I hate myself. For some odd reason I love collecting pretty things. Flowers, perfume bottles, pretty makeup(I have that shitty highlighter that has a rose in it), sometimes candy. I never use any of it, apart from the flowers I put them in vases. I feel less masculine when I do so, and I crush the patriarchy less with each perfume purchase I make. I just love collecting pretty things and I feel shitty. I have a thirty dollar nail polish bottle. How do I stop? I feel like less of a radfem.
First off, its not about feeling masculine. Its existing without gender stereotypes. What I did to break away from makeup was find a new habit or something new to do, and for me that was writing. Its a nice replacement and lets me vent about toxic gender roles and expectations. Maybe try to find something to collect in its stead? Like shells or rocks or something?