sweetest downfall

vicki, 22, she/her, commissions (closed)

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me when i read the fic i wrote about my favourite oc and it features all of the things that emotionally impact me in stories and then it emotionally impacts me

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congratulations, that art of kanaya putting rose’s makeup on turned me gay

hell yeah!!! welcome to the club

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Whats up ladies i im several years behind

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hi guys, i am back from the void to share some writing that i did for one of my ocs, beatrix! you can read it here

you may remember my ocs, you may not, but i have drawn a lot of art of beatrix over the years so you would have definitely seen her before. she is the messy butch with short hair who i am constantly drawing bruised with a bloody nose. i love writing her pov even though she is not a pov character in my book, so i wrote this to practice writing and get back into it.

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writing is good actually. what a fun hobby.

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hi guys, i am back from the void to share some writing that i did for one of my ocs, beatrix! you can read it here

you may remember my ocs, you may not, but i have drawn a lot of art of beatrix over the years so you would have definitely seen her before. she is the messy butch with short hair who i am constantly drawing bruised with a bloody nose. i love writing her pov even though she is not a pov character in my book, so i wrote this to practice writing and get back into it.

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Through Google I came across your 2017 post about Regina Spektor`s gayest songs. I'm listening to her newest album and there's a song called one man's prayer. Shit's gay. Not necessarily healthy gay but. It's gay as fuck.

i really thought this was going to be a spam message, so this message is a nice surprise. what a blast from the past! i wish the song didn't have such incel energy but ty for letting me know

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ok i think im done being crazy now. everyone wish me luck i’m going to be normal now

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fatal flaw in this plan. i don’t know how to be normal

[godstiel]

been getting really into bed lately

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ok i think im done being crazy now. everyone wish me luck i’m going to be normal now

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hey, sorry for posting just when im going through it, but do you guys have any tips for getting over something that deeply affects you but there is literally nothing you can do about it and you just need to get over it because thats kind of the only option other than feeling bad about it forever

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I’m obsessed with your header picture. Do you happen to know what flowers those are?

sorry i have no idea! does anyone else know?

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i love poetry so much but i will never be able to write it because i feel like.. it would definitely be all the bullshit blood flowers skin soft tender teeth etc words that everyone makes fun of at Least in the beginning and i am too prone to embarrassment for it to ever work. art for me is like. i think the most detached from my own personal emotion (it still has some, but mostly just that a lot of it is gay, so that feels like a vulnerability in a way), then fiction is the next one, because wow i have a hard time showing that to people, but poetry is like. i don’t think i can even stand to be the only one reading it. just the act of writing it would be too much i think. yes i am overthinking this but maybe its goodto have an interest i just consume and don’t produce.

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lads

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hey, random question, can i hear some of ur bucket list items?? also ur goals for 2022! this is genuine interest i like hearing about this stuff

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the fight between cutting down my book from its crazy long length (like 160k) vs the fight of keeping in my favourite scenes. 

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ok im gonna do a more formal post later but i have finished the second draft of my book (featuring the characters you’ve seen me drawn for the past few years) and i am looking for beta readers. so if you have any interest in my characters, hmu! i am looking for someone who can at least read the first act, which is 40k, so if that’s too big of a commitment, then that is completely cool. im planning on having the beta readers read it over like. at least five months to give everyone enough time with life and everything. anyway, cheers