xoxo

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you even reblogged the same gif set she just had on her blog that does look kinda fishy /:

it’s a recent gifset on giginourasource n i liked it. ur point is?

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you must have been plotting on this faceclaim that was a damn quick transition 🤔🐍

p a t h e t i c 

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sssssnakia

oh fuck off mate this is pathetic

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📲 imessage ➝ mar 🌻

MARITZA: do u need to talk ??

MARITZA: a GUMMY bear

MARITZA: haha

SASKIA: im not sure. probably but it wont do any good

SASKIA: that's so bad, mar

SASKIA: it's only bc ily that i'll admit i cracked a smile

SASKIA: which is quite a feat today, let me tell u

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JAMIE !

“is this some kind of joke? you didn’t cheat on me? why the fuck would you keep up with a lie for over a year if you hadn’t? this is unbelievable.” shaking his head, jameson exhaled angrily, his heart pounding in his chest and he forced a hand through his mess of curls. “this honestly doesn’t make any sense and i’m going to pass out just trying to comprehend this… so you are telling me that you never cheated on me? you just told me that you had because you were scared of your feelings for me? what in the fuck.. you’re sick. mentally sick. or maybe you’re just fucking cruel.” his legs began to move back and forth, echoing the pacing of his mind. he couldn’t believe this. how could she have ruined him like she had and it all been a lie? it can’t be a lie. this can’t be real. “i’m at a loss of words. this is a whole new type of realm of betrayal for you, saskia. wow. i bet your parents are fucking proud of you.” jameson’s legs stopped moving and he just stared at her. tears falling from her eyes like a broken faucet, emotions spilling out of them. her eyes had always been one of his favorite parts of her and to see her this way, surprisingly, didn’t make him feel a damn thing. there was no ache to reach out to touch her, there was no pull at his heart to comfort her – there was nothing. just black, empty nothingness. “i can’t even look at you.”

there are NO answers to any of the questions he’s firing at her, & saskia makes no effort to diminish the atrocious appearance of the mistake she’s made - every accusation levelled at her is justified, & so she takes them in silence. the blonde does not attempt to interrupt jamie, nor attempt to form some response of her own for there is n o t h i n g to be said. she has never before IMAGINED what he might say after the truth is revealed but no amount of wondering would ever have prepared her for the onslaught. more than anything else, she hurts. deep in her gut, twisting at her insides in a way she feels deserving of but nonetheless makes her squirm. the tears continue to fall while he paces, unable to hold his gaze in fear of seeing more of the same - unbridled P A I N & betrayal. at the end of his rant saskia wipes a few errant tears away & braces herself before looking at him. ‘ i don’t know what to say, ’ she whispers, knowing that not a single thing she might utter would aid the situation even minutely. ‘ i’m just... so so sorry. you have been the MOST important person to me for such a significant part of my life, & it kills me that i’ve done this, but that never hurt as much as s e e i n g you like this. ’ she shakes her head. ‘ what do you want me to do ? ’ there’s nothing she would refuse him in this moment, eager to give him anything he might faintly desire in an effort to play some role in easing his suffering.

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NORA !

“ noooooo. ” nora sighed, absentmindedly moving her UNTOUCHED glass of wine in a few circles, letting it ferment before she lets it fill her palette. “ you’ve got to be kidding me ! what a seflish bitch, ” mouth A G A P E, nora brought the brim of the glass to her lips for a taste. “ you told her to back off and she went and told him? she’s got to be some kind of insecure to do some shit like that. girls like that deserve to be unhappy and quite frankly, i’m really great at making people unhappy. so just say the word and i’ll solve this little problem for you. ” nora raised her glass to the BLONDE before taking a long swig before heading to the comfort of her couch. her body sunk into the soft cushions and MASS of pillows as she cleared her throat in preparation for her story. “ well, ” the brunette began, pulling one of her fluffy pillows into her CHEST. “ i don’t have much to say other than i can’t fucking stand working with felix day. don’t know if you know him, but he is the dumbest human being on this planet. mine isn’t as juicy as yours – i’ve been laying low. ”

if for nothing else, saskia would visit nora’s house for the responses she has locked & loaded for whatever trouble the blonde has gotten herself into. while there are others that might attempt to give her advice or seek to understand the other side, nora will IMMEDIATELY take saskia’s side & support her by d r a g g i n g the individual in question as much as is necessary. ‘ god i love you, nora. always here with the right things to say, ’ she says with a smile, nodding her glass towards her friend in a mini toast. ‘ i’m going to keep that offer in my back pocket for when i need it most, because at the moment it’s more satisfying to do it myself - although i’ve not been the most successful, clearly, ’ she muses, taking another sip of her drink. ‘ yeah i know him, don’t see him too much. that’s a damn shame because he’s nice to look at. honestly why is there nobody halfway decent at fv ? it’s a tragedy. ’ saskia shakes her head. ‘ laying low sounds like a good plan at the moment, i feel like i need to stay at home as much as possible to avoid jamie now... i’ve no idea what he’s thinking but he’s gonna be PISSED. you must have something else going on, i need something to talk about other than jamie, at least for a minute or two, ’ she requests, a pout on her lips.

