Hi. I just want to ask, how's your day going?
Was it good? Bad? Like always?
Because if you ask me how my day went, this day - so far - is just the worst day ever.
I woke up with an uncomfortable feeling - probably because of some reasons that is for me to keep. It feels like the bed advising me not to get up or what but I need to be early for today's P.E. practice.
So, I got up and started my morning routines. When I was about to have my breakfast Mom kept on babbling about things and getting mad at me for not keeping my closet clean when in fact I have the cleanest closet when compared to my two siblings.
I'm that type of person who doesn't want to be disturbed or annoyed when eating. So, with my Mom getting mad at me, I also got mad but of course I still love and respect my Mom so I don't have to vent out my frustration instead I told her that I lost my appetite and I have to leave early.
As if she'd just let me slip with that. So, she followed me around while getting mad at me and it was really getting on me. I moved fast just to finish my routines and leave the house earlier than usual.
P.E practice came and I was frustrated over the fact that we have to lay down on the ground. It would have been fine if it was something soft like grass or something like grass or what. Guess what? The leader let us lay down on the hot, rough and cracked ground. She even gets mad at us when we rant a little. Like wth bish why won't you try to lay down and have a staring contest with the sun. But I once again kept that to myself because we only have 2 hours or what of practice - It was already 8 AM and P.E. class starts at 10 AM and we have a performance to show. When P.E. class came. Our teacher told us that the performance was moved to 12th of December and he already told the Leader. Wow.
My class schedule everyday starts from 12:30 PM to 5:30 PM. No snack breaks so if you want to have energy you have to eat lunch early but that doesn't happen every Tuesday because I would be taking P.E. class that day and it start at 10:30 to 12:30. So I skipped my Lunch.
When our first subject came we would be needing some apparatus for the Laboratory and if I don't take the initiative to borrow the apparatus myself no one in our group would. After the class, we noticed that one of the apparatus was missing and it was really not that important so we let it be. Whrn we came back to return the things the teacher got mad at me for being careless and all and did not return my identification card. I asked if I could replace the item, she said "no". I asked of I could just pay for it, still "no". Desperate, I asked her what can I do then? She told me to go look for it. Tf right? It was a transparent apparatus called glass slide cover and it really doesn't really matter if you break it or what because it is disposable and you really can't use it again once used.
I just left thinking that I would just ask again tomorrow for my ID and ask for an admission slip for me to show when the guards would look for my Identification card the next day.
I really was pulling myself to the positive side because I have no time to be depressed.
Next subject, this girl on my class started to act her attitude on me again. (I would probably write something about her)
I was really on the verge of exploding and when dinner came, my cousin who was just depending on my parents (I'd write something about her too) started to show off and act all nice and made my parents somehow look down on me. Yet again, I lost my appetite.
I excused myself telling them that I already had my dinner outside even though I did not and went to bed early. I was wondering why I was shaking so violently and realized that I did not literally eat all day. And when I started to go back to what happened, it really made me tear up. I share the same room with my sister so I hurriedly went to the bathroom opened the faucet and cried my eyes out. I texted my friends but they just seem to really take my problems seriously because I don't really cry over this kind of stuffs.
Then and there, I realized that I don't have anyone to run to except the bathroom and God.
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