Saprolegnia💜

A blog of a 21 year old woman who has a substack barely anyone reads, writes about ideas , and the experience of being diagnosed with ADHD and aspbergers from a young age and documenting the adult experience with it -Science, nature, the world, new ideas, learning things-

[thesituation]

“what does the woman who shaves gain from not shaving” i don’t know, an extra 3+ hours of free time a week? peace of mind and comfort in her femininity? not having nicks and cuts and ingrowns all the time? having a healthier skin barrier? do people think at all whatsoever before saying shit on my posts?

[rosegoldandrubies]

It takes some of you 3 hours to shave? I do it when I’m showering and it only takes me a couple of minutes. What sort of razor are you using? Even when I use an older, duller razor it doesn’t take me that long.

“Peace of mind and comfort in her femininity”

I couldn’t imagine anything less comforting and feminine than looking down at my legs in a sundress and seeing hairy man legs. There is nothing wrong with a woman wanting to look like a woman. That’s not lacking peace of mind, that’s normal and it’s misogynistic to say that femininity is the opposite of peaceful and comforting. Not all of us are desperate to be treated like men.

[saprolegnia1]

You have to be dumb as rocks to believe hair on legs makes you masculine.

Anyways, I’m wearing shorts and skirts with hairy legs. 🦵

[gokusclit]

How r u a grown woman and u still think bush is unhygienic tbh. Like are u dumb as rocks

[vintage-bentley]

“New vocal stim” and it’s just a song stuck in your head. That’s an earworm. Not everything is quirky neurodivergence.

[saprolegnia1]

you just followed me on my other blog @sapphic-vibes14 and after checking out your blog i just idk.. want to clarify that i am bi lesbian and i'm gonna block you if thats something you feel weird about

What’s a “bi lesbian”?

[feminismisstillahatemovement]

[vegantinatalist]

[ratspotting-deactivated20180430]

Bi girls like girls because they like girls, not because men think it’s hot. Bi girls are not fetishes or threesome material. Bi girls are not tainted by any gender. Bi girls are not sluts, nor unloving, nor unfaithful. Just people.

[gnomebutch]

any woman with bf looking for a third with her ugly ass bf is literally like a terrorist to me

[gnomebutch]

any woman with bf looking for a third with her ugly ass bf is literally like a terrorist to me

[radiant-spirit-guardians]

Women are the only ones supposed to be okay with uncomfortable things.

Be okay with rap lyrics that portray women as objects. Be okay with reading the classics by white male authors who didn't shy away from letting the reader know just how much they hated women. Be okay with the use of imagery depicting violence against women for shock value by metal bands. Be okay with the blonde pop star posing like a dog while a man pulls her hair. Be okay with shaving your body hair. Be okay with applying makeup every day. Be okay with using noncancerous chemicals to straighten your hair. Be okay with ads showing half naked women. Be okay with other cultures' traditions such as head coverings, widows who are thrown in their husband's funeral pyre, female genital mutilation, forced marriages. Be okay with biological males dressing up as a caricature of women and stepping into your spaces. Be okay with language changes such as "chestfeeding" and "people who menstruate". Be okay with having to reconsider calling yourself a lesbian if you're not attracted to trans women and are repulsed by dick. Be okay with unlearning your "genital preference". Be okay with being strangled and beaten by your partner during sex. Be okay with being called a bitch, as it is not a slur. Be okay with the existence of an industry dedicated solely to the sexual exploitation of vulnerable women. Be okay with games from the point of view of a rapist. Be okay with children having access to videos showing women being raped. Be okay with protecting your rapist's career by not coming forward with an accusation. Be okay with the statistics that show your male partner is the person most likely to rape and/or kill you. Be okay with doctors dismissing your health issues. Be okay with your contributions being erased from history and your work being stolen by mediocre men.

