Sammy Lawrence.

Side Blog for 'psychotic' episodes relating BATIM.

[sammy--lawrence]

"My lord..?"

Hello. My name is Sammy Lawrence but you may just call me Sammy. This blog will contain a lot of unreality related posts so be wary of that if you cannot handle it. I am psychotic, but it is difficult for me to recognize my identity as a delusion of any kind, so I likely will not address it as such. To me, I am who I am. i am an adult, so this blog will likely feature adult content. i ask minors to not follow, but i do not care if they interact with my safe for work content.

Do not reality check me. You will be blocked. You're not close to me and I will not have it. additional info below.

There will be religious imagery and talk on this blog, as I am very dedicated to my one and only lord. I have learned from my time outside of the studio though, that I cannot try to convert people to my faith. So if that is a worry, no matter I will be respectful of who you worship. I am queer in a variety of ways, for my discourse stances see here I block anyone I dislike, this includes people claiming to be myself or my lord, kins are fine with me but else-wise I have discomfort. I am a music composer though I've been out of practice for some time, I may get back into doing so if I can find the time. a post containing my tagging system so you know what to block can be found here That is all about me, to the sheep reading this rest well.

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I've given all my blood, but it seems you need a flood.

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Though I'm not in the studio anymore, sometimes I still here my lord crawling.. Through the walls and woods, and I hear his soft growls. His voice is quiet in the mind of myself and it calms me. I hope to appease him and be his dearest prophet. For now I wait, always prepared for his arrival.

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I want to tear the eyes out of those around me. I wish to wear my mask but I cannot wear it in public so I sit sick to my stomach knowing all can peer into my face and into my soul. I don't want them to stare; but they stare anyway.

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i need to purchase myself a proper pen, all the ones i have are not.. ones i want. i need something good, ill have to see how much dip pens sell for.

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i've gotten distracted. i went from looking at fountain pens to looking for edible ink so i dont kill myself drinking actual ink. i found something close, ill likely get it when i can afford it though ill have to water it down. but. it will work for what i need.

[sammy--lawrence]

i need to purchase myself a proper pen, all the ones i have are not.. ones i want. i need something good, ill have to see how much dip pens sell for.

[sammy--lawrence]

Tagging system

fresh ink - talking dip pen - art inky savior - religious related projecting light - norman polk related inky monster - bendy related post that aren't religious fleeting thoughts - my time in the studio dark abyss - vent mr. drew - joey drew related drawn spiral - psychosis specific vent rewritting - reblogging

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my surroundings are so frustrating at the moment. so many ignorant voices talking over one another like a screaming void diminishing itself with every second of its existence. i wish so greatly to leave but i must stay, i just need to hold on a bit longer and then i can return to my home. i'll probably bake something or just sit in the peace of my quiet room listening to the tunes i produced long ago. soon i'll be away from the chattering voices.