beerwhore

poetry shit art grocery list anatomy sound catharsis 21mg twice daily i love u fucker

[sairoele]

rn reading old journal logs from when I was 15. oh she doesn't know it gets so much worse and it gets so so much better. there is no particular order really. it just gets worse and it gets better and worse and better and better. its an odd feeling. i wonder how i would feel when im much older and looking at the things ive written at 21.

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stuff2calmdown

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image description: another guy (also cool)

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can i have ice cream lord please i hope chocolate ice cream appears in front of me rn like right rn now.

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12:41 AM

image description: cool guy is back

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throwback to that one weekend where i was helping out for a sound engineering team at event where we started preparations at 3am, had a collective amount of three hours sleep for two days and an unethical amount of caffeine, so i had no more room for a sustainable amount of coherent Thoughts much less thoughts on what to Eat for Dinner when i got back. i thought the color coordination was funny, i didn't realize it at first. fell asleep mid meal on the table. cheese is great though. they should invent more cheese

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do u ever just see yummy metal at hardware stores and think mmm if i were someone who had to eat metal this would be yummy

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we are once again still awake at 3am unfortunately

image description: cool guy

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I would like to love you

often, and again and again

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Stuff written half asleep yea

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pretty pretty spray can marbles :)

i love the way they interact with light so differently (obviously) from everything else, it looks like theyre trying to avoid it

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Loving you is a nicotine hit

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stuff

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I think sometimes the worst thing you can be is an eight year old girl in front of her father

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You mean something to me and I've learned that it is the most horrifying thing

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Love me the way you do with your cigarettes

occasionally, sparingly, as

the amount

the excess will kill you eventually

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i saw mullberries on the ground last week

a lot of them . the branch extended just a little past the wall outside someones lot, so they spilled onto the road. and i was looking at them and thinking hmm i wasn't sure what kind of berries they were until i was a little closer, but u know, i didnt go out of my path to look at them really. i was already late for class and was heading out towards the road where i take the first jeep to commute to campus. i recognized the shape and the texture of them on the ground. i remembered the taste. a very sour berry. good. i've tasted them twice, right outside the front door of a friend i had. we are not friends anymore, but that day i was 20 and had just run off from home. had tasted mullberries for the first time.