The price of men's comfort is women's discomfort. We're supposed to stomach this discomfort all the time, no matter what. And for what? So that men can get to continue living in a system that benefits them and them alone?

tolerate this tolerate that ENOUGH

[sangredesirena78463748-deactiva]

i’m honestly just here wondering how these nondysphoric, white, middle class, hetero, and gender conforming nonbinary kids deluded themselves into thinking their life expectancy is 35 years old because they use they/them pronouns on the internet

[friendlyfreakazoid]

Happy pride month to people who experience same-sex attraction! 🌈💜

[saprolegnia1]

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Sub stack for longer essays on topics but to be honest I barely write here much cause barely anyone reads it. I’m still keeping it to share my ideas on philosophical discussions, science etc. I guess I’ll keep Tumblr for intercommunity stuff and things I want to share to niche circles: https://open.substack.com/pub/saprolegnia

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[saprolegnia1]

“Autistic people think so differently than us. We value neurodiversity!” “Concrete thinking is so ordinary. Abstract is superior.”

Something has been bothering me this morning and you know maybe it’s been bothering me for a few weeks and I haven’t gotten around to writing about it. Maybe to others they don’t really care or maybe they don’t see it, but to me, now that I have spotted this inconsistency, but yet didn’t write about it until now, it is so conspicuous.

In summary, the neurodiversity movement (often supported by liberals) act as if autistic and audhers like myself are so laudable. They say stuff like, “autistic people think so differently!” “We could learn from them.” it sounds like initial acceptance. It could sound as if there really is zeal for people who think the way we do. This “autistic genius” stereotype (which I think is harmful btw but that’s for another day) portrays us as these astute and noetic individuals. Yet, I go out into the world, whether it be online or the physical world, and I’ve noticed that some of these same coffee drinking liberals or even just regular people who might say the same catchphrases (differently abled🤮) but especially the ones who are the coffee drinking liberal types if you know what I’m referencing, will say stuff that seems to the antithesis of what they just said.

Let me elaborate.

I went on Reddit. Especially those MBTI forums. We all know the demographic of who frequently visits MBTI or participates in these things. More often than not it is people who are progressive and secular. Now don’t get me wrong, I am progressive and secular, but whenever I say progressive and secular, I am referring to a certain type of person. It’s not all progressive and secular people, but it is more often than not somebody who is progressive and secular. Or maybe they are secular but not progressive. Either way, they often possess these qualities about them and that’s what I’m using as an identifier, but they don’t always have to be that. It’s just a pattern.

Anyways, I’ll see stuff such as “concrete thinker versus abstract thinker”. The people who called themselves abstract thinkers are often the intuitive types. What’s really funny is that there’s a lot more self-reported intuitive types. And believe it or not I used to think I was one until I learned about thinking styles and I’m like “actually I think I’m pretty sensing.” it wasn’t until somebody pointed it out. I initially got a bit defensive because I was like I don’t wanna be wrong. But then as I started to see the pattern, I was like you know what? It kind of fits. Nonetheless, I don’t really believe in MBTI. I think that the big five is a bit more detailed, but I guess I could write about that sometime maybe if I can remember.

Anyways, there’s a lot of self-reported intuitive types that claim that they are these abstract, big idea, big picture, pattern seeking people. And they often act as if they are superior than the people who think in details.. And I know I’m not the only one who’s noticed that before. The intuitive types are repeatedly exemplified as the innovators, the scientist, anything smart and formidable that you can think of.

Meanwhile, the sensing types are shown to be people who live in the moment and thinking details rather than big picture. Maybe dialed down to having a blue collar job and not really prospering on the future.

Yet these people, these liberals more often than not, these self-reported intuitive types, are often the ones to throw around, “autistic people think differently than most people.” “Some of the best thinkers were autistic.” I think I already said that, but I’m getting to my point.

1. If you’re somebody who starts with details first, and then build up to a big picture, then you are a bottom up processor aka a sensor as they like to call it or form it to be

2. autistic people are known for this kind of processing. This means that they start with concrete facts and build up to a big picture.

Therefore,(at least more often than not), autistic people are concrete thinkers.

At the same time, I go on somewhere like Reddit and then I see something like “people who think abstractly are just not as common as people who think concretely, which is more more ordinary”“ people who think abstractly are special because most people think concretely”.

This is not Word for Word exactly, but it is something very close to it and often from the same crowd who says this type of stuff. I’m just pointing out the pattern.

Yet at the same time, this crowd or I should say this culture or people within it have said “autistic people think differently.”

These are antonyms.

Different and ordinary.

That is like saying, “ my house is left of Oak Street, but I’m going right of Oak Street. I’m going home.”

