Morning dew
Pairing: Mom reader x Post civil war bucky
Summary: Another attack on new york another life effected. This time it just happens to be yours.
Warnings: post civil war, chaos, this is written very poorly, everyone is a bit of a dick including you, first ever fanfic be prepared, 2nd pov, no use of y/n, fem reader, she/her pronouns, capitalization id a suggestion
A/N: happy birthday bucky!! um, so like this is probably horrible, please read. I plan on making this a series but idk? feel free to leave criticism, i tried really hard not to describe reader or her kids but people make mistakes, that being said i hope you enjoy!! if you dont thats okay, please comment any tips or suggestions or literally anything PLEASE.
Word count: 5k-ish
it was a beautiful morning, she had woken up 15 minutes earlier than usual giving her time to appreciate soft huffs of breath coming from her newborns bed and the streaming sunlight filtering through her curtains. after a few moments, she got up making sure to not wake her sleeping infant. her feet padded softly against the wooden flooring as she walked into the kitchen, she grabbed eggs and bacon, turning the stove on to start cooking. as she waited for the food to cook, she started preparing her diaper bag. prepping bottles, bringing extra diapers, wipes, and snacks. she finished packing right as the food finished. she makes two plates and sets them down on the dinning table a smaller paw patrol themed plate and a larger white one.
she heads back down the hallway to a door right next to hers she walks in and sits on the edge of her daughters bed her hands tucking loose curls behind her daughters ear. "Constance its time to wake up honey.. youve got school" she whispered the words, hoping to not startle her daughter. a soft smile spread across her face as her daughter grumbled and stretched before opening her eyes "hi momma". "hi sweetheart good morning, lets go brush our teeth then we can eat breakfast okay?" constance nods before sitting up and slowly slidding off the bed her movements slow and luggish due to sleep. she follows after her, her movements slowing as her daughter grabs her hand gently holding on to it as they walked to the bathroom. she reddies their tooth brushes handing the toddler her spiderman toothbrush before picking up her own. her daughter grabs her hand again as she slowly brushed her teeth, she ended up brushing her teeth with her non-dominant hand so she wouldnt have to break her daughters hold. once they finished they started walking to the dinning room she helped her daughter up into her chair before heading to the kitchen.
"do you want a smoothie or chocolate milk with breakfast?" she asked softly from the kitchen "mm.. chocolate milk" "perfect" she said pulling the jug out of the fridge to pour two glasses. "mommy?" "yes sweetheart?" "can i have it in my unicorn cup?" a soft smile crossed her features "yes of course".
she already had the cup made for her, walking back to the dinning room she set the glass infront of her daughter before sitting down to eat. she got about halfway through her plate before she heard crying coming from her room she instantly got up and walked down the hall to her bedroom, picking up the small wailing bundle, she rocked her slowly till her wails turned into a soft whimper. She walked back to the dinning room sitting back down in her chair now a little further from the table to give herself some room to breastfeed. "mommy?" "yes sweetheart?" "does daphne like chocolate milk?" a soft startled chuckle left her lips "im sure she probably will in the future but right now the only thing she can eat or drink is milk" "but chocolate milk is milk? its just.. chocolate" she let out another chuckle watching the confusion pass over her daughters face. "youre right chocolate milk is milk but its cows milk and daphne needs my milk" constance seems to think for a long while or whats considered a long while for a four year old before nodding a look of understanding on her face. "okay mommy i understand" they continue eating once they both where done she stood up arm under daphne as she was still attached to her breast. she helped her daughter down before gathering the plates "okay go get some clothes on ill do your hair" she could hear the patter of constances feet running off to get clothes on as she put the dishes into the sink before going back to her room and dressing her and daphne.
they all walked out of the house constance and daphne matching per constances request. constance was in a pink, yellow, and blue stripped short sleeve shirt and overalls that had a cute butterfly embroidered on them, her hair had matching butterfly clips in it. daphne was in a pink onesie with a white, butterfly patterened blanket wrapped around her. she was wearing a wrap that held daphne to her chest. she was dressed in modest, easy to clean clothes. a pair of baggy paint stained jeans and a sage green babydoll shapped top with loose sleeves. her hair was pulled up and she had small gold studs in. they started walking to school they only lived about 25 minutes away, and a good breath of fresh air always helps to make the day easier.