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GIgi Hadid for Reebok 

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MARITZA !

      maritza grins, stretching her limbs languidly like a cat basking in the sun. “ that’s what i like to hear, except think of it as a R E M I N D E R of an excellent night ! ” she strays away from the negatives of a hangover, not fond of considering it a consequence. “ & that’s all what matters, ” she chimes in, slowly pushing herself up onto her elbows so she’s not entirely laying down. bringing movement slowly back to her body is the best way to wake up when her head throbbed. “ hmm i suppose you’re right, but tell ‘em you’re stuck at the hospital, unable to leave ‘til someone important talks to ya’, ” maritza replies, racking her brain for E X C U S E S that would get saskia off the hook. her head tips back, laughter bubbling continuously from her lips like a fountain. slowly the laugh turns into a steady litany of OWS as a hand clutches her aching head. “ fine, ya’ win – ‘ll help entertain ya’ even in my W E A K state. ‘course ‘ll stay over. would’ve even if ya’ went to work ‘cause ‘m not ready to face that sunshine head on, ” maritza says, glancing out the window as she winces at how bright the day looks. at the mention of emmery, she perks up slightly – sometimes forgetting saskia lives with her. “ nothin’. we’re just … i dunno, friends i guess ? ” she says with uncertainty since the two of a H A B I T of falling back into their old ways. “ doesn’t matter ‘cause we’re hangin’ out. ” maritza murmurs softly as she waves off the topic. 

she’s nodding as maritza helps her CRAFT the details of her escape plan from the shift awaiting her, willing to try anything to avoid it. ‘ i think at the end of the day they can’t actually force me to come in anyway - people there are always getting pissy at me anyway for this that, or the other, so what’s one more thing to add to the list ? ’ with conviction in her tone she swings herself off of the bed in one f l u i d movement that ends in a groan, as the blonde hesitates with the room SPINNING around her. ‘ no fast movements, ’ she mutters, one hand on her head as if she might quiet her headache through touch. saskia’s phone call to her place of work is brief, as she’s reluctant to spend any more time than necessary speaking to the higher ups that demand she’s working more often than she’d like - even if she needs it to pay the bills. with that out of the way & maritza conceding to her pleas, she grins & joins the brunette on the bed again, giving her a tight SQUEEZE before rolling over to her side. there are questions left unanswered but saskia is in no mood to press for them, instead respecting the apparent desire of the other to move past the subject. ‘ tell me something good, mar, i think we might both need it. maybe if we’re feeling better in a bit we could go for a walk & just... hang out - i’ve heard somewhere that fresh air isn’t half bad these days. ooh we could nap first ! ’

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📲 imessage ➝ avellino 🐙

MILLER: this sounds like it's gonna be a lot of me buying things for you

MILLER: what have i agreed to.

MILLER: you don't wanna be my sugar baby?

MILLER: lmao rude

MILLER: but fine, you owe me big time

SASKIA: not a lot. just occasionally. i won't ever ask for anything other than food

SASKIA: pal perks

SASKIA: GROSS GROSS GROSS

SASKIA: im sure u have enough, i dont need any of this daddy/baby business it's so gross

SASKIA: u let me know what u want for me to pay u back

SASKIA: and if u say sexual favours you lose the iou xoxo

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📲 imessage ➝ mar 🌻

MARITZA: shiity fuckin

MARITZA: damn, that's a v bad mood

MARITZA: what do u call a bear w/ no teeth?

SASKIA: lowest of the low

SASKIA: ummmm

SASKIA: idk. what do u call a bear w/o teeth

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📲 imessage ➝ avellino 🐙

MILLER: noted...

MILLER: wtf am i buying food for u again sas

MILLER: i didn't sign up to be ur sugar daddy

SASKIA: i dont make the rules of pal perks

SASKIA: gross i h8 that phrase or name or whatever

SASKIA: call it an iou

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📲 imessage ➝ honey 🐻

HONEY: wait what she left u for what???

HONEY: lmao i wont tell dont worry

SASKIA: holIdAY i thinkkks

SASKIA: luv u u u

SASKIA: he h8s9 me

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╰ ✩ * Text to » saskia

ethan: thanks for your help. it's much appreciated

ethan: seems like they are kinda equal 🤔

ethan: judging by all the answers i've got

saskia: always a helping hand

saskia: mmmmmm definitely disagree

saskia: clearly people haven't been meeting the right blondes

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📲 imessage ➝ honey 🐻

HONEY: why sad?

HONEY: oh aha

HONEY: it's not really anything serious dont worry

SASKIA: blaisde is goneeee she lefftt me for hols

SASKIA: ohhhh

SASKIA: fnadbabbydoxzy

SASKIA: but it is;s a secfret shhhshh

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📲 imessage ➝ avellino 🐙

MILLER: pal perks :)

MILLER: cash splashin is what i do best wtf

MILLER: i can't suggest much else b/c it might be mistaken as non-friendly

MILLER: you know what i'm like

MILLER: but food is always an option or just pissing about somewhere different than usual

SASKIA: definitely stealing that. pal perks is cuteee

SASKIA: too easy. u have to use ur ✨imagination✨

SASKIA: no comment

SASKIA: i could go for food tbh but expect me to be grouchy

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📲 imessage ➝ avellino 🐙

MILLER: yeah i don't make the friend rules

MILLER: aren't we all lol

MILLER: how should i distract you? bedtime story? shopping spree? etc? :/

SASKIA: then i say favours are allowed

SASKIA: just when the trio was going to rise

SASKIA: idk, this is where u come in and save the day

SASKIA: dont need any of this cash splashin business tho