It doesn’t make any sense.

And they’ll try to refrain it and say “well it’s different than normal concrete thinking.” Well, what is normal concrete thinking? Can you define it? Listen, I know I in my lifetime I have accidentally said contradictory things. I remember one time I said something like “I’m just acting normally “”I wish I was normal.” when I realized that, I thought about it and thought about how contradictory those two sentences were. I don’t know if I corrected myself immediately, but I must have done it or thought of a different word. Everybody says contradictory things at some point, but to say it consistently is a different type of annoyance.

And it really reveals the inner truth of how they actually feel about us. They try to conceal it with flowery statements about how we are so different. Concrete thinking is ordinary yet at the same time extraordinary? If this was a normal person, they would not be saying the same thing and I’m not saying that there isn’t some differences in neurodivergent thinking vs neurotypical. But they use literal minded (in general) as an insult or I should say as a way to keep others down a peg yet when the very essence does something or sees something that they cannot see they turn the other cheek and they say “oh my God, it’s so different than normal thinking blah blah blah.” It’s the choice to emphasize the difference while also using a trait of our thinking(being literal) to keep someone down a peg but suddenly when it’s us, they choose to emphasize our “different thinking”. They just never admit that it is literalness that is a foundation. Instead they just say different. I doubt that they could even articulate it.

What happens if they DID try to articulate it? Then they would have to say “literalness” or “concreteness” or “detail focus.” And then they’d be forced to confront that they’ve also used those exact same descriptors as subtle put-downs.

By the way, everybody uses both concrete and abstract thinking, which is another reason why I feel MBTI is kind of reductive but he tries to patch this up by saying people lean towards one or the other, but how do you even quantify how often somebody leans towards one or the other?? sure you could say it’s just different situations, but doesn’t everybody act differently in different situations??

If it’s so different, then why is it so ordinary at the same time? Something that is different cannot be ordinary and vice versa. At this point it should be so axiomatic that it is performative. I’m not saying that nobody will value you, but you just shouldn’t keep your hopes too high.

Be careful out there.

[lesbianlamictal]

Hospitalisation should be a last resort

Some mental health workers when they hear you are going through a crisis will immediately recommend that you are hospitalised. Whether you’re suicidal, manic or psychotic it doesn’t matter. They say the best place for you is hospital. But what if that wasn’t the case for many of us?

For example being autistic in the ward is hard. I actually got diagnosed with autism because of the way I reacted in the ward. The constant sensory overload of loud alarms and screams and thumping, not being able to eat the foods that were available etc. A lot of autistic people don’t cope well in the ward. Hell, I don’t think you even have to be autistic to not cope with the ward. You’re also isolated in there for weeks or months of if you’re unlucky years at a time. This does not benefit your mental health.

The only reason you would be admitted is to temporarily have people keep an eye on you or adjust your medication. It is not a quick fix, and they can’t help you beyond that.

The fact is, help in the community needs to be improved and should be emphasised if you’re in a crisis because the best place you can heal is at home. And even if you don’t have a great home, a psych ward isn’t going to fix that as when you come out of it that is where you’re heading anyway.

[saprolegnia1]

Bi vs Lesbian discourse but I looked at it through a mathematical angle and now I can’t unsee it….

( this is so terminally online. But I think this could apply to multiple situations. It has certainly helped ME see the "why")

Probably gonna call me tinfoil hat- predictable- idgaf.

Where was I? Oh RIGHT! (So this is my "theory" btw for context-but originally I wrote a coming out post/ breaking ambiguity to get more personal.

I did not think about my label too much after I came out again lol. Until I did. I discovered a year and a half or so later after coming - then going online- all about about “comphet” “gold star” “febfem” “radfem” “political lesbian” all that stuff.  I remember seeing that comphet masterdoc and thinking it was so silly. I had never seen it before. I used to think “why blame comphet instead of taking accountability?” But I didn’t NOT believe in it at the same time when I learned the concept and that created a lot of tension for me as I began to look deeper. 

I had ITCHY cognitive dissonance. I did not even realize how itchy it was. Because “why blame comphet instead of taking accountability?” I said that, sure, but I did not want to say I was technically bi. Because everything I had seen online about bi people was negative AND to the antithesis of what I was (male centered, gonna leave for a man, etc) I did not relate.

