced or somewhere bad.

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I had been feeling anxious again. I could feel those minor anxiety attacks but i was trying to ignore them and suppress them. I am just heartbroken and hopeless. Nothing can fix me. I am broken and I really want it to end. I can’t hear all the abuses and swearings that are thrown at me insensitively.

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I lost so many people on my way and I thought that this would be my road to recovery and self-discovery but it’s the same old garbage and nothing has changed it’s just more quiet but with a constant fear of someone coming back to cause me distress or something new happening to destroy my peace of heart.

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I wish i could fly away, like the normal people do.

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People say that time heals every thing. Like after some time your healing period starts. I think that all of this is bullshit. Because i don't seem to heal any time soon. My wounds are still fresh and they hurt like yesterday. I remember everything and i just can't seem to move on. Everyone talks to me and says that move on like it's something that's so simple and easy. If it was that easy i would have done that ages ago. I feel like I'm stuck and there's no way out. I can't move forward and i can't live today. I'm alive but in the past. If i try to live in the present that everything gets so hard and suffocating that i shuts myself in. Every day is a battle and the battle which i lose everyday. Idk how long i can keep going like this but I'm tired and want my suffering to end. I want this part of me to be erased like it never happened. I just want to be a normal, happy person who don't worry about common things. Who doesn't get anxious on every simple thing. It's too much for everyday. It's just too much...

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I like my new tumblr look😎

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Why is it so hard for me to be happy these days? Or to find happiness in the smallest things? Why I'm always so negative? Why does everything feels like a task that needs to be done. I'm always tired and sad and tbh I don't want to fight anymore. I just want this to end.

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I can't tweet anything about how i feel because people think that I'm doing it for the sake of attention. 😭😭

I seriously need help with my depression, anxiety, stress issues.

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When peach in “you” said, “male energy in my healing space just..isn’t optimal”.

I felt that real hard.

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Alone

I'm alone.. This feeling has already consumed my 80% energy and 90% personality. I was at this great function, i had a really good time with my friends but i was the outsider there. I didn't feel like i truly belonged there. I felt that if i wasn't there nobody would have missed me. I don't think like people who claim that they'll be there for me at all times, they are just lying to me. Because whenever i need them they are never there for me. I feel so lonely, scared and idk how to explain what I'm feeling rn. It's getting heavier and i just feel like giving up. Like don't evem want to try or bother anymore. I want this misery to end. I don't want to bother people with my presence anymore.

4:14 am

15/07/2019

[holyhotpantsbatman3]

My therapist asked me to create something “motivating” so I made these.

lol.

[vvank3rshim]

I really love these, and I reblog them every single time. Some of you don’t realize how easy it’s to forget to do some of those stuff or how hard they can be some days.

[wish-i-was-flatlining-deactivat]

You know who else is a star? The person reading this, and don’t say you aren’t because you are and someday you’ll see that even if you don’t right now ☆☆

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These stars are the best. I give them to myself every night before going to sleep, trying to remind myself that i do matter and my existence is as important as any other person.

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Sitting under a starry sky

Seeing the clouds

Makes me wonder

How's it like to be a free soul

The one who wanders in far away lands

Without a worry

Of coming back.

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The pain i feel

Is felt by none

The thoughts that haunt me

Are known by none

I feel suffocated and scared

Of the uncertain future

Of all the monsters in head

And the ones i call my family and friends

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I will snap out of this depressive episode as soon as i wake and it will be a bright new day for me 🙂

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Is anyone willing to sponser me to some foreign country? Pretty please