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Hey, I'm trying here!

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Thank you to the lovely anons who’ve sent kind messages and/or checked in on me over the past year and a half. Some of you were still thinking of me so long after I’d done my little vanishing act, and I appreciate that so much. I’m really sorry I didn’t answer the messages. Please know they were read and cherished all the same.

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cake boss is in da house

Alternatively, ‘Cake Bess’.

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I haven’t been on tumblr in a while, and I’m lower the amount of time I spend on it. But I wanted to remind you how amazing you are!! 😉

Thank you, I really appreciate you going out of your way to send me this!! You’re amazing too, good on you for getting your social media intake under control.

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If you don't mind, could you tell us where you bought your necklace ?

The Grey Warden necklace is from Neolita on Etsy. The dragon logo necklace is from SwedestStore, and the one I haven’t put a picture of yet is from JuniperRoadJewelry.

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As promised. 🌈

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day 15

told you so.

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day 13 // day 14

baked layers 3 and 4 of a rainbow cake yesterday (did the final two today). went to work afterwards to find someone had thrown away the cupcakes i brought in a couple days ago. revenge will be... sweet. *wink*

in happier news, the necklace i ordered arrived this afternoon!! tomorrows outfit is gonna be coordinated around it. for maximum showing off. im a happy bunny.

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Hope you're having a nice day too! It did not fit in the previous ask

I appreciate you going to the trouble of sending a second ask just to say this. Genuinely not sarcastic; legitimately charmed. Have a great day too!

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Hey, so, I just wanted to give a lil update on that Finnish Home Front Fic: I've 40 books borrowed from the library for research; I've interviewed my grandparents for some authentic experiences; I've printed out character charts and partially filled them; I've drawn some old buildings; I've written a bit, including a thing that was meant to be a drabble that's 1800 words in Finnish and still not finished, been at that for like 2 weeks; listened to music from 1940's Finland for the past 3 months

In other words, you’re in deep. I love it. Keep going!

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day 7 // day 8 // day 9

baked some cupcakes for an easter party two days ago. played pokemon go with a stranger yesterday. heard some bad news today. but i got up early and made flapjack. i went into work on my day off to spare someone else. i walked by the seaside and had lunch with my dad. im doing okay.

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I just want too remind you that you are a lovable person, and I hope you never doubt that you are loved

I do, actually, quite often. That’s why this is so sweet, and very much appreciated. Hope you’re having a lovely time of it, lovely person!

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day 2 // day 3

walked on the beach with beta and her dog, did a little shit cleaning. work today, with a da:o inspired look. anxiety headaches are quite literally doing my head in, but im powering through.

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This is just a reminder that you are a great person!!

This arrived while I was having an especially hard time. I don’t know what urged you to send this when you did, but hang on to that intuition. It may be a super power.

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An explanation I owe:

[TW for discussion of mental health issues]

Where have I been for *checks blog* three weeks? Not on holiday, that’s for sure! As it turns out, you can’t just ignore mental health problems until they go away. In fact, there’s a big chance they’ll get worse! I speak from experience.

I may talk big game about looking after yourself and getting help, but I was completely determined not to do that for myself. I thought I didn’t need it; that my issues weren’t serious enough; that it was all my fault; that I could fix it myself.

Around the time I stopped posting, I was in the middle of some particularly low points. In their wake, friends and family urged me to go to the doctor’s. I finally relented, and booked an appointment.

The appointment was yesterday. It went really well.

I’m being referred for therapy, I’m starting medication, and I have some reading materials and exercises to do in the meantime. It will get better; I will get better!

But neither it or I won’t get better straight away. That’s why I’m taking another three weeks off, at least. My writing isn’t at its best right now, and I need to take the time to look after myself properly if I ever want it to be again. I’m really sorry for doing this, and for disappearing in the first place. I’ll keep you updated from now on.

Also, if you’re in the same boat as me, don’t sink. Please go to the doctor if you can, and seek actual medical help. If you can’t, try accessing charities which provide services to help you, use online materials for mental health, or find someone who can be your confidante and ask them for help.

And YOU, anxiety-ridden person who is thinking, ‘oh, but my issues aren’t bad enough’. Go to a doctor already. You’re not qualified to be the judge of that, especially since you’ve got a little voice in your head, one that’s even less qualified, trying to do the judgement for you. Get help. You need it too, trust me.

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d&d but make it fashion

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Test bake done, time for volunteering 🌱

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That may be because of the free baking :-)

That's fair.