It is as if I had an error- bi: women is a phase, really wants men and then will leave women for men someday. I was like “does not compute”. I kept on trying to think of another way that “non gold stars” COULD be lesbians. Some genuinely believe it and I used to too. Until I kept pondering about it. I really wanted it to be true. I did not want the baggage of the “bi” label as it is (what I am about to elaborate on) high entropy and raises more questions. And then men think they have a real chance with you. And you get equated with people who aren't really like you. 

But eventually, after accepting ambiguity (hence why I have remained ambiguous about it except privately or anonymous publicly), it felt better. I stopped being scared. It is just a thing that is. It did not change anything about me or the truth.  

And so I am here telling you now. But why? What the hell does this have to do with anything?

But now that the question "AM I REALLY X" doesn't sit in my mind everyday, I feel an evolution of thought.

—---The why question—------------

I present no solution…. just a why.

WHY does this pattern keep happening? (Not just me but others because well why is there a whole discourse on the subject) Why do so many women who are clearly not 0% into men still reach for the “lesbian” label? Why does the bi label create instant uncertainty and follow-up questions while “lesbian” doesn’t? What’s actually going on under the surface with how humans process these signals?? If it keeps happening, clearly there is a reason.

I've answered in the implication of why ( I personally- but I am thinking about other people too because of the pattern) did not want to come out with this label despite fighting cognitive dissonance. Because of the stereotypes, the lack of community within all bisexuals (of all types) due to variation-I like to think of it like everyone speaking a language that is deriving from the romance languages (Spanish, Portuguese, French, Italian, and Romanian) but just because they are all romantic does not mean they can all understand each other.  And the loneliness of being a kinsey 4-5 range person, you get the point. 

But WHY other than this is it so difficult for most people AND THE PUBLIC (myself included to really “come out” as “bi”.) People wonder why people avoid it(if you are not 50/50) Because I know I am not alone in this. Being a febfem is literally just explaining to people what it is over and over (because it is a tumblr term that sounds like a tampon, no offense). And like I said, we see over and over again, “fakebians”. Women who are technically bi but say they are  lesbians anyways. Online, we just get mad and yell “FAKEBIAN! COCKSUCKER! ERASURE!” And the cycle repeats. Nothing changes. No thinking beyond just the surface. We audit other people and people audit themselves (whether they admit or NOT, a pattern exists).  If it is so easy to just say bi why don’t people just say it…immediately-even if they don’t feel any caution per say(because some do not). I am talking mostly about the pattern we see of women who we find out are bi later online and then we get mad when they say stuff like “I AM A LESBIAN WITH AN EXCEPTION” (I agree it sounds silly do not worry lol). But there has to be a deeper reason to why this is happening besides just “lesbian erasure” “bi erasure”.

—----Information theory—----------------

In 1948, mathematician  Claude Shannon introduced information theory. I started researching this way before I wrote this but then one day, I made the connection. It was at a grocery store as I was thinking about what I learned about it days prior(it applies to radios as Im also obsessed with radios at the moment too) and I was like AHA this could connect you know??? This could connect to language.

In a nutshell: Information is the resolution of uncertainty. Not just facts and knowledge like we use it in layman's terms. It is the mathematical study of how we communicate data. It’s the foundation of every text message, radio, video stream, and hard drive you use today. It is so fascinating and honestly I am just in awe with the concept of entropy (represented as H).  Entropy(H) measures how much uncertainty or “surprise” is in a message. 

 You can apply this concept to real life HYPOTHETICALLY even tho it is technically for computers and radios and such. Humans are like radio receivers only biased and emotional a lot. But the concept could still apply.

High entropy: A message that is unpredictable or vague. It requires more "bits" (each piece of information is counted as “a bit”)of data to explain.  Example- I am a christian. Ok but what kind of christian? Catholic? Orthodox? Protestant? 

Low entropy: This type of message would carry little information. It would carry EXPECTED information. For example, If a fundamentalist christian says "I believe the Bible is literal and there really was a great flood on earth!" that is a low-entropy message. It carries almost zero new info because we already expected it. 