Thats when it happened. her eldest daughters hand clutched in hers, diaper bag on her back, newborn held close to her chest, just another normal day. till it wasnt, till a building was crumbling infront of them, she picked up constance and started running as fast as possible the opposite direction towards her house but just as suddenly as she started running, a fucking spacecraft fell onto her house causing it to blow up. she shielded her daughters gaze away a hand coming up to cover her face from debris and the horrible picture of their home in flames. she spun around in a circle stupidly looking for somewhere to go, adrenaline pumping in her veins, both of her daughters crying against her, but where could she go? a fucking building just collapsed infront of her, her house exploded, she just needed a moment a single moment but it wasnt coming. thats when she saw them, the avengers, iron man, the hulk, black widow, captain america, hawkeye, and thor. the whole fucking gang apparently. she wanted to run to them but they where running to the fight so shes back where we started, looking like a desperate lost sheep with children, a liability. she finally made a decision deciding anywhere but here sounded pretty good. she started sprinting down the alley unaware of the presence following her.
she ran for 10 minutes her chest heaving and feet aching with every step but she couldnt stop she couldnt stop she couldnt- a green alien looking thing landed directly infront of her causing her to jerk to a halt. they had a weird stand off situation going on him just looking at her, cataloging wether she was a threat or not. that was fine she could deal with that but as if with a mind of its own her hand slowly slid into the side pocket of the diaperbag, a shock ran through her as it curled around the cold steel. then its eyes flicked to the two children cradled close to her, and it lunged. she shot it, not even realizing shed switched the safety off, not even realizing shed moved, she held the steaming gun in her hand her head quickly turning to her daughters making sure neither of them saw that. they didnt. her body shook with the overwhelming feeling of adrenaline and emotion and the noise of her poor babies sobs and hiccups as they tried to breathe. she fell to her knees the hand that held the gun trembling as she set it down directly next to her. she was panting, getting into her head, her heart was beating too fast, she was going to have a panic attack. a hand came in contact with her shoulder she reflexively grabbed the gun and shoved it into the abdomen of the offender finger on the trigger but not shooting. she turned her head and looked up finding none other than black widow, a shuddering breath of relief left her lips as her arm fell loosely down at her side, her hand releasing the gun at the womans feet. they sat in silence for a moment as she caught her breath and her childrens crying quieted. black widow- natasha, her name suddenly came to her, natasha reached her hand out to her offering to help her up, she takes it gratefully still supporting most of her weight and her kids weight but still thankful for the help. natashas eyes lock onto her for a few moments before flicking down to her children. Her body immediately tenses which natasha notices but doesnt acknowledge, her attention goes back to you.
"theres a place in the tower for people to.. adjust before going back home if youd like?" she stays silent for a moment before muttering out softly, "we dont have a home anymore.." natasha just stood there her lips drawn into a tight line before she nods once "weve got a place for that too" she nods silently before following natasha back into the chaos. it wasnt active chaos anymore, it was that destructive chaos that always happens after, the silence, the weariness, the unsteadiness that everyone experiences, the threat that still lingers. she sees the avengers, quiet and torn up, bleeding, but still standing, she couldnt help the smile of relief that covered her face. she walked after natasha, steve and tony instantly clocking her following after the widow, instead of taking them to the big truck they where hauling injured people into, she walked her to the avengers, she stood awkwardly just outside the circle. "whats up with peggy bundy?" tony asked natasha a peeved expression crossing her face at the comment. "shes coming to the tower" natasha said matter of fact. tony shrugged "yeah so is everyone else who was effected?" "shes moving in" natasha said bluntly causing a shocked look to cover her face tonys and steves who was apparently evesdropping.
"the ship that fell hit her house, shes got nothing but the clothes on her back, that backpack, and her kids, tony." she winced slightly at the mention of her now lack of house. tony stood quietly for a moment before nodding, and before she knew it she was in the most expensive car shes ever seen her little girls sleeping against her, staring up at the avengers tower from her seat. her heart pounded as they pulled into the driveway, despite there being four other people in the car with her it was absolutely silent which made her anxiety cling to her even worse. finally bruce speaks up when natasha parked the car. "i dont know if i missed a memo or something but.. whats up with the mom and kids back here?" he asked the question but he wasnt even looking at her which kind of pissed her off, but ultimately she understand the avengers where who shed ask in his position too. "she needs a place to stay" natasha answered not harshly but firm like it wasnt up for questioning. steve opened his door causing everyone else to open their doors. she got out of the car daphne still strapped to her chest. she carefully picked up constance resting her on her hip so she wouldnt wake up. she carefully leaned over and with her spare hand grabbed the diaperbag before finally closing the door with her foot. she looked up and noticed clint, natasha, and steve, standing there watching her. a flush of emberrassment crawls up her neck. "sorry.." she muttered softly before walking to follow them to the elevator.
