the future is scary.
i will have to let my parents down.
i will have to walk out of their lives to live my own....
but the fact that they are the best parents in the world and they love me will not change this fact.
it gives me immense pain and anxiety to think of that dreadful day.
22 years of life i havent done anything against their will. i am the good daughter . but everytime i laugh with them... everytime i joke and have a great time with them... my heart breaks a little. because i know they would never accept me.....they would never understand me.all they want for me is a secure future and a family.
for them a secure future is a white colored permanent job and family means a husband and kids....
for me life hold more meaning than that...
for me life is about explorations mistakes love and a lot more....
let me live my life for once.let me fall in love..
in a country where loving someone of different religion or even different caste.. so if i go and say i love another girl.. the hell will break loose for sure.... i have never gone against them.. this would be the firrst time if it ever happens........
these thoughts fucking kill me....