Nikki Freeman With You, But... [Post-possession] (1)
A/N: I'm sorry for being inactive, but I was kind of in a state for the months I wasn't around. Anyways, I love Nikki Freeman and I collabed with JoeGabberish over AO3 on this. Joe doesn't have a Tumblr account, so please follow her on AO3 instead!
After the trial, Nikki barely speaks.
She remembers enough of what happened to know why people are afraid of her, though.
Why the staff watch her carefully, and why other patients talk in whispers about her.
Some of them even call her, the boy crazy girl. Which Nikki, in all of her life, never expected to ever be called, least of all, because she killed Bear and her friends.
The rest? They just avoid her altogether.
And Nikki lets them.
Because maybe they're right to be scared of her.
And maybe she should be scared of herself too.
You become her roommate almost by accident.
Another young woman, quiet and strange.
Another person tried for multiple murders and declared not guilty by reason of insanity.
According to court records, you claimed “the voices told me to.”
Nikki initially thinks: oh god, they put me with someone dangerous.
So, she remained polite and guarded towards you in fear of whatever you were capable of doing.
She even sleeps facing the wall with her back turned on, just because of it.
The irony?
You're one of the few people there who never asks her:
“Did you really do it?”
“What was it like?”
“Were you really possessed?”
“Do you remember killing them?”
You simply accept that whatever happened with her was terrible, and are memories she never wants to look back at ever.
There's no judgment or curiosity from you, just fact.
Nikki gets panic attacks. She dissociates. She gets nightmares. It all made her hypervigilant,
And sometimes, she has moments where she isn't entirely sure whether she's really herself.
Sometimes she'd wake up convinced she could still feel that thing inside her.
Convinced she'd lost time again.
Terrified she'd hurt someone again.
The first panic attack you witnessed wasn't anything dramatic or big by any means.
Nikki just froze one day, stopped responding to whatever you were asking, and started to breathe too fast.
Her hands started shaking, and her eyes became fixed on nothing.
You don't reach out to touch her, don't crowd, or demand eye contact with her.
Instead, you simply tell her:
“You're here.”
“You're in our room.”
“Nothing's wearing your skin.”
“You don't have to answer me, just breathe.”
As a matter of fact, like you're just commenting on the weather.
Nikki cries afterward.
Mostly because you didn't look disgusted or scared.
You never treat Nikki like a monster.
But you also never treat her like she's fragile.
If she snaps at you?
“Okay.”
If she doesn't talk to you for three days, whatever her reasons may be?
“You want pudding?”
If she starts spiralling?
“You're doing that thing again.”
“Come sit.”
Nikki begins seeking you out without even realizing it.
Sitting beside you during meals, waiting outside therapy sessions, reading in the same room, and falling asleep more easily when your bed is occupied.
Because you don't demand anything.
Nikki had someone force love onto her.
Force closeness.
Force affection.
Force access to her body, and to her identity.
But you do none of that.
Every kindness you offer comes with a choice.
“You can say no.”
“You don't have to tell me.”
“You don't have to stay.”
I neeeeed more Jane pleeeeaaaaase! I'm so obsessed with her, I need her to top me, I CANT be normal about her! Please Bun I'll be a good girl 😖
hehe lets all be good girls for her ^w^
Imagine preparing Jane’s strap for you, pressing a soft kiss to the head of the bright pink plastic. It matches her hair, the black harness standing out against her milky skin.
Your tongue peaks between your lips as you give kitten lips to the tip. She moans as if she can feel it, fingers carding through your hair before bunching it up in her hands and pulling.
She’s getting impatient, your mouth falling open in an attempt to please her. The dildo slaps against your tongue and you lean forward on your knees to take it in, wrapping your tongue around it and coating it in as much spit as possible.
You make sure to look up at her as you do, eyes wide and innocent as if you aren’t the very definition of sin. It makes her breath hitch and her arousal grow, her hips bucking forward in excitement and making you accidentally choke.
