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Your path to recovery does not end once you’ve taken the last bite of your chocolate bar or resisted the urge to binge. The fact of the matter is that the entire process of developing a recovered mind is uncomfortable. Intensive treatment is quite contradictory to everything we have ever been told. We are forcing ourselves to distract when we are hungry and to eat when we are not, all in attempt to revamp our hunger cues.

Both weight gain and loss does not always indicate recovery, just like it doesn’t determine a diagnosis. If weight restoration was the only goal of intensive treatment, recovery would be easy, but it isn’t. The closer we become to reaching optimum physical health, the scarier it often becomes. We are constantly faced with the void our urges leave behind. Food is our enemy, our friend, our fear, and our comfort. Food is never just food.

Living a life free of restriction, binging, excessive contemplation, self-destruction, guilt, & deprivation often appears to be unattainable, but with time, it can be. In time I will reach my deeply desired healthy relationship with food, develop balance and self-acceptance, and make a promise to myself to never go on another diet for as long as I live. In time I will achieve food freedom.

I am still working towards defining recovery in my own mind, but I WILL choose to take the steps to get there. I will choose to reach a recovered mind over anything and everything because I know that by doing so, it will change everything.

02.10.18

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