Shifting Vent//Rant - I encourage those uninterested to scroll
TW: Brief mention of suicide
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Shifting is genuinely the only thing keeping me going and also the root of my terrible mindsets. It seems so wonderful in theory. A world I created where I have everything I want. And I'm not even allowed to experience it myself? A version of me that I adore and love and want to be in this reality gets to experience it instead of me? The creator of such a world? I don't even want to die anymore because that never works either. I just want to disappear. I've tried getting professional help as it has been recommended by shifters I have talked to in the past, as well as quite a few of my real-life peers, but I can't even get that. Both my real life and my life in the shifting community are hell. I don't look for shifting advice or methods or even posts about people's own successful shifts. I have done everything I have the energy to try in order to get out of here, including just going to bed with nothing but my intention. No breathing exercise, no method, no guided meditation. And still, I'm here. When I first started trying to shift, really trying to, I got visions, dreams, signs, and I could consider those small wins because that was I telltale sign I was getting somewhere with my shifting journey. And now I get nothing. I get nothing that vaguely resembles my DR anymore. I feel further to success than ever. I don't want to be patient. I've been patient. I want to leave. I want to experience something other than burnout. This isn't even wanting to live in my favorite TV show anymore. This is me wanting nothing more than to get out of here.














