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Tumblr just marked your page as mature. I'd recommend posting links to your other socials in case they decide to nuke you.
eh i’m not surprised. it was only a matter of time before they put me in their crosshairs
in case i get nuked i guess
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apparently this was a bug with mobile on android but leaving this pinned cause a lot of yall found me on bluesky through this
me, stunted 12 year-old whose only representation of trans women had been ace ventura and jokes about shemale prostitutes, "well, i guess when i'm like, 40, and everyone i have any obligation to is dead, i can get a bunch of sex change surgeries and fuck gross men for money. but at least i'll kinda look like a girl."
real transfem representation really could've saved me a solid 15-20 years.
this feels particularly relevant with the global push to chase minors off social media. none of it is about protecting kids, it's about control. it's about cutting off vulnerable, marginalized, young people whose only opportunity to learn more about their own gender and sexuality--and find other people who are like them--is through social media platforms.
queer, particularly trans representation hasn't come all that far in 20 years. maybe there's less blatant transphobia, but there sure as hell isn't any widespread positive representation. we have multiple generations of trans women and men who were only able to explore their identities during adolescence in online spaces. and kids today are being stripped of that.
be wary of any legislation or changes in corporate policy that cites "protecting kids". it's never about protecting anyone, it's about control. there are a lot of parents that'd prefer to keep their kid in the closet 'til it kills them than watch them actually explore their identity.
RE: the post where you used firefox to verify how badly youtube slows down on non-chrome browsers, do you know how well it works on brave browser perchance?
no because i use firefox
I've slowly been chipping away at drawing scenes from that imaginary Muppet retelling of the Princess Bride, figured it was about time to share what I've drawn on Tumblr!
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Hi Josie! I am hoping for advice if you would be willing to give it! My best friend in the whole world recently had an epiphany in her mid 30s and is exploring a trans identity. She’s trying out she/they pronouns with close friends.
I was mostly shocked that she was considering this because I thought she was just never going to confront those feelings. She would say things like “I would have loved to be born a girl” but did not want to unpack that, so I was like well…guess we’re not going there.
Now all of a sudden in like 2 weeks we are going there FAST. It’s pretty adorable to see how excited she gets. She’s been sad a lot. But she also shifts from excited to nervous and even upset if we talk about things too much. I think she doesn’t want anything nailed down. She goes full speed ahead but then insists she isn’t necessarily transitioning and wants to keep her old name and pronouns (but doesn’t want us to use them because she wants to try new ones).
So my question is, do you have any advice on the support you would have liked early in your transition? And if you or anyone you know experienced wanting to transition but not wanting anyone else to say that because you want to be the only one kind of…saying those words? I hope that makes sense. I really appreciate you reading this far haha
one time when i was in my mid 20s, i was playing a board game with some friends. it was one of those board games that has you split into two teams and play against each other and because there were three girls and three boys (i was one of those “boys” at the time) the girls insisted on playing boys vs girls.
the game was super close through the first half of the game and because both teams were lightly taunting each other, one of the girls suggested that we make it interesting and make a bet on who was going to win.
at that time we were all going to the same church and because the church frowns on gambling, instead of betting for money, we decided that the winner would get to pick a punishment for the loser. nothing too terrible, just something silly and lightly humiliating. i don’t even remember what punishment my team wagered but the girls decided it would be absolutely hilarious to put makeup on the guys team if they won.
now this was was probably 4 or 5 years before i would eventually transition and at that time i was deeply in the closet and when i heard the wager my heart dropped. my teammates thought it was a hilarious idea and immediately agreed and i had no choice but to smile and nod while feeling nothing but a cold fear.
what if they saw how uncomfortable i was? (i was) would they think that i wasn’t secure in my masculinity? (i wasn’t) what if they saw how i reacted and thought i was gay? (i am) none of those thoughts were rational but my mind was racing, driven by pure panic.
and before i knew it, the game was over. my team had lost. the girls were excitedly going over their makeup talking about how they were going to do our makeup while my heart was pounding and my ears ringing and my awareness of the world quickly fading.
and before i fully could comprehend my own actions, i stood up and yelled “i’m not fucking doing that”, and stormed out of the apartment slamming the door behind me.
i walked out to my car in a daze, got in, and sat there in silence for a few minutes before i heard a knock on the window. one of the girls had come out to check on me because they were shocked and worried about me. she got into the passenger seat and asked me what was wrong and i just sat there in silence. i didn’t know what to say. from her point of view, i had made a bet, lost, and then stormed out in anger. she couldn’t possibly understand what had upset me so much and i couldn’t possibly bring myself to tell her. instead i let a deep sigh and said, “i just really really don’t want to do that”.
she sat there quietly, processing, thinking, judging, until finally she responded, “okay. you don’t have to do it. but you should apologize to everyone”.
i nodded reluctantly and we both went back to the apartment.
