voilà.

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mind;body

I’m not sure what it’s supposed to feel like

Is it supposed to feel like your body isn’t yours

It’s everyone else’s and you are just trapped in it you are

A mind contingent upon separation but you can’t

Separate yourself?

Like they want you they all want you your

Curves receive standing ovations your

Eyes smirk at sunrises your 

Mind is still attached to it and therefore

They flee so

Which you do they really want?

Pieces of you a little of you just enough

to say they had you

tasted you felt you you exotic other you secret you closet lurker

This moment this accomplishment this feat are they

Proud when they

Conquer me?

Like when he

Conquered me and shoved me into his bed 

And as I screamed he tried harder and I begged him to stop

But my mind had nothing to do with my body

That time he thought my body was his?

My attacker got married today

And I am trying to figure out why my mind is so

Separate from my body..

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WHEN YOU ON YOUR TONY HAWK SHIT BUT YOU FROM NY

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This weekend was legendary.

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How these two cats try and fight me at the bar. Niggah swung his board at me and I caught it mid air and I said, "Wow you soft"

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He also broke the board in half. Because my son ain't give.no.fucks.

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SHIT FT. GOLD

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Mushrooms

[sansgender]

Living legend

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You know

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I bought this champagne For us But I think I just Bought it for Me.

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Me Expecting people to Include me in their moments As if their lives stop when I have an episode As if I were written into their systems long ago Building people up to the perfect friend The person who I cry into And laugh around Carry and pulled by Expecting them to talk to me And to offer the reciprocal To speak softly To say hi, how are you and wait for the reply Because If they do I will say I'm okay. I will say I cry myself into sleep abyss nightly. That my bras are too loose. That my pants are too tight. That the car was repossessed as my significant other lay there dying. Idk

[sansgender]

Sometimes I’m here Sometimes I’m lost in a daydream Between traffic In a bathroom stall Walking home On the edge of my bed Sometimes I don’t come back for a long time And sometimes I do.

And sometimes I forget my name And I make up a new one My name is foreign My face is foreign And I should leave but it's crazy Ill end up home My friend checks on me and reminds me I'm here Which is what i tell myself as I Remove myself from precalculus class while still sitting in my seat And sometimes I bite my nails As a reminder And now I have none. And sometimes I don't come back at all.

[sansgender]

when my grandma died

i became obsessed with where she went

because she was supposed to be here and she’s not?

its driving my family insane/apart

death is stupid/natural but sucks.

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theres a part of my heart

that i can’t seem to find

all wounds heal with time but this one

is heavy on my mind i

loved you like you were a part of me

and i cant seem to get you out of my dreams

what all does friendship really mean?

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the sweetest sound

The sweetest sound I ever heard Was the breath you took as you drifted to sleep I held you so close, us became we I hoped that day you dreamt about me

[sansgender]

Hey

We used to stare into the sky identifying the stars and searching for constellations that couldn’t even be seen from our city.

We fell in love under the sun and blue sky and kissed between the wind passing through your hair.

We carried each other into the night, literally, I told you about flowers and trees and you told me about aliens and pyramids.

We went to the park on our first date and I kissed you on the cheek as I fled the scene, saddened.

That was the first day I found it difficult to say goodbye to you.

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At night Too tired to sleep Thoughts heavy I mean anvils weighing on my temples Balancing like Gymnasts Scales My anxiety weighs more than my reality Tare Tare Tare all night, make sure it's right Morning comes too soon I lay Wondering what It feels like when morning never comes again. So, in closing, I recommend That you do not fall in love With me

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When you leave It's like Every lover that has ever left me Saying goodbye at once.