24122022 - 0147AM
I visit my Tumblr again because tweeting this would attract unnecessary attentions.
So many things happened, my parents currently abroad for umrah and my brother gonna need to get married soon.
It means one year more to evaluate and observe.. almost everything in my life before I step forward with my current partner.
And.. to really achieve a healthy lifestyle before we decide whether we try to have children or not. Which for now, sorry, I rather not. And he said he too does not want to have a kid rather than see me in pain.
Well, that’s good!
Why I write here again? Because my back hurts when I writing on my working table.
I want proper house, proper kitchen, proper studio, proper lifestyle, proper house cleaning kit, isn’t it too much to ask? God? Why I can’t have stable income? I know I’m not smart and not skillful but I didn’t steal anything. I thought helping my friends by bought their products and such could help me back. Guess not..
Maybe right now I’m being an ungrateful bitch. I am. I’m tired.
Ever since that damn coffeeshop cut my salary I’ve been upset. I know that was a good sign for me to sign off but God, I’m so sad. I thought feeling enough and grateful of my part time job will put me on Your best side. I don’t know.
I’m a fat ass and an asshole, that one I know.











