you'll keep changing and i'll just stay the same

jacie // 25 // she/her

[saprosappho]

today my coworker said to me that my face was so expressive i was like a mime. a mime? a mime?????

[spin-the-wheel-polls]

you are now a cat in the warrior cats universe! Spin these wheels for your name!

Do you like it?

YES!!!

yes

eh it's okay

no.

IM MOON MOON

results/other

Remaining time: 6 days 1 hour

note: I (the owner of this blog and maker of wheels) am not into warrior cats! I just thought this would be fun to make

(prefixes and suffixes from @yarrowleef)

[lemmmmmmmmmmonade]

HELP HELP HELP HELP HELP

[saprosappho]

oh great thank you

[saprosappho]

1000% sure i do not need to be doing all this. and yet

[weirdness-is-good]

[namethatghostling]

stop drinking beer with the deer and come have a cider with the spiderrrr

[saprosappho]

i really enjoy academic history because every historian has such an incredibly specific niche that they will very happily talk themselves to death over. and half the time you're like well theres no way there's more than one person who studies this right? and then you're wrong

[saprosappho]

was explaining the french rev to my little cousins for a reason i can't remember but i kept calling "aristocrats" "aristocats" instead

[saprosappho]

struggling so deeply to adding scene work/dialogue to this story that's essentially all summary of like fifteen years but it just FEELS like zooming in too far when the main character is totally detached from everything that isn't memory. and i'm adding memory dialogue/scene work but it still feels like a disingenuous interpretation of my professor's critique which was that it's essentially just summary and i need to add scene work and dialogue. L

[saprosappho]

really frustrating tbh bc it’s like. i know i need to i just don’t know howww and it doesn’t seem like anyone else really struggles w this when i tried looking it up it’s not been in any of the modules and it makes me feels so stupid but i just cannot figure out when to insert dialogue….. and never have been……. i never know when to zoom in!!! i read so much and i try to figure it out but i cannot!!! ripping my hair out and slamming my skull into walls etc. i just do not have the instinct for it and i dont know how to develop it at this point bc “read more and figure out how they do irl theoretically should’ve worked by now but it HASNT it feels so artificial every time i try and not even bc the dialogue isn’t naturalistic but bc it feels so superficial :/ truly do not know how to fix this

[saprosappho]

struggling so deeply to adding scene work/dialogue to this story that's essentially all summary of like fifteen years but it just FEELS like zooming in too far when the main character is totally detached from everything that isn't memory. and i'm adding memory dialogue/scene work but it still feels like a disingenuous interpretation of my professor's critique which was that it's essentially just summary and i need to add scene work and dialogue. L

[saprosappho]

i’m so sunburnt and simultaneously so tired that my eyes and my skin are the same exact color

[saprosappho]

came out of my room on vacation and almost tripped over my five year old cousin lying on the floor directly outside and when i was like hey man what the hell he goes ‘i was waiting for you :)’ cute! but what the hell

[saprosappho]

like fifteen minutes later both of my little cousins got in trouble for 1.) talking to me loudly through the bathroom door 2.) trying to COME INSIDE while i was in the bathroom (they’re 5 and 7 but Still.) and 3.) extorting a dollar out of my little brother by hiding his glasses and refusing to give them back until he paid up so i told their mom and now they’re soooooo sad

[saprosappho]

came out of my room on vacation and almost tripped over my five year old cousin lying on the floor directly outside and when i was like hey man what the hell he goes ‘i was waiting for you :)’ cute! but what the hell

[saprosappho]

my hair is in a french braid and pretty long and a little girl just ran by me and shouted to her dad “she has elsa hair!!!!!!”

[saprosappho]

necessary lipstick bc under it my lips are dead white and i don’t want to scare the customers

[saprosappho]

sat down for the first time in an hour and a half and felt the blood creep back into my head and face #watdatmean

[saprosappho]

necessary lipstick bc under it my lips are dead white and i don’t want to scare the customers

[saprosappho]

everyone shut the fuck up now. brienne of tarth

[saprosappho]

i woke up from a horrible nightmare drenched in sweat, posted this, and went back to sleep btw. she saved me