my point is this, trans feminine people are prescribed masculinity from the day we are born. we are told to grow big and strong, are told to play sports, are told to suck it up cause boys don’t cry, are told we are faggots for expressing interest in anything feminine, are beaten and ridiculed for daring to step foot outside of the little blue box that we are placed in. for many of us, it is a prison of the utmost solitude and for those of us that survive, giving ourselves permission to begin to explore beyond the confines of our masculinity is a not just a small step, but a monumental leap. and yes, taking that leap is exhilarating and liberating in a way that can hardly be described but it is also terrifying because every step forward is confirmation of our deepest hope and for many of us, our deepest fear: that yes, we are in fact trans and that we will never find happiness unless we choose to face a world that wants so desperately to destroy us.
so be patient with your friend. she is likely going through a hurricane of emotions every time you see her and that’s not likely to change any time soon. just show up for her the way that you always have and listen to what she says. continue to remind her that you care about her in the same way that you always have. you don’t need to support her by pushing her forward. just being by her side as she finds her own way will likely mean the world to her.
hope this helps!
just randomly happened across your transition timeline (estrogen is magic btw love that for us) but i was messaging to say, i recognized your name and...if i'm not completely mistaken, are you the editor for nikhil clayton?
cuz i know i've seen "saintjosie" in his discord and editor notes from "josie" pop up in his reax series.
if so you do great work and i'm a big fan of your work (and your boss ig :p)
if not im sorry to bug you but hi all the same!
ayyy thank you! yes that is me!
i know that nikhil credits me for the edits but i find it incredibly flattering that people appreciate my work enough to seek me out and let me know that im doing a good job 💜
Local Trans Woman Laid Off AGAIN! Help?
Well another job has come and gone, the indie company I worked for shuttered their entire social and marketing department (which included me) yesterday and I'm back to job hunting.
They laid me off with no severance and only "paying out my last two weeks" as part of my final pay. So things are once again going to get tight financially around here and I hadn't even been able to financially recover from the previous layoff I suffered.
If you have leads to work (Social Media Manager, Community Manager, Marketing Manager, Voice Acting, or literally anything) please send it along my way!
But if you have the ability to donate or contribute to help keep us afloat while I'm once again on the job hunt, you can use any of these below:
P@yPal: Paypal.me/kdinj
Ca$hApp: $KdinJ
Kofi: ko-fi.com/kdinjenzen
A project I was contracted for ran out of funding last month so money is tighter again, the good news is I do have a job interview today, so hopefully things go well!
But while I figure out next steps and with Rent/Bills coming up on being due, we could use a little help!:
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The Archie Sonic the Hedgehog comics started out as a pretty standard “funny talking animal comic”. In issue 20 they became a comic that wanted to start telling more set stories.
The funny thing is that the transition happens in the middle of an issue, and there is a visible jump in quality between pages.
Just look at this. These are sequential pages in the same comics (Archie Sonic issue 20)
The tone difference between the two stories in this issue will give you whiplash.
In the first story, Sonic accidentally becomes invisible and tricks Robotnik into thinking he’s a ghost.
The second story is about Sally planting bombs at Robotniks base when she encounters another solider form a different resistance cell, and she has to make a judgement call about whether or not he’s a spy
This is cinema actually
THE ALI FORESHADOWING LIKE SHE’S A WIZARD THEY’RE PREPARING TO FACE AND THEYRE WARNING US ABOUT HER LIKE BARDS.
ALI IMMEDIATELY LIVING UP TO THE BALLDS SUNG ABOUT HER.
THE FACT THAT ALL OF THEIR MAGIC COMBINED DIDN’T COUNTER HER SPELL
Are you americans okay???
Everclear is what we have instead of universal healthcare.
oh yeah so ive been kinda busy the last few days and forgot to post about the latest shit ive been up to on here
More than 200 of the world's elites registered for a retreat whose agenda runs from panels on cult-building and sex to prepping for World Wa
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A data leak has exposed private data on billionaire Peter Thiel’s “Dialog,” an invitation-only network of high-profile figures.
bwah :3
SCOOP: So remember Dialog, Peter Thiel's private society that doesn't have a public website and no public list of members? I (along with a
Ranks of his group, Dialog, appear to include several prominent figures in media and entertainment who're put in the same room as C-suite ex
i just played a round of valorant where both the other team and my team said “happy pride!” in response to my trans flag banner.
which would have been really cute and wholesome except the guy on my team who said happy pride immediately followed that up with, “so which do you have a cock and balls or a coin hole?”
to which i casually responded “both”, expecting some sort of transphobic follow up from him.
yet to my pleasant surprise he responded with “well alright that sounds like a good time!”
and honestly i can’t really hold that against him
using sharpie to mark the day of the week is a terrible idea because sharpie is toxic
wtf? when did i say this? what does it mean?
