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You were the closest person to ever understand me. G

I just don’t know what to say anymore.

I think therapy could’ve saved us.

I’m sad I can’t be better. The Universe knows

I’ve tried.

I think there’s a different plan for you and I.

I don’t want love at all.

How am I supposed to give what I

don’t even want?

We’re walking seperate paths now.

I think it had to end like this.

I’m tired too.

But that doesn’t mean I don’t miss you.

Stupid right?

Our personalities just aren’t

matching one another.

You are however, forever my family.

There’s always a place for you in my life

if the universe allows it.

Even families don’t talk to one another all the

time.

It just works for them that way.

The way things go I’ve given up on us.

The way things go I knew it never was.

The way things go your hate for me

is my freedom.

The way things go makes me sad.

Holding back because I saw the future

And I knew how this would end

Just like you did

So why bother creating something we doomed

in the first place?

My ache of loneliness caused by

misunderstandings

My ache of sadness caused by the negatives

Sometimes you’re my light

Other times your darker than the night

But I needed light all the time...and so do you

Two rain clouds in a room.

You think you know so much.

It’s my fault. I don’t explain a lot.

I guess I have to survive in the dim

all alone after all.

Goodbye old friend goodbye goodbye

I’ll love you always from afar

where I won’t light your world on fire

and you won’t freeze mine.

Goodbye

perrfectly

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Papi

I’ve been avoiding you because I’m heartbroken and want to be left alone. At the same time I wish you’d knock on my door, come into my room, sit on my bed, and ask me if everything’s okay. I wish I could cry to you and tell you everything that’s been going on. There’s complete avoidance, I’m sure you think everything is fine in my life and if not you think I’ll just get over it eventually. It explains why you’re alone. I came out of my room one day and you said to me “I think I’m going to go to Colombia for a week I need to disconnect from work” because work is all we talk about. What you don’t realize is your timing couldn’t be worse. Here you are talking about leaving me, alone. How am I to protest? your exact words were “If I stay here I’ll die”, I know you were talking about your health and exaggerating a bit but my response of course was a swift “don’t say that!” I guess everyone around me including myself feels like dying. So I said go, take your much needed vacation. Little do you know that your need to save yourself doesn’t help me save my life. Seven days alone. It’s just started and I already feel like I’m hanging by a thread. Whats the point of having a cellphone when no one texts or calls? I guess it’s for the apps.

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How light can change your appearance.

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horrifying

saritaxsmiles

Getting stood up.

Will always break my heart. Whether it be a friend or a date. You get all dressed up. You get all excited. You look forward to it. And then. Nothing. Absolutely nothing. Not even an explanation. a “hey sorry can’t make it” or “something came up.” nothing. What a way to break someones heart.