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HELLOOOO!!! I am Colide :3 welcome to my blog

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Log Date 3-16-26

As much as I kind of like being optimistic during my end-of-day reflections, I cant help but to think that today was a very average day. Being a consequence of not synthesizing a good argument, I was embarrassed during a group exercise in persuasiveness during class tonight. I guess my weakness in writing has to do with persuasion of the other. But --in argument to this observation--I feel that my urge to write is not born from wanting to utilize it as a tool to complete an objective, rather It's born from a creative expression not yet felt through other mediums. Though the syntax may be rough at times, I see today as a solidification of why I write rather than a critique to it.

Maybe it was a good day after all :)

this is a yellow belly warbler (my favorite bird of all time)

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Purpose, Creation, and Adventure:

I was watching this youtube video today and found that it hit on something that I think about very often. The concept that we, as humans, crave escape from the real world is not one that escapes me, yet the understanding of why seems to do so. Why would a person crave a "fake world" over a real one? This video goes on to explain that, in one way or another, the idea of escape is one that stems from a life that is not interesting to the person who is experiencing it. Life will be worth more than this feeling of escapism when --slowly but surely-- purpose, creation and adventure is cultivated. Because these are very general pillars to follow, it serves as a great starting point, being able to apply to most (If not all) areas of life.

Pursue mindful creation.

Experience interesting and wonderful adventures.

Cultivate and nurture meaningful purpose.

Make life interesting again. Even if its in little ways at first, soon you'll observe your garden and realize "that is why it's worth it".

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Log Date 3-3-26

OK! Hiiii! This is the first entry of what I'm calling my online logbook. Basically I kinda want this to be a way that I can talk about my most recent thoughts, whats been going on in my life, and my interests. Some of it might be personal (not too personal lol) but I feel like this would be a great outlet for my busy schedule. First of all, a few interesting facts about me :3

I work full-time at a ACE hardware as a receiver (I work in da back)

I go to school part time

Currently majoring in Computer Information Systems

Interested in tech field and currently messing around with my own coding projects

There is a butt load more but I think I'll save it for some more logs lol. ANYWAYYYSSS, I've been a bit stressed out lately (maybe thats why I want to start logging these kind of things down??) Most of it is the usual "what is my future going to look like and how can I make it come to fruition". I'd say that I'm most definitely the type of person who spends more of my time in my head rather than in the real world. I think I just have to slow down and enjoy the progress ad the days go by. While being so locked in on a career change in tech, I lost sight of why I even like this field in the first place. I just really want to make cool things :) I have to study and go to work now BUUUUT I'll definitly add to this log soon. Because I kinda want this to have no restrictions, there will be no set schedule for these. Just kinda when I feel like it lmao.

OK! Have a great day!!!

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My personal viewpoint on the internet today

The way that we build, use, and innovate the internet is fundamentally broken. Important examples of this can be seen in the way that large companies design programs for people to use, the way that the users are interacting with the program itself, and the philosophies behind digital innovation. Because our society is capitalistic in nature, the system’s ability to innovate for profit supersedes the ethical philosophies behind user centered designs. Rewards for chasing financial gain—despite the effects on users or the environment—turn the internet into a business instead of a tool. Consequently, the “users” are now “customers” who are making a company money.  Even though people may still be enjoying their experience on the internet, the meaningful utility of it ceases to exist, making their quality of life worse. Since this consumer-based mindset has been adopted in the modern age, innovations on the internet are indifferent to the sustainability of their implementation if it means more profit. Put all together, the cycle continues to worsen in consequence of the current relationship between humans and the internet, lacking a basic ethical format. I firmly believe that the internet is being used in the wrong way by all parties involved. To fix this problem, we must switch to a user and resource conscious philosophy toward designs and innovations that prioritize sustainability, resilience, utility, and accessibility of the internet.

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"We have Paleolithic emotions, medieval institutions, and godlike technology." — E.O. Wilson

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"The programmer, like the poet, works only slightly removed from pure thought-stuff. He builds his castles in the air, from air, creating by exertion of the imagination." — Fred Brooks, The Mythical Man-Month