wordlessly clint grabbed her diaperbag from ger hand and threw it over his shoulder flashing her a polite smile. they all walked into the elevator natasha hitting button 88 as she squeezed herself into a corner. she hated elevators the lurch of the rise and stop of it has never sat right in her stomach since having constance. they sat in silence as the elevator moved till about level 60, she cleared her throat nervously before speaking. "so.. how long am i allowed to stay here, i dont want to be a nuisance but it might take me a while to find a place to live seeing as i dont have a job or anything.." she trailed off, she felt like she sounded absolutely rediculous but she needed a time frame so she didnt accidentally overstep. "stay as long as you need" steve finally spoke, his voice threw her off a little bit. it was tired, and had more baritone than shed heard on tv. she didnt respond to him not sure of how to take it instead sitting in silence and letting her brain run through the steps of what she needs to do to get back on track. finally the elevator dings with its arrival to level 88.
She stepped out to follow the group onto the floor, most of her trust was placed in natasha as of currently but she still wasnt comfortable with any of them. she looked up from her shoes finally paying attention to the fact that they where leading her to a boardroom of some sorts everyone who was on the mission was in there except the black panther. She shyly followed behind them natasha sat down in a chair and gestured to the one beside her for you to sit. She nervously took the hint and sat next to her, clint rested her diaperbag against the wall behind her. Once everyone sat down it was a few moments before tony started going over the debriefing as normal, deciding that she probably shouldnt be listening to this she opted for zoning out. She doesnt know how long its been or what they where talking about but she felt a hand softly rest on her shoulder causing her to flinch harshly. Her head whipped around to look at who was touching her and her breath caught, her ex-husband, she blinked rapidly before the image of him dissapeared and was replaced by natashas face.
"Are you okay?" she nods quickly, not pausing to take in or think about the question. Her head turned to look at everyone else at the table but they where all already looking at her making her feel small. "Can you tell us your name" natasha said making her feel a bit less nervous. She tells them her name before looking down at her daughters. "this is daphne" she emphasized by resting a hand on her back. "And this is constance" she rested her cheek againt her head. She spoke softly about her daughters as if thatll keep them safe and protected. She heard tony hum from the end of the table before speaking "so whatd you do to make nat decide to have you live with us?" She gulped before turning around in her chair and pulling the gun from her diaperbag and setting it on the table infront of her. An eerie silence fell over the room.
“I killed one of those alien things." she said it with no emotion the fact she killed something not having hit her system yet. She grabbed the gun and unloaded it showing them that at the very least she trusts them enough to not kill them. "Impressive earth woman" thor spoke up. She looked up at him but didnt make a move to thank him. The room fell into a silence again. "Can you tell us what your life is like and what happened?" tony had asked. He didnt specify why but she knew he was asking to make sure she wasnt a threat. "uh.. yeah, i dont have a job, im a widow, i have my two daughters, constance is 4, and daphne is 4 months, im 30. thats basically it" she ends with a sad chuckle. "Why do you cary a gun?" steve asked. "Its new york, im not walking my daughters around new york without some form of protection". "No car?" tony asked. She shook her head no in response. "So you have a fully owned and paid off house, but not a car? and not only do you own a gun but you know how to operate it, and operate it good enough to catch the blackwidow by surprise?" She didnt tell him that, so natasha must have, ah, thats what this is, theyre fact checking. they wont trust her till she tells the whole truth.
"Well, Mr stark. since you seem to know everything, look up police reccords under my name" her tone changed no longer understanding of their take on the situation everyone caught onto it but no one said anything. Tony pulled up police reports under her name and his face slowly dropped as he read on. He cleared his throat before looking up at her. "Sorry" he muttered out. she stood up from her chair grabbing her diaperbag and throwing it over her unoccupied shoulder balancing constance on her hip. "Your apologies mean nothing to me Mr Stark, it shouldnt take me having to tell you my history for you to recognize a woman running. what floor is my room on?" "Uh seven but-" she cuts natasha off "thanks." She walks out of the boardroom heading to the elevator and basically punching the button for floor number 7 sitting silently in the elevator as it speeds down.