There’s a loud ‘pop’ that rings through the room as you part from it, coughing and breaking the string of spit that connected it to you.
It shines in the dim light, covered in your spit and ready to be taken. A part of you wonders if there was even a point, your pussy already wet and ready for her and her cock. <3
Jane is good at taking care of you, massaging away any soreness in your muscles almost routinely and making sure you aren’t hurt. She isn’t too fond of sweating, so she usually tries to run a bath or have a wash cloth nearby to wipe both of you down. There’s always a water bottle nearby in case you need it, prepped in advance by here.
B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)
She used to be rather self-conscious about her body, but now it’s the least of her concerns. Jane would say her favorite part of herself are her hips, plump and covered in small stretch marks. She likes how much power she has in them, especially when she can use them to grind against you.
In all honesty she loves all of you, but she will admit that her eyes are naturally drawn to your waist. The curve of your waist to your hips is so adorable to her, and when you wear something that shows it off, she just can’t stop herself from fawning over you.
C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)
She can’t exactly do anything with her own cum, but that doesn’t mean she’s against using the artificial version to give you the same feeling. If anything, it makes her more determined to fill you up, knowing that there’s no real risk. She doesn’t mind when you do it to her, but sometimes it feels too familiar and it makes her panic, she’d prefer a normal dildo.
D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)
Sometimes she can’t help but wish she was born with a cock, just for the sake of being able to feel your walls wrapped around her. She knows you’d take her so well, after all you take her strap just as beautifully. A part of her wishes she could cum inside of you too, maybe even impregnate you. The thought of you round with her kids makes her way happier than it should.
E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)
You aren’t her first female partner, but she still finds herself stumbling when it comes to you, especially after being with John for so long. Although her own experiences help a lot, after all, you’re both women aren’t you? She knows what feels good for her, and she doubts your body is much different from hers.
F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)
Jane isn’t the most flexible person, but she isn’t stiff either. If you’re also on the flexible side, then she’d be more than willing to try out many positions with you, even the ‘weirder’ ones. Although her personal favorite is the prone bone, the closeness, the sight of your ass from behind as you take her strap, all of it is perfect.
G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)
If you met her before all of this, then she’s on the sillier side, sex was something that was fun. Now though? She can’t help but feel a sense of guilt for it. She’s not against sex, it’s just usually laced with a certain edge, like if she let herself relax too much, she’ll forget her true purpose.
H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)
She has a bit of a bush, not caring enough to shave anything but her legs and arms. She usually forgets about it, although she’ll trim it if you ask.
The carpet matches the drapes.
I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)
Jane is so, so soft during it. Sex is something she thought she’d never indulge in again, not after losing John. She makes sure to take her time to appreciate you and show you that she isn’t doing this out of loneliness, but because of the love she feels for you.
J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)
Jane is more than used to the familiar motion of pumping her fingers in and out of her cunt, although her libido was killed for a while, so she’s a bit rusty. Her nipples are also rather sensitive, almost enough to get off from the sensation alone.
K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)
Bondage - She loves seeing you tied up, pretty red rope stung across your body, pressed beautifully against your skin. She likes the trust it implies, the fact that you allowed her full access to your body and that you surrendered your pleasure to her. The silent submission is addictive, the control she has over your body tantalizing. It takes a while for her to warm up to the idea of you using it on her, but it’s just as enjoyable, the feeling of being forced to accept what you do to her and given no chance to fight back is freeing. When she’s tied up, she doesn’t have to keep up her usually reserved front.
Praise - It comes almost naturally. Words of adoration falling from her lips as she practically worships you, assuming you of your beauty. She’s especially weak to it herself, her usually uptight demeanor crumbling in the face of your fluttery words. She playfully pushes you away, her flushed face turned away from yours as she tries to turn your compliments back to you. But it only encourages you to continue, to watch as she gets more and more overwhelmed by your voice.