Whoooooa you’re in durham? I live pretty close, i’m in chapel hill!! Idk much about SC’s politics regarding transness, but I do know the policies here in NC suck ass. Do you think it’s better/easier (from a legal standpoint anyway) to be trans here?
it absolutely is!
north carolina is a blue state with red on the fringes that’s been gerrymandered to hell whereas south carolina is much closer to 50/50 than republicans would like to admit but still red anywhere other than the designated blue zones. the legal name change and birth certificate gender change processes are much simpler here in nc. sc is pursuing gender affirming care bans and restrictions of reproductive rights much more aggressively. there are bills in nc proposing similar measures but they are much much less likely to pass than in sc.
but more than the politics making things easier here, it’s the people that makes living here so much better than sc. durham and the triangle area is general is 1000x more diverse than columbia sc. there is a large black population in columbia but seeing another asian person was like seeing another wild unicorn. we would lock eyes for a split second and both be a little surprised. most of the asian restaurants in columbia are absolutely garbage and the few that were good weren’t good but barely satiated a craving (with the exception of arirang which is absolutely banger mom and pop korean restaurant). here, i feel downright spoiled with good options. i can name a banger thai, szechuan, chinese, japanese, korean, vietnamese, indian, nepalese, mexican, peruvian, ethiopian, caribbean, cajun, mediterranean, halal, and many more types of restaurant off the top of my head, all within 30m driving distance.
also queerness and transness is much more accepted and normalized here. i don’t feel like everyone is staring at me as i’m walking around as an openly trans person. i can hold hands with my girlfriend while walking down the street and see another wlw couple on the other side of the road doing the same. if i want to go out, i can go to a queer club run by a afro-latinx drag queen, a lesbian bar, a classic gay club with nightly drag shows, and more.
is it perfect? no absolutely not. are there still racist and homophobic asshats? yes absolutely. but there’s a reason i moved back here after leaving for four years and i plan on being here for awhile because i love it!
Girlypop, how do you deal with this SC political bs. These people on my screens drive me mad and make my ears bleed. They do not deserve my attention, or time- yet I get BIG MAD everytime any political ad pops up. Anyway, I will take whatever advice you've got- have a Happy Pride Month with your cutiepiepuppygirl!
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by leaving the state. /hj jess and i actually moved to durham nc about a year ago! we left sc for a number of reasons, the political landscape of sc being among them, and so im not keeping up with the politics in sc as much anymore. but that doesnt change the fact that trans people across the US and especially in the south are facing similar emotions. and even though i am no longer in sc, i believe that the way we get through this is the same way that queer people survived for generations. show up for your community and lean on them for support when you need it. protest if you are able. find joy wherever you can and cling to it. they want nothing more than for us to feel hopeless, to feel like there is absolutely nothing we can do to fight back. but never forget that your very existence is resistance, never forget that you are never alone, and never forget that queer joy is why we fight in the first place.
i know when people say things like this it can be easy to dismiss it as an empty platitude but we say these things because these are the things that facism and capitalism are desperately trying to destroy. we say lean on your community because organized action is what keeps oppressed communities alive. we say protest because that is what won us our rights in the first place. we say that queer joy is what we fight for because we are fighting for our right to exist and to live authentic and happy lives as we choose to. these are not just things we say, these are the weapons that people of color and queer people have used to fight back for generations because we are far from the first to take up this fight. and i don't know about you but id rather die than give up on trying to live life on my own terms.
Girlypop, how do you deal with this SC political bs. These people on my screens drive me mad and make my ears bleed. They do not deserve my attention, or time- yet I get BIG MAD everytime any political ad pops up. Anyway, I will take whatever advice you've got- have a Happy Pride Month with your cutiepiepuppygirl!
✨️💖❤️🧡💛💚💙💜💖✨️
by leaving the state. /hj jess and i actually moved to durham nc about a year ago! we left sc for a number of reasons, the political landscape of sc being among them, and so im not keeping up with the politics in sc as much anymore. but that doesnt change the fact that trans people across the US and especially in the south are facing similar emotions. and even though i am no longer in sc, i believe that the way we get through this is the same way that queer people survived for generations. show up for your community and lean on them for support when you need it. protest if you are able. find joy wherever you can and cling to it. they want nothing more than for us to feel hopeless, to feel like there is absolutely nothing we can do to fight back. but never forget that your very existence is resistance, never forget that you are never alone, and never forget that queer joy is why we fight in the first place.
I thought I needed a new laptop but nope, youtube is slowing down your PC if you have adblock on on any open tab...
To be very clear about this: CPUs aren't magical devices that can operate forever. They generate heat. They wear out over time. This happens faster when they're operating near capacity. This is not just an attempt to inconvenience you; this is an attempt to damage your property.
For the "crime" of not wanting to be tracked/have ads pissed into your eyeballs 24/7.
Even if you've paid for the "privilege" of the latter.
Fuck Google, and I hope they get sued into oblivion over this.
i see everyone in the notes talking about newpipe but nobody's talking about youtube alternatives for desktop
IF YOU USE A DESKTOP PC OR LAPTOP, TRY INVIDIOUS
https://invidious.io/
it is a free, open-source alternative YouTube front-end. in addition to not having ads, it has other great QoL features like a download button. try one of the several instances on that link up there ^^^^
so i was super pissed and concerned about this but i have just discovered that while this is true, it is apparently only true for google chrome users. i just tested this by having ten tabs open in firefox playing ten different youtube videos at the same time and my cpu usage spiked to 25% as the videos were loading and then dropped back down to 10% as they played.
if you ever needed another reason to switch to a different browser, this is it.
