To be Decided

My mind: The Screen Play

[sarahislashback]

Continental Shift by SarahiSlashback

[sarahislashback]

Excerpt from We Were Cosmos by SarahiSlashback

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Fun facts about your sign here

[sarahislashback]

My Crucible

My work for the day is done by 10

And unlike Alice

I haven’t found a rabbit hole

To lose myself into

No way to turn this

Image in my head

Of the way you looked in her embrace

Into something innocent

Something to sweep into the closet

Full of your skeletons that I couldn’t untangle

And I can’t

Even focus

on the way I’m trying to do me

Because I always seem to end up

Doing you

So I’m counting the possible things that occur daily

I

Get up

Get dressed

Breathe

Do my work

And then my mind wanders

To the Impossible things that used to occur daily

Waking up

With my arm asleep  

Big Spoon, I

Little Spoon, You

Only when you were

Sleeping

Would you search

For the warmth

Of my heartbeat

Beneath your Ear

I used to wake up

Feeling lucky

To feel the stubble of your chin

Against the contours

Of my chest

Now

I prefer to sleep alone

Can’t handle the coarseness

Of another’s cheek

Marring and staining

Your place

On me

And I heard

That it takes 7 years

For every cell to be replaced

So I refuse to

Accelerate

The great

Cleansing

Of you

They’ll have to scorch the very

Walls

Of my foundation

And rebuild me brick by brick

Take me by surprise

Do it by moonlight

While I’m lost

In dreams of you

My very own crucible

For

I do

Love

My devil

So go on

Tear me down

Holy water will never wash away the sins

Of who we were

Maybe you believed

I could be saved

You may believe

What sees you through

Until you can see through

The bottle again

But never believe

That the fight

Was fair

I never had a chance

With your silver tongue

And tired eyes

You let me play on the landscape of your chest

And I found every demon of mine

In every crevice

In between

Your heart and mind

I could feel time

Trickle over our skin,

Sun kissed

Giving us this moment

Of clarity

But

I could never read the forecast

That sped across your face

So

I wish I would have known

I wish you would have sad

That curiosity

Could look and feel

A lot like love

Because of your attention

And since you were the sort of man

Who

Wouldn’t sacrifice

Anything more than needed

To scratch

An itch

And since I was the sort of girl

Who

Would rather

Love

then lose

Instead of losing without having

Tried

Loving

Blinding trust

Followed by

Blinding pain

For having fallen off the tight rope

Onto

Leave

Instead of Remain

It  was no surprise

To those

In the audience of my life

Ciao, Mi amore

Encore…

Encore….

- Sarahi Slashback 11.3.15

My Crucible

[sarahislashback]

My Crucible

My work for the day is done by 10

And unlike Alice

I haven’t found a rabbit hole

To lose myself into

No way to turn this

Image in my head

Of the way you looked in her embrace

Into something innocent

Something to sweep into the closet

Full of your skeletons that I couldn’t untangle

And I can’t

Even focus

on the way I’m trying to do me

Because I always seem to end up

Doing you

So I’m counting the possible things that occur daily

I

Get up

Get dressed

Breathe

Do my work

And then my mind wanders

To the Impossible things that used to occur daily

Waking up

With my arm asleep  

Big Spoon, I

Little Spoon, You

Only when you were

Sleeping

Would you search

For the warmth

Of my heartbeat

Beneath your Ear

I used to wake up

Feeling lucky

To feel the stubble of your chin

Against the contours

Of my chest

Now

I prefer to sleep alone

Can’t handle the coarseness

Of another’s cheek

Marring and staining

Your place

On me

And I heard

That it takes 7 years

For every cell to be replaced

So I refuse to

Accelerate

The great

Cleansing

Of you

They’ll have to scorch the very

Walls

Of my foundation

And rebuild me brick by brick

Take me by surprise

Do it by moonlight

While I’m lost

In dreams of you

My very own crucible

For

I do

Love

My devil

So go on

Tear me down

Holy water will never wash away the sins

Of who we were

Maybe you believed

I could be saved

You may believe

What sees you through

Until you can see through

The bottle again

But never believe

That the fight

Was fair

I never had a chance

With your silver tongue

And tired eyes

You let me play on the landscape of your chest

And I found every demon of mine

In every crevice

In between

Your heart and mind

I could feel time

Trickle over our skin,

Sun kissed

Giving us this moment

Of clarity

But

I could never read the forecast

That sped across your face

So

I wish I would have known

I wish you would have sad

That curiosity

Could look and feel

A lot like love

Because of your attention

And since you were the sort of man

Who

Wouldn’t sacrifice

Anything more than needed

To scratch

An itch

And since I was the sort of girl

Who

Would rather

Love

then lose

Instead of losing without having

Tried

Loving

Blinding trust

Followed by

Blinding pain

For having fallen off the tight rope

Onto

Leave

Instead of Remain

It  was no surprise

To those

In the audience of my life

Ciao, Mi amore

Encore…

Encore….

- Sarahi Slashback 11.3.15

My Crucible

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But who could love me, I’m out of my mind.

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Panic! at the Disco ‘Camisado’

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The beautiful Brendan Urie <3

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Panic! At the Disco album covers

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If you love me, let me go.

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You’re worse than nicotine

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made by yours truly

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Geez I’m maybe a little bit obsessed with him

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