Sam

ain't happy ain't alive

[samtheyamantaka]

Not fluent enough to write in your second language

Not exposed enough to write in your mother language

Do you ever feel the same?

[samtheyamantaka]

I'm an outsider living in the shadows of a pale country.

Whenever I talk to a local, I feel intimidated. They have no idea about your struggles. They are at home. They know everything about what to do next and how to become an exchange student and how to get scholarships. They don't feel threatened by others. The only things they might complain about are the quality of university food and the infrequency of parties.

I'm just surviving. I ain't alive.

They make me feel bad about myself and for myself.

[samtheyamantaka]

Fantasizing about a prohibited love will probably always be a part of me.

[samtheyamantaka]

I wanna be a writer for strangers

Okay I'll start writing soon. Just waiting for my Big exam to finish..

[samtheyamantaka]

Hi