got in a fight with my boyfriend and realized halfway through that he doesn’t have to live in this “worst case scenario” world like i do.
what no one tells you about a progressive disability, as opposed to a stable one, is that it completely changes how you have to think about the world. being autistic doesn’t really affect how i approach dating; i know my brain and my limits and i’m able to communicate those.
but having a progressive brain injury, having a disability that will likely leave me dependent on someone in 5-10 years- i have to think so differently about my relationships than my boyfriend, who is able-bodied.
will this person be able to financially support me? is the risk of this person’s past mistakes too big? i won’t have the means to divorce them if we get married. will i be able to physically escape this person if i need to, with a worsening physical state?
like. my boyfriend gets to just think about whether he likes me and wants to be with me. i have to make sure that i’m with someone who i can 100% trust OR who i can get away from even with worsening disabilities. i can’t be cavalier about it or date for fun.
there’s just so much that i’m realizing about my brain injury. it’s been over a year and i feel like my symptoms are barely starting.
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