And then comes VARIABLES, which I WILL tie to my point . Redundancy is the extra data added to a message to ensure that if some "bits" are lost or corrupted by noise, the receiver can still figure out the original meaning.

Messages have a variable count. Example: I have a coin. It could be heads or tails. That is a 1  variable outcome. Because it can ONLY BE heads OR tails. Not at the same time. A single coin has two possibilities, yes, but it only represents one variable because once you know it's "Heads," you automatically know it is not "Tails."Mutual exclusivity.

Now tying it into the online discourse………

Lesbian-1 Variable. You will only be with the ladies lol. Low entropy. Very expected outcome. You are either with a woman(land on heads) or you are single(land on tails)-if you were to apply coin logic.

Straight- 1 variable. You get the picture.  

Bisexual-2 variables. Man and woman. But unlike a coin, it is not mutually exclusive. You are left wondering when someone says vaguely “I am bi”- questions like “men or women more?” “who are you gonna date?” “will you change someday?” “preference?” “50/50?” “bi….curious?”  ((You see how with a bisexual how the coin analogy breaks down lol. Because with the coin analogy, you could just say you’re either with one particular gender or you’re single but with bisexuality there’s so many fucking possibilities because that label is shared by so many.)

And then  you try to solve it by being more specific. Febfem OR “Bisexual with a strong female preference”. That is a lot more specific, but it still does not reach the same level of certainty as the 1-variable label. There is still a possibility. If a system has a variable, it has Potential. Even if you say the probability of you dating a man (ever or again) is P=0.000001, as long as you use the "Bisexual" label(which the Value of that variable is NOT absolute zero) it represents the possibility of it still being there.

A better way to imagine: imagine you have a jar of marbles. Blue marbles- dating a man. Pink marbles-dating a woman white-perpetually single

The lesbian has ONLY pink marbles (bc she’s only into women and no men in anyway) and white marbles (for when the possibility of being single)

The bisexual has blue AND pink (and white) even if not, every jar has the same amount, the presence of all of them is still in the jar. Even if she tries to “remove” them, the fact that you still are attracted to them no matter what keeps the even if it is only 3 blue marbles in the jar.

Now you see the lesbian label communicates a closed system:

• no possibility of men (no blue marbles)

A bisexual label communicates an open system:

• even if extremely unlikely, the possibility still exists (at least one blue marble).

————Key insight:

And SO it creates more “noise”. A non-zero probability, no matter how small, represents Potential Information. People are still gonna know. They hear: "There is a 0.000001% chance (or 5% or wtv percent if you count fleeting attraction that doesn’t mean you necessarily want to do it but maybe a what if it’s hard to tell tho if you have OCD. But it doesn’t matter you get the point.) You are stuck adding more redundancy(more words) to get the message across that getting with a man for you is practically not feasible. Now you are stuck wondering if that passing thought means you truly wanna just up and go and leave a woman you love for a man?

They act like: "So you're saying there's a chance!" “So there’s a chance that you are going to leave me for a man?” “So there’s a chance you’re gonna cheat on me with a man?” “You are gonna bi cycle and leave me yea?” "Are you trying to just be in lesbian spaces and invade?" And like I said, previously, people still see if you identify with that label, “the blue marbles” even if the pink marbles are the most populous ones and the blue marbles in the grand scheme are the minority.

And then the discourse comes back to the other variable. Even if lesbians say they are lesbians, there is gross men out there and honestly gross people that treat them like they are bisexual(“will you change your mind?”) regardless(so wrong!!!) having a word that only represents one outcome entirely can feel like a weapon and for very good reason. And because people try to corrupt that signal anyways, having one grounding factor must feel good emotionally. However, it’s also a word that gets thrown around in casual conversations a lot when describing things like attracted women especially in the way that I mentioned.

