Let me Vent

just as it suggests this is my place to vent and anyone's elses place to vent if you stumble upon this blog but yeah

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I'm scared

God these 2 weeks have been shit I can't help my friends for shit like I'm litteraly not helpful in any situation I fucken useless to them right now I'm scared for my friend she won't text me and I can't help/I don't how to. I'm already failing school which is great....I lost a guy I really cared about I lost a dog that I fuckin loved to death. I feel like I lost my parents trust again. I don't want to go into a state of depression again I'm scared I don't want to but u can't keep fighting it

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R.i.p

Yo this man was such a legend to me all my hopes go to him fly high ma dude💔🖤

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Hey....hey

So its summer now and ive gotten tumblr again but i looked back on this i was like holy fuck and idk how this summer is going to go and this blog was made for me to rant cause i just think diaries and writing this down is weird so this is my place to vent and yeah....if people do end up seeing this im ok just had some rough days when i vent but ill be fine most likely so yee

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Things

I’m just a fond of these gifs

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Listen.

It’s not okay to have your child be scared of you. That isn’t respect. That’s control. 

It’s not okay to have your child obey you at all times in order for you to love them. That isn’t high standards. That’s manipulation.

It’s not okay to force your child become what you wanted to become. That isn’t wanting the best for them. That’s living vicariously through them.

It’s not okay to take away your child’s basic needs as a punishment. That isn’t teaching them. That’s hindering them. 

It’s not okay to dictate your child’s sexuality or gender. That isn’t normalizing them. That’s repressing them.

It’s not okay to berate your child’s appearance or intelligence for being what you think is sub-par. That isn’t toughening them. That’s bullying them.

It’s not okay to take out your stress on your child. That isn’t parenting. That is abusing.

It’s completely okay to distance yourself from your parents. That’s not unloving. That, sometimes, is self care.

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I wish my family new this

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I honestly love this movie and this scene is every parent now a days kinda

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I survived another day and I actually slept which is nice I saw what I posted yesterday and it's I'm like just like"..... Jesus wtf did I do to feel like that" but I feel better now so yay!?

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Only once a life a lifetime you meet someone that changes everything

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Idk anymore

I just want to be happy with some ups and downs like some normal people you know ?

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Great

Almost 4a.m and my last post just made me feel better you know getting all of it out well most of it

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Love kills 💔

" I love you" that's what's makes me think that I'm just holding on to you and not wanting to let go of you . We've made it this far but you've got someone better so maybe it is time for me to forget about you ....Somehow

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Memories

Don't you ever just listen to that one song or some songs and it just brings back certent memories ..... Like memories you regret ,amazing memories, love memories the times you were happy and the times shit just felt like it's wasn't worth living?

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Next post

GUNNA GET EMOTIONAL AND POETIC UP IN HERE BOII

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Dates

I'm just putting this out there because "friends" asked me what's you perfect ideal date. It's not much really I just want time alone with the person watch a movie cuddle have snacks or food just talk about life traveling SOMETHING just fucking normal crap it doesn't take much to impress me honestly

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Time

What's weird is I don't keep track of time and then it goes by faster but when I'm paranoid and keep track of time it goes slow and this is how I managed to not sleep....Maybe I'll keep track of time and sleep

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Proved you wrong

Haha I proved life wrong I lived another day mother fuckers now I just need to sleep at some point and wake up for another day .......Fuck

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Sleep is for the weak

Haven’t slept in a in 2 3 days tops but still not tired because I can’t have sleeping pills anymore because of my depression ….Maybe the thought of death had come to mind but like fuck I need sleep, so it’s either pass out from lack of sleep or don’t sleep at all. Yet again I am saying it’s for the week (I’m sorry i have no we’re else to complain but here) fuck my body is going to hate me when I go back to school