Swing! And a Miss.

Diet and exercise blog of a hopeless case.

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GOAL PRIZES LET'S GO!!!!

120: Karaoke Party!

119: Fancy fresh fruit

118: Ikebukuro Shinjuku

117: Cute top

116: Fancy stationery store visit

115: Guilt-free video game night

114: New danmei book!!!

113: Nakano Shopping Time!

112: Piña colada night

111: Cute socks

110: FUCK YEAH SHIN-OKUBO WEEKEND TRIP LET'S GO!!!!!!

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105: Cosplay event, with new costume!

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100: Fancy New Camera!

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90: FUCKING. FUCKING BIG BALLER BASH TRIP TO OKINAWA

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CW: 127

I woke up with sore muscles. The front of my thighs ached. I think it's because of the elliptical machine two days ago.

My legs crapped out in the afternoon. I had very little strength.

And yet! I was looking forward to going to the gym today because work was so dull. And I killed it on the treadmill. I did really well. My legs didn't hurt at all.

I did about 20 minutes. Most of those minutes were spent walking (dancing) to the Bad Bunny Super Bowl.

I also did 10 on the bicycle, some chest presses and leg presses.

I also joined a yoga class in the gym's hot studio. I didn't hate it, but did start feeling ill from the heat and the stomach full of water. It happens. I made it through.

I did really well in the gym today.

... I'm going to be dead on my feet tomorrow...

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CW: 127

Looking at the thumbnails of Japanese diet youtubers gave me a headache. They remind me of shitty tabloid magazines, loud and flashy and full of lies.

Anyway... I've been going to the gym again. I'm going tomorrow. The going is slow, but it's going.

I want to reach 125 by Sunday. Seems kinda impossible, though.

... maybe those loud, flashy-looking videos have something of value for me.

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CW: 127

I'm suddenly feeling really down.

I was looking at some clothes, and they looked so hideous on the models. The brands here don't know how to make clothes for bigger bodies. It's not scaling things up a few inches, goddammit.

What's even the point when nothing looks good on me.

Gonna drink some water and lie down...

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CW: 124

I don't want to do anything today.

Technically, I didn't do anything yesterday, either.

I worked a bit today. I ordered some pants for work. Don't ask me what size. I'll cry.

I have to do the laundry, but I really have to push myself to do it. I don't want to leave the house a fifth time.

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CW: 124

Had my yearly work-related checkup this morning.

And then I slept the rest of the day away.

No, I don't know why.

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CW: 124

Cutting carbs, I think, is both pretty easy and pretty hard. So long as I don't buy it, I'm fine, but carbs are everywhere.

I haven't gone completely cold turkey, so I haven't been craving them, at least. Not yet, anyway.

The weather's super nice today. All I want to do is go look at the cherry blossoms and take pictures of my plushies.

I might ditch work early to do that... (I won't.)

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CW: 124

Switching up the diet a bit. Mostly by cutting out a lot of carbs, I guess. We'll see how long it lasts, though

It's easy because I'm working from home at the moment. It'll be a lot more difficult when I start working at the job site on the 13th.

I am surprised how... filling? a chicken breast with salad is. EVEN THOUGH it's only, like 150 calories.

Is it okay to wish I was a size smaller already?

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CW: 122

Today, I went to Tokyo for a meeting. There was a lot of... I want to say 'walking' but I was 'hobbling' more often than not.

My legs are going to be pretty sore tomorrow.

I wish I could sleep in tomorrow.

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CW: 122

Yesterday and today were bad for different reasons.

Yesterday, work completely wore me out, and I nearly overate like crazy.

Today, I mostly stayed in bed with a head cold. I might have eaten too much?

Tomorrow, I'm going to Tokyo! For a meeting. I'm going to be up all night, getting ready for it. Kinda bad when I have a 9am train to catch.

There's a curry restaurant near the meeting place, and I want to eat lunch there, but I have to stop somewhere along the way for something. I might not have time for a restaurant lunch when I get to the area.

We'll see.

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CW: 122

Ahhhhh.... fuck fuck fuck. I made a mistake at dinner by eating some instant noodles that was 750 calories. 750 calories!!!! I need to look at the cal count before buying anything!

Meant to go to the gym. I did not.

And now, I'm too comfy to leave.

I just took off my socks...

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CW: 122

No food pictures today. I had work, which means I had no time to snap pictures... or think, really, at least until 3 in the afternoon.

In a few minutes, I'm going to do some life admin stuff, and then spend the night writing, hopefully.

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Ooops, no picture of dinner, either. It was a curry in a pouch and some rice, and some takoyaki as an appetizer? Anyway.

Just over 2000 calories... Ah. I forgot the cookies. Let's say 2500 and call it a night.

I don't want to leave the house, so I'm not going to the gym. I'll go tomorrow, third thing.

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Today’s lunch: a spicy instant yakisoba with some ham and mayo.

Is it really spicy? or just Japanese-spicy.

… kinda soapy spicy. 🥵

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Dying of boredom, waiting for an email from work...

Oh, it's here! Time to earn my money...

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Ah, I forgot to take a picture of today's breakfast.

I think I'm working from home today, which is fine. I'm just waiting from an email from work to let me know what sort of busy work they want from me.

Other things I have to do today:

go to the gym

do the laundry

spend at least 30 minutes cleaning

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I have to go grocery shopping, but i don't want to spend money, but i'm dressed and ready to go, but i can't seem to actually snap out of my funk and go.

i'm probably hungry, but I don't feel it.