She stepped off the elevator when it hit floor number 7 it was silent and clean, almost sterile, okay they gave her a whole floor to herself she can live with that. She walked around memorizing the layout. Directly infront of the elevator was the livingroom and the open kitchen, both humongus, on either side there was a hallway one with soft lighting and the other pitch black, she opted for the one with lighting. She opened the bedroom door that was closest to the elevator it was clean. She sat her diaperbag down on the couch directly to the left of the door. She walked in and laid constance down on the bed, taking off her shoes before tucking her in, she laid daphne down next to her making a pillow wall on the otherside of her and below her feet so she wouldnt roll off the bed. She doesnt move much when shes sleeping but better to be safe than sorry. She walked around the bedroom, across from the bed was a dresser with a tv on top of it, in the corner where the wall with the tv and the wall with the couch met there was a door, she opened it revealing a beautiful bathroom. Green tiling on the walls, a huge bathtub and outside of it a seperate shower with glass walls. This has to be the most expensive bathroom ever, She left the bathroom leaving the light on and cracking the door a bit leaving it as a nightlight for constance. She walked to the other side of the room opening another door to a closet the size of a bedroom. "if thats a closet what the fuck is that.." She muttered quietly to herself walking down to a pair of double doors that was on the same wall as the closet, She opened the door and it was just another closet but smaller. She shook her head with the rediculous prospect before closing the doors and sitting down on the couch, going online and ordering a bassinet, diapers, and clothes for her daughters. She sits on the couch for a while hoping for sleep to take her. She finally sighs standing up and leaving the room leaving a crack in her bedroom door to listen for her daughters. As she stepped out of her room she saw steve step out of the elevator with natasha, she makes eye contact with the both of them. She inhaled deeply letting the tension release from her shoulders before walking down the hallway and turning into the kitchen. Natasha turns to look at steve, both of them nod in understanding her turning to walk towards you and steve walking down the dark hallway. She starts pulling stuff out of the fridge which is surprisingly full, why would they stock an empty floor? Tony must have had someone do it when he got to the tower. She choose to ignore natashas presence as she sits at the kitchen island. She pulls out hamburger meat lettuce tomato bacon and eggs. She starts looking in the cabinets for burger buns finally finding them. "Hey, uh just so you know, someone else is going to be sharing the floor with you". Her movements pause before continuing cooking. "who?"
"Well its-" natasha starts to say before she gets cut off. She turns to look at her noticing her sudden silence. Her eyes flick from natasha towards steve whos walking down the hallway she looks back at natasha. "natasha just tell me who it is makes no sense to keep it from me" before natasha could even respond she saw him, following shortly behind steve, the winter soldier, james bucchanan barnes. "oh" She said stupidly as steve comes to stand next to natasha at the kitchen island and the man with the shining silver arm stands about 20 feet away hesitantly. She turns to look back at steve and natasha "get tony up here tell him im making burgers for dinner". She continued cooking silently over the coarse of an 30 minutes waiting patiently for tony to arrive. She finally finished about 10 minutes after tong sat on the couch. She turned the stove off and turned around leaning against the kitchen island noticing everyone sitting nervously which was funny since theyre the fucking avengers. "Okay foods ready two burgers for everyone we got lettuce tomato and every damn condiment you could possibly want, theres also sweet tea and coke on the fridge if you want water youre boring but the sinks there." She turns and walks out heading to her room as she heard people start to get up and make food. She rubbed constances back gently waking her up "constance i made dinner, its your favorite". constance groaned before sitting up she picked her up and tucked her against her chest gently walking down the hallway. "theres some cool people in our living room sweetheart if you want you can ask them questions". constance muttered sleepily "cool people?" "yeah hun the avengers" constance was instantly awake and giddy. "the avengers?!" a soft chuckle left her lips as she walked into the kitchen making her a plate as shes perched on her hip.
"Yeah the avengers" "even iron man?!" "especially ironman hes letting us stay in his tower for a little bit". A loud gasp left constances lips as she walked to the living room she used her foot to push an empty chair closer to the table for her to sit. She set her daughter down in the chair and put the plate infront of her but she just started at the superheros infront of her mouth agape. She turned to walk to the kitchen to make herr plate before she grabbed the edge of her shirt, she stopped and turned to look at her daughter almost laughing at the very serious look on her face. "mommy are you friends with the avengers?" She whispered ultra serious to you. A soft chuckle left her lips and a few others. "uh.. yeah?" she didnt seem to pick up on the uncertainty in her tone. She just smiled big and bright looking like she was glowing at the information. she let go of her shirt before rattling off questions to the avengers. She gave them all a look of "be nice or ill hurt you." before walking into the kitchen and making herself a plate and two cups of tea one for herself one for her.