L = Location (favorite places to do the do)
Jane prefers to do things in private, where no one else can see you two. Although sometimes she’ll tease you in public, if only to rile you up and get you to drag her away,
M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)
When it comes to you, it’s your flustered face that gets her going. The way your eyes so adorably try to avoid hers, the way you try to pretend you aren’t affected by her words. It’s flattering knowing that she can still make someone become so nervous.
N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)
She’ll do anything as long as you ask, but she’s not super confident when it comes to things like roleplay, she also hesitates a lot when it comes to something that could seriously hurt you. Also, she’s not a fan of messes.
O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)
Jane loves giving you oral, she takes it as a personal challenge, a chance to make you fall apart with just her tongue and fingers. She’s good at it too, her tongue pressed flat against your clit, dipping into your hole alongside her fingers and gulping down your liquids, the feeling of your hand in her hair only encouraging her. She likes receiving it too, her nails scratching your scalp as she coaxes you into being more confident with your licks, pressing your face closer to her sex.
P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)
She prefers to be a little more gentle with you, taking her time to savor the rare moment. But there are times where frustrations build and everyone just can’t get off of her nerves, leaving her with a lot of steam that needs to be released. Of course, she’ll make sure to be kind to you afterwards, so please forgive her for how rough she can get in those moments.
Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)
She’s not the biggest fan, her nerves making it hard for her to relax. If you’re so desperate, she’d rather you wait until you get home until she can properly satisfy you with no risk of prying eyes.
R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)
Jane isn’t against experimenting and has suggested a few kinks of her own, but she isn’t super well versed in them, always pleasantly surprised when you bring up one that’s caught your interest. She’ll do her best to play along with him, but don’t laugh if she doesn’t get it first-try.
S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)
She’s not the most sensitive, so it can take a while for her to cum. Well, it’s not that she isn’t, most of her body is pretty sensitive, it’s just that it usually takes a lot of stimulation for her to get there. But she’s patient, and she’s more than willing to guide you and show you just how to make her feel good.
T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)
She loves using toys, both on you and herself. She used to own enough to fill a box, but usually sticks to simple vibrators and strap-ons, her favorite being one that lets her grind her clit on in as she thrusts into you.
U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)
Jane is a huge fan of teasing you, always aiming to see just how far she can push you until you get too flustered to ignore. It’s a bit lighter in bed, but only because she would hate to deny herself. But that only gives you a chance to tease her back, the playful banter helping her get more in the mood.
V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)
She’s used to exaggerating her moans in bed, but naturally she’s more on the quiet side, eyebrows furrowed as she focuses on the pleasure coursing through her body. Her lips part with heavy breaths and pants, the vibrations pressed against your skin.
W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)
Despite being off-standish to the others, she’s actually rather soft in bed. It’s one of her most vulnerable moments, and she doesn’t want to push you away.
X = X-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)
Her body is on the plumper side, her age making her put on a little more weight than usual. She’s an inner, the color is a dark brown, making her pink pubic hair stand out more. When she’s aroused, her clit pokes through the hood, practically begging for your attention.
Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)
Her libido was low when you first met her, depression having killed most of her sex drive. But after getting better, it came back full force, leaving her desperate for you. Although she usually waits for you to initiate, not wanting to accidentally force herself on you.
Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)
It’s like all of her exhaustion kicks in, her muscles unwinding and her tenseness loosening. Jane feels so content with you, so loved and so tender, a feeling she never thought she’d feel again. It makes her soft and sleepy, her arms pulling you close to her plush body, paying no mind to the rapidly-cooling sweat, too absorbed in her mission to feel as much of your skin on hers as possible. She can’t help the way she drifts off, her usually troubled mind empty for once, the bliss lulling her into a shallow sleep.
A/N: this was made based off her leaked voicelines where she sounds a little depressed . . song is joyful thought ! also yea sorry for afab reader LOLOL