And now, you see where I am going with this? And so bi people (like bi with a female preference) feel excluded because everyone "sees" this. And then there is the stigma. And then the push pull back and forth blah blah blah we have seen this discourse for years. —----------------------------------------------WHAT I AM NOT SAYING—----------I’m not claiming it’s morally ok to lie to a partner about being bisexual. Honesty in relationships matters. If you love someone, they deserve to know the actual nature of your attractions.I’m also not saying a bisexual woman is a lesbian just because she casually calls herself one. That DOES NOT erase the truth. What I am saying is that we rarely pause to look at how we process information and signals. “Lesbian” is a clean, low-entropy label. “Bi with strong female preference” isn’t. That difference creates noise, uncertainty, and a lot of questions even when no one is being malicious.As an autistic person, thinking about social stuff through this kind of systemic lens feels genuinely liberating. It turns endless emotional yelling into something more mechanical and understandable. Instead of “people are just lazy/evil/gatekeeping/they hate our group” I get to ask “why is it even happening?”I’m not offering this as an excuse or a solution. Just as one “why” that helped quiet my own brain. And now I keep wondering: how often does this same type of thing play out in other areas of life? Probably a lot.

———

If you made it this far, thank you. So sorry that this is such a long essay.  I really hope that nobody misinterprets me because I’ve made a lot of people mad in the past. But I don’t really think I give a fuck anymore to be honest. And I’m very proud of who I am and I’m very proud of my growth and I don’t wanna hide it. I don’t care how  information dense I am- I am proud.

[saprolegnia1]

Breaking Ambiguity

Hello Tumblr

I am gonna be writing a different blog post today and I am warning you it is quite lengthy, personal, and I lead into  (a  mathematical take on the bi lesbian discourse?) I figured if I want a dog in this fight, I must come out and say something personal. I have always for the most part except maybe on the public outer part (except when I was a lot more anonymous on here) and in DMs with other people or friends I know, I have mostly stayed ambiguous about my sexuality. At least I have for a year. And there is a very good reason for that. But I am still a part of WLW Tumblr, X, etc.

As some of you know, I developed OCD when I was 19, my first theme being about religion. And then later on, sexuality. It was so terrible for me. It would distract me from my priorities.

But now that I have evolved(not from OCD in general, I still have much work to do but I am getting there). I feel I should (if I WANT to analyze online social discourse in this subject, and because I love analyzing things- that will never change. OCD may have weaponized it against me, but it is fundamentally a part of who I am. And that is why I enjoy writing so much). 

I am a bisexual woman with a strong female preference. Not for political motivation. Not because of my developing values. Not because of trauma. Not because of fear. But just because I am. I am someone who is strongly same sex attracted significantly, but have at some point experienced opposite sex attraction and curiosity( and I am not sure about it today tbh but idrc bc it is not significant enough to care even if I did), and I even had a boyfriend in high school(although not very serious by most subjective measures).  Other than that, I have dated girls before and exclusively after (and more nuance to this but to be honest you get the point lol.) Even an almost 2 year window is something. I like to say jokingly I am  the reverse of a bihet woman. But I have grown comfortable with who I am tbh.

I knew I was like this since puberty and I think even before(my first crush was female). But I am not here to prove it necessarily. However, I want to talk about this because I think it has formed my perspective- the OCD (and even autistic/adhd rigidity as it has been significant for these sorts of things) experience and all.

My story TLDR version (as much as possible) of the timeline (because it eventually leads to the how- a domino effect of how I came to articulate an explanation for why discourse over this topic happens online)

I came out as bi at 13, dealing with a stressful, homophobic environment on my dad’s side. While I had crushes on both, a clear pattern of preferring girls had emerged since my first crush at age 7. I had my first gf of a year at 14 then we broke up due to distance and conflict.I’m significantly same-sex attracted. I’ve had opposite-sex attraction and curiosity in the past (and I’m honestly not even sure where it stands today, but it’s not significant enough for me to care). I had a boyfriend in high school and dated guys for a short time, but it was never that  serious compared to my relationships with girls and by most subjective metrics. I’ve dated girls before and exclusively after that period.

 And so I ended it. I said I was a lesbian because it just made sense. I didn’t want to date men. And on a deeper level I just didn’t like them that way. No “exceptions”. Because the pattern would not change. It made sense to just say lesbian. TLDR I developed OCD about religion first->

Anyways, personal side over. That is that. It feels good to share something like this anyways as I am starting to really like expanding on my blog.  

TLDR I do eventually accept the bi label as the technical side and I embrace it. This is who I am. 

I like who I am and I do not wanna be anyone else other than myself :) 

Anyways, ill be getting into something else later