She set her cup infront of her sitting on her knees next to her placing her plate next to her. most everyone had already eaten or where on their second burger, she let her daughter finish with their questions before asking her own. She looked around hoping to catch site of the metal armed man once again, she found him almost hidden completely in a corner next to steves chair, his ability to blend in so easily makes her a little wary. Constance finally finished her questions taking a big sip of tea to quenche her apparent thirst. "okay my turn," everyone subconsciously tensed "are you safe?" she asked the question directly to the winter soldier but steve jumped in to respond. "i assure you he wouldnt do anything to hurt you or your kids." She sat silent for a moment before a soft sigh left her lips. "thats nice and all but i asked him" She paused locking eyes with him the cold storm blue sending a shiver up her spine. "are you safe?" she asked again waiting patiently for him to respond. He keeps eye contact with her and she refused to break it he gives her a single curt nod to which she let out a sigh of relief. Still not completely relaxed but much calmer. Her daughter who seemed to have noticed her anxiety rested a hand on her shoulder causing her to turn her head and look at her.
"Mommy i finished can i go read a book" she paused for a moment, she completely forgot to pack her books. "im sorry sweetheart i forgot to pack your books, um if youd like you can watch bluey on the tv quietly? daphnes still sleeping". She nodded excitedly before hopping up taking her dishes to the sink having to stand up on her tiptoes to put them in and ran off to the bedroom. She sighed softly in relief before sitting in the chair her daughter was just in, crossing one leg over the other. "Okay seeing as not all of you got the debrief and i have a flatmate that has no clue who i am im going to redo my debrief". She sighed softly rolling her neck a soft crack releasing pent up tension that was in her shoulders. "that was my daughter constance, shes 4, i have another daughter daphne, shes 4 months, im 30 and a widow, i shot an alien to end up in here and almost shot natasha. uh what else." she pauses for a moment to think. "i dont have superpowers, im not immortal, im not special in any way, my daughters on the otherhand, they may have powers in the future". this was new information for everyone including tony who had taken a deep dive into her history after she left the boardroom. "my ex he was a mutant, he had the ability to heal, my daughters might grow to develop that or something similar im unsure". everyone sat in silence taking in her words "that being said, i hoped you enjoyed dinner. ill probably be making dinner from now on so if you have a request just write on a sticky note and put it on the fridge, or ask me or something i dont know" she shrugged before standing and putting her dishes in the sink. she rinsed off the dishes silently not paying attention to the soft muttering in the livingroom, she started loading the dishwasher thanking whatever being there is for dishwashers. she knew someone was standing behind her watching her but she didnt have the energy to deal with that right now, so she continued filling up the dishwasher and once it was full she moved to putting up the food. after about 10 minutes of the imposing presence standing behind her and her choosing to ignore it, she finally finished putting up the food giving her nothing to focus on. she sighed softly before turning around and locking eyes with the metal armed man. she knew who he was, what hes done, what he used to be, but she couldnt bring herself to blame him for that. she knew he was no longer the winter soldier, she knew he wasnt james anymore either, she didnt know what to call him. "what do you want?" she finally asked pulling herself out of her own mind. she watched him stand uncomfortably, switching which foot he was leaning on before he spoke up. "are you sure you want to share a floor with me? i can room with steve if you want?". his voice threw her off it was deep and rough and unused from the sound of it.
“you said you’re safe right?" he nodded in response. "then i dont mind" he sighed out a soft puff of air his shoulders relaxing just a fraction. "what do you want me to call you?" he looked confused by the question like he was just as unsure as she was. "bucky, buckys fine." she nodded "its nice to meet you bucky". he grunted in response both of them standing there in silence for a few moments before he muttered something that sounded like "thank you for dinner". she smiled softly "youre welcome i was worried you didnt eat any, im glad you enjoyed it". he stood there for another moment looking like he physicallg had to restrict himself from running away, he suddenly turned and walked down the hall back to his room. a soft chuckle left her lips, what the hell was her life. she sat and chatted with the rest of the avengers, waiting as they slowly left the floor, she felt a lot better now. tony had pulled her to the side and told her hed pay for anything she needed for her daughters which she was definitely going to take him up on. the last people to leave where natasha and steve, "are you sure youre okay?" natasha asked a hand on her forearm, her form of comfort she assumed. "yeah im good". "if you need anything just call, im sure he will help to if you ask" steve had said those words like they where the easiest things to say, but asking for help was so foreign to her, she didnt have help with either of her daughters, no family, no partner present. she nodded in response instead of speaking scared of the words that would leave her lips. they both turned around and went into the elevator. She sighed as the doors closed, it felt like a weight was taken off her shoulders. time for bed. she walked to her room, both her girls where passed out. she took off her jeans and bra before laying down in bed next to her girls, not bothering to turn off bluey, she pulled them close to her chest and dozed off the grief of the day finally settling into her bones.
