i had a collection of small dreams. little gifts id give to myself throughout the day so that id keep moving forward. hopes for something a little softer. along the way, i stopped collecting. i made do. ill tell you about it all someday, starting from the beginning. right now i just want to say it out loud. i lost two people ive loved since i knew how to love. im going to miss them for the rest of my life. they were rooting for me, i know. i imagine them rooting for me still. if i had the chance to tell them what i had to tell them, id tell them now. id say thank you. id say im sorry. im sorry. i visit you in my head all the time. i know its better where you are so i wont dream you back here. not anymore. i love you. ill be okay. you both loved me enough for a million lifetimes. i love you enough to look for you in the next.
