Honestly, Adam probably did. Since Tosh asked Owen if he’d ever felt the same way that she (thinks she) feels for Adam, and he said no. But he felt that way for Katie years ago, so either Adam made him forget her and that’s why he said no, or he only said no because he was thinking about how that’s how he feels about Tosh but didn’t want to do the Big Confession of Love yet so he denied it.
But it was Katie’s death that really pushed Owen over into being cynical and depressed. Sure, his relationship with his mom contributed to it too, but losing Katie seemed to be the last straw since he didn’t seem as damaged in Fragments as he did in Season 1. So, since he still remembered his mom during Adam, he probably forgot about Katie. Adam probably also made him forget about Diane too since Owen was suicidal after Diane left. Katie was the reason he feared commitment, he knew what aliens and the rift could do to the people he loved so he didn’t want to love anyone like that again, and he was literally terrified by how attached he became to Diane. Making him feel even worse when she left right after he was finally vulnerable and ready to give himself to someone again.
That’s why he never acted on his feelings for Tosh when he wasn’t influenced by Adam. He knew how she felt about him, and he knew he cared about her enough to give her a chance with one date once she got the courage to actually ask him out. Deep down he really loved her since Adam didn’t make him love her, he just changed his personality, but then he lashed out at her and tried to push her away because being a dead man walking on top of all the damage he already had made him not even want to try at that point. And he admits to Tosh In Exit Wounds that it was his fault that he never noticed how he felt until it was too late.
It’s the language that Owen uses in his Big Love Confession that shows he really did love Tosh (since I’m sure there are people out there convinced Adam made him think he did). He said “I think, in fact, I know that we would be amazing together” and that’s exactly what he said to Gwen in Countrycide when trying to seduce her: “We’d be amazing.” He tells Diane that he’s scared of how he feels and in Adam it’s him thinking of his mom saying “seize the day” that gives him the bravery to admit his feelings to Tosh because he needed to be brave to do it. Telling Diane “All I see is you. All I can think about is what you’re wearing, what you’re thinking, what your face looks like when you come.” and telling Tosh “I actually ache for you. Physically, when you’re in the room, I just want to reach out and touch you.” Yes, the only reason the confession occurred was because his memory had been altered, but what was said was all Owen.
How much he valued her friendship and happiness was always there too even without Adam’s influence since we saw that he sent her a homemade birthday card with a picture of them in Greeks Bearing Gifts. And when he was worried about her being hurt by Tommy going back to his own time. When he said “You touch her again and I will kill you.” to Captain John before being shot. He was all for a pool date that he thought was a friendly outing with her and the team, and asked about it when it didn’t happen. He thanked her for always being there for him ever since the Space Pig. He proved his own stupid “I don’t do flowers and I definitely don’t do apologies” comment wrong when he apologized to her in Exit Wounds for everything.
Basically, Doctor Owen Harper is the best. And the Tosh/Owen ship will forever cause me pain.
Also, Adam making Owen forget about Katie in order to be less cynical and the alien in Katie’s brain made her eventually forget Owen is a heartbreaking parallel. Both of them were forced to forget the other by an alien. Wow. How does Torchwood hurt so